Gaka*


"You…You were… "

"You can stop worrying already… "

"Thank you… Miss beautiful… "

"Baka…"


Rolling a brush in between his fingers, he gazed at the white canvas. It had been hours already, since he was sitting in front of it with no idea. But wait… he had an idea, he just didn't know where to start or how to start painting what was swirling in his head for days now.

Since the day the war had ended, many things had changed. Not only the world and its people and not only the peace falling upon Shinobi's nation, Sai knew something had changed deep inside his heart as well. The warmness of something had been wrapped around his pumping organ now. He had no idea what it was at first but little by little… he ought to figure it out.

Deep inside the layers of his heart, it was loneliness crawling. Even after he met Naruto and even after he started to make bonds with his teammates. He still was that vulnerable empty soul, who always felt a hole inside his chest and the hole seemed to be too deep to be filled with anything at all.

After a while, with reading books and expanding his knowledge over people's emotions, he learnt how to connect with others. Kami knew he tried his best even though he failed enormous times. You couldn't blame him though, he grew up learning of emotions and feelings being the waste of a Shinobi.

To be able to kill brutally and accomplish every mission, he had to suffocate a little of his humanity every now and then. Better to kill it off from the beginning than to have to deal with it during an important mission.

That was what they taught him, that was the rules he was growing up with and so… no matter how much he tried to break out the icy shell around his heart, it seemed to be an impossible task. Nevertheless, after meeting the blond boy, he didn't give up on trying no matter how wrong or awkward he seemed at times.

But to read about emotions sure was different than to actually experience them. Sai, with all his intelligence, didn't know that quiet well and when he once heard of it from Naruto, he was stunned. How to feel emotions?

War sure brought loss and grief to people's life but for Sai… it was... somehow different. During that time, amongst all those sorrows, when people were losing their senses, their loved ones, their lives… Sai gained something valuable, something he always thought it was impossible for him to even lay his eyes upon it.

The emotions and to be more specific, the strongest of them all… Love.

The soothing breeze of early autumn, brushed over his pale skin. Not so pale now…huh? The smell of full-bloom lilies spread all around him… A natural smile found its way to adore his manly figure. And so his heart started to pick up the pace a bit as the thought crossed his mind.

The hideous cruel war… that took lives, that brought nothing but loss and broken hearts, gave Sai both a sweet and bittersweet jewel.

It tightened his bonds with his comrades, it tore apart the cocoon around his heart. It taught him… how to be loved and to have some to love to.

As he felt a reassuring hand on his shoulder, a soft voice echoed in his head. "Sai…you're not alone."

He finally knew where to begin. Soaking the brush in the purple ink and painting the fairest portrait, he could master.


*meaning : artist

Hey fellow readers!

Thanks for all the favorites and follows and thanks to Ken 18 for the encouraging comment

I never knew Sai could be such a sweet character, Gosh... my heart aches.

I don't know about you guys but this chappie was super sweet, even for me. When I was writing it, the whole time, I had a smile on my face. I think I'm satisfied with it and how it turned out except for little errors maybe... here and there... anyway

Hope you enjoyed and thanks for reading ;)