Chapter 2 - Already Gone

I woke in the hospital, I wasn't sure how much time had gone by, but I knew my life had changed drastically. The heart monitor was beeping steady at my head. The lights were turned down. I looked around and was met by 2 blue eyes looking at me, James. My thoughts started to come back to me, the fight, the screaming and the baby. My baby, the one James didn't want.

"Bella, baby can you hear me?" James asked while he moved to the bed to stand next to me. I felt empty alone and scarred. "Bella please say something."

So I did I spoke in a voice I didn't recognize a voice so sad.

"James, Get Out!!!"

"Bella baby you don't mean that you fell down the stairs, I was so worried about you, I was scar…."

I cut him off there " Scarred you don't know what being scarred feels like I remember James, I remember everything, oh god the baby please tell me the baby is fine."

"I told you Bella I wasn't going to share you, and I meant it I will not be second in you life."

"The baby James how is the baby?" "Please" I started to cry I already knew my heart already was breaking because there was no baby, I had lost this innocent baby because of james.

"There is no baby Bella you lost it when you fell down the stairs"

"GET OUT I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN NEVER WERE OVER DO YOU HEAR ME, GET OUT"

Next thing I heard was the door opening and Dr. Cullen walked in. I vaguely remember hearing him warn James and telling him to leave.

"Bella, how are you feeling, you had us so worried, you took a bad fall down those stairs, I am sorry about the baby Bella. But you will be fine." All I could do was cry.

Dr. Cullen was a good man he was like a second father to me and his wife Esme she was like a mother to me. Alice was there daughter we were best friends we done everything together, but we lost contact. She never liked James, she always said I could do better that I could have anyone I wanted. But she was wrong there was one guy I could never have, her brother Edward. He was 2 years older then us and was beautiful, tall and very well built not to big like my brother Emmett, but he was perfect. Slender but abs of steel. But he never knew I existed. I remember telling him that I had feelings for him, he just laughed and told me I was like his sister. That was the last time I saw him, he graduated and went off to college to become a doctor. Alice went off to college in Texas for clothing design while I stayed here in Forks with James. I had met James my senior year and we have been together since. He wanted me to stay home while he worked and made a home for us. I should have seen the red flags then, my dreams of becoming a nurse were no longer a dream. But James loved me and I wanted to make him happy. We moved into a nice house just out of town and the rest was history. I was snapped out of my thoughts when my father and brother came into the room.

"Bella, sweetheart how are you feeling?, you had us so scarred." He looked like he hadn't slept in days.

"Da..Dad, oh dad" tears were streaming down my cheeks. "Daddy I was so scarred"

"Shhh, baby I know, your going to be ok, I wont let you hurt anymore" he just kept holding me in his arms, rocking me back and forth. I looked up and saw Em standing at the foot of the bed. He was just looking at me with such a pained look on his face. He walked over to me and rubbed my head. I just cried.

A little bit later dad got up and laid me back on my pillow. Em took his place and played with my hair, trying to sooth me, he still hadn't spoke to me. My dad spoke up "Bella honey do you remember what happened?" I just looked at him how do you tell your father you allowed this man you loved to break you down, to steal everything away from you?

"All I remember was waking in the hospital dad, I got up to go get me something to drink and woke up here." I lied , I just looked him in the eyes and lied. I cant tell him about what really happened I couldn't allow him to do anything that would cause more pain, I just want it over with. That's when Emmett spoke for the first time, "Bullshit, Bella what did James do, I know he had something to do with this, I have never liked him. Bella tell me what happened."

"Okay listen we had gotten into it we yelled but that was it we made up, we went to bed and I got out of bed to get some water end of story, Em I promise, I must have lost my balance and fell, you know how clumsy I am. Please just leave it alone, ok just let it go."

"No Bella I know there's more." Em was not going to give up. I understood what he was saying he had always been my protector , always took care of me like an older brother would do, but I just couldn't tell him. I just looked at him with a pleading look to leave it alone.

"Bella" Dr. Cullen said as he came back into the room, "You are quite lucky, just some bruises and scratches, I am going to release you in the morning but for tonight I would like for you to rest." He was smiling he always new how much I hated the hospital and the food. "How dose that sound to you?"

"Sounds wonderful"

"Well Em I think we should be going if your going to be ok Bella?"

"Yes Dad please I will be fine, I think I am gonna call mom and knock out for a while".

"Well ok then , I love you Bells" he said as he bent down to give me a kiss on my forehead. "call me if you need anything ok?"

"Yes dad, I promise, but really I will be fine"

"I Love You little sis, please if there were something else you would tell me right?"

"Yes Em, I promise, and I love you to." They turned and walked out of the room. Then Dr. Cullen spoke to me not as a doctor but as a father, "Bella, I know this is hard on you, I see it in your eyes, please if you want to talk to me it would be confidential but I know your hurting, you cant do this on your own, you need help. I know you weren't far along in your pregnancy but it hurts all the same dear, please feel free to come to me, or Esme we love you like our own daughter, you know that right"?

"yes I know thank you for everything Carlisle, I really appreciate it but I want to be alone right now ok"

"sure sweaty just have the nurse page me if you need anything ok?"

"Ok" "again thank you" and then he was gone. I was alone in my thoughts of what to do now.

I lay here thinking about my life. It defiantly wasn't turning out how I wanted. I was a 24 year old woman with no job, no home and a life that was a lie. There was only one thing I could do was to get away from here leave Forks and start a life somewhere else. But where, where could I go and get my life on track, start over, and be happy? Those were the thoughts going thru my head as I finally closed my eyes and fell into a dreamless sleep.

I woke the next morning with a clear head I knew what I had to do.

"Mom, I want to come to Phoenix for a while"

"O baby that would be great, I have a room for you just come home I miss you" she said.

"I have to talk to dad but I feel like it would be a good thing" I think.

Later I was released and was on my way to dads, Em picked me up and was driving me. It was silent he did not say a word but I know he new something was up. I finally decided to break the news to him.

"Em, I am going to live with mom for a while, I have to get my life back in order and I cant do it here. I have to get away from here, start fresh." All he said was "I know, I will miss you so much but I understand what your saying, you know I will always be here for you"

"I know" was all I said. A few hours later I was telling Charlie the same thing. I saw the hurt in his eyes and it broke my heart even more.

"Bells I want you to know you have a home here, this will always be your home. I love you, but I understand you have to do what you feel like is best for you. Your a smart young lady and you have to follow your heart. I will miss you, but I understand."

"Dad this isn't goodbye, you know we will talk everyday and I will be back. Forks is my home and I love it here, I just have to get away for a while. I love you daddy, and I will miss you to." He hugged me tight. I knew I was doing the right thing at that point, the only thing I could do.

So here I am boarding a plane to my new life, a new start. No more James, I couldn't stand the thought of being around him, all the memories good and bad. I no longer loved him, not sure I really ever did, and then there was the thought that I had lived a life of lies with him, I deserved better. I had to do this, I would be a better person in the long run for this. Right?

A/N: I am not Stephanie Myer, I am just a person with thoughts and real life situations are helping in writing a story for you to read.

This chapter was hard it was not what I had written down it was better this way, I hope you aren't disappointed I will update more tonight or tomorrow, I have several chapters already written out just tweaking them a little. And since my daughter has the flu, I wont be working this week. Please let me know what you think , thanks, Lori