I can't take this anymore. It has already been fifteen minutes since Hide left the coffee shop yet both Kaneki and I were still sitting on our asses. Every time I looked up to see what he was doing he looked straight back at me only to avert his eyes the next second, face flushed with red. "Why?" I thought, " can I not read your mind"? It would be so much easier if I could. I want to know what he is thinking at this very moment. Since neither one of us seemed to be able to make a move, I decided to take the responsibility onto myself. I sucked in one deep breath and arose from my seat.
As a walked over to Kaneki's table, a rush of fear washed over me. My stomach began to twist in knots. "What if I was mistaken? What if he really hates me and just does not want the make Hide worry?" Panic was fully setting in. I could feel my very insides bursting into flames. "I have to face this. I cannot continue upon this path of self derision any longer." Before I even noticed it myself, I was standing in front of Kaneki. His beautiful grey eyes bore deep into mine. I was so dazed that I was rendered speechless. Here he was. My prince, my everything, yet I could not say anything. "What is wrong with me?"
"Uh...uh..ah...um…" I could not say anything. "This is too much!" I thought. I can't. I really, really, really can't do this. I squeezed my eyes shut as the edges of them began to sting. I felt so heartbroken and defeated. This was truly horrible. "Kaneki must think I'm freak now. He must really hate me and think I'm annoying person. I hate this!" Just as I was about to turn and leave I felt a hand grasp tightly around my wrist. Another flew to the base of my back. I knew whose hands these belong to before I even turned around. They were the hands that I had always dreamed of touching, holding, and comforting me. I turned back in the direction they came from. He was standing directly over me. I tilted my head up and then, once again, met the gaze of the one that I loved so dearly. Looking into Kaneki's eyes made me feel a wave of sadness wash over me. This is because I could see sorrow pooling out of those alluring, light grey eyes of his. "Is he upset because of me?" was the only thing I could think. "I am such a horrible person."
"P-Please don't leave." he stammered. "I have something t-to ask y-you." Kaneki said. His face began to blush a deep shade of red again. His hands began to get warmer. "I-I would like to know i-if you would like to s-sit h-here with me for a bit." I could feel heat rising into my cheeks. This is too cute. He is too cute. I could feeling my eyes swirling. "Sure," I replied. He withdrew his hands and made a slight gesture to the seat across from him, gently smiling. I sat first and he followed. We both just sat there in quiet for a minute or two before Kaneki decided to speak out. "Um, I have a question to ask you," he said. "Okay," I replied. He looked up from the table and stared straight at me, his face still tinted red here and there. "I noticed that everyone calls you Airi but I was sure that your name was Autumn?" he asked. "Oh, it is. Everyone just started calling me that one day. I don't really know the reason why. Honestly I can't even remember when it started." I answered. "Is it okay for me to call you that then," he asked in a worried tone. "Yeah." I answered. We both sat in silence for a few seconds again.
"Airi, can I give you a meaning for that name?" Kaneki asked, his head tilting to the side while a small smile covered his face. "Okay" I said. "Well, Ai means love. You probably know that already though." I nodded to this acknowledgement. "The Ri can mean "White Jasmine." The Jasmine flower can mean many things. It can mean love, sensuality, purity and many other things. I want to call you Airi because I think it is a lovely name and that you seem like a very nice and l-lovely person," Kaneki finished. His face was even redder than before. I do not think he even knew that he was going to end that sentence with calling me "lovely." I can even imagine steam coming out from his head. I felt my face flush and started to smile. "Thank you," I said. "You're welcome" he said, still blushing and now rubbing the back of his hair down as if it was messed up. I am in heaven! Senpai just called me "lovely!" I could feel my heart beating faster and faster.
As happy as I was I knew that it was starting to become three pm. I needed to leave now if I wanted to make it in time to my job. Even though it is part-time, I still get paid a more than decent amount, so I cannot lose this. "Sorry, but I have to leave for my job now," I announced. "Oh, okay. I was thinking of leave too. There is this new book at the bookstore that I really wanted to get. Speaking of that, I heard that you like to read too. Would you like to go with me next time?" He asked. "I would love to!" I replied with a smile. "Then how does next saturday sound. At twelve pm?" He asked. "That great," I answered.
Just as we began to get up to leave someone bumped into kaneki, dropping a few books here and there. "Oh, I'm terribly sorry," said the voice of a women. Kaneki got down to help pick up the books. "It's okay," he said. He looked up and stared the woman in her eyes. He looked amazed. I was not. I already knew who this bitch was before she even walked her ass over here. "Kamishiro Rize, what a nice place to met you," I said, trying to keep the acid in my voice down a bit so Kaneki could not notice. "Nice to meet you here too, Aiba" she said while smiling. Bitch, you know my name. Do not fuck up this chance with me a Kaneki senpai or else. "You two know each other?" Kaneki asked. Oh, he was so cute. "We work with each other sometimes at our jobs," she replied. She turned back to Kaneki and started to have a conversation with him. She stood up and moved right in front of me to keep me out of it.
For the past three minutes that these two have been talking to each other, I have thought of so many ways to kill someone. I started a list of honorable mentions. Decapitation, Bloody Angel, lethal injection, poison food, stabbing, etc. Now that i think about it, I have been wondering what would happen if someone were to be injected with bleach. Just when I would thinking of the possible outcomes I heard kaneki's voice. "O-Okay. A date tomorrow, right?" I saw Rize nod her head. Oh this bitch is really going to get it. After that Kaneki gave her back the books she dropped. He had such a huge bright smile on his face. He turned to me and I automatically knew that the look on my face had to resemble that of disappointment. "Oh, Airi, I'm sorry. I just did that without any regards for you feelings." He brought his head down a started to look at the side of the table. You could almost say that he even looked like he was about to cry.
"It's okay," I said. "I knew you liked her a lot anyway. If its okay, can we still meet up on Saturday?" He smiled, seeing that I had some understandings to his feelings and replied "Of course." We allowed this to be the end for the day a left the shop. The bookstore was on the way to my job so we walked together for about fifteen minutes. We discussed different types of books that we like to read and out favorite writers. When we got to the bookstore Kaneki smiled and said that he was off. I waved goodbye and started off towards work. Still feeling the weight of the ache in my heart from what happened with Kaneki and Rize. "A date, huh?..."
