He was gone again. Leaving her in this sad room, alone. She was closed, he said it was because he wanted her to be safe. TenTen believed him-in every least significant word, because she knew that Neji will disappear again. Every time she prayed for him to return to her , but she never asked. She wanted him to see what he does. She was sitting there half crazy and she knew that he, too, thought about her. And she wished she didn't love it. But now she was no longer able to take it back. Every day she descended into hell just to hear angry voices singing their prophetic songs , just to be able to lose herself so she could fall. Then he appeared. Everything she did ... Jumped out of the pit, losing her breath, just to hear him say that he will stay.
-I promise to get us back ...
She watched as the progress goes. Why he had to left? She couldn't touch him, nor he could touch her.
She has been spilled on the floor. She was a rose, which had nothing but thorns. She suffered, tore herself piece by piece, and she has already lost in this , she didn't know if she loves it or hates it, she wasn't sure anymore. She wanted to sleep for so long now. He never had problem with that.
-You can not make yourself doing that anymore-so Neji was with her again. She didn't even notice when he appeared-you should forget a while ago. You should live.
Neji walked over to her and took her hand. TenTen let him lead her like a limp doll. Always barely felt his touch, even if the rain poured down from the sky with black streams cutting her skin. A large hand pulled her through a narrow alley. She didn't understand how she could not know so much of this place yet know it so well. So many mistakes. Neji smiled at her and began to walk away. Fog enveloped her body again.
-Find me-he said sadly.
TenTen walked through the cold mist. Why did she know this place? Few steps, few trees, few marble slabs. She was smiling. She propably touched her stomach with something sharp, cuz she felt a strange pang.
-Find me.
She fell to her knees, fingertips touching the hard stone.
-I already did-she said distractedly-For too long, Neji, too far. Stop breathing if you've never see you again. And I forgive you, I ... I just so afraid to let go ...
-I will be with you.
About one drop too much fell on stone. She could not fight the tears that weren't coming. She was so far away, but she didn't want to miss him. She didn't want anyone to know. And so they would not understand. She lay down on the cool grass. She felt pain, but that was fine because it was letting her know she was alive. She didn't care if it was too late. Nothing was real until it was gone. Without him, she didn't even have a pulse. It was cold and dark. No one could save her soul, with every move she was dying. She fought to get trough the night. She was losing it. That's who she was - it wasn't the person that she wanted to be. But now she knew, and she was happy. Her whole body, now pale from accepting the cold, it was becoming more and more limp.
-I'm lettin go, Neji ...
-I'm waiting ..
She smiled. Rose fading, lost everything-even spikes. She is drifting away from the rain. It was so quiet. Too cold. Her hands were red, or so it seemed. She was just tired, so she closed her eyes.
-I am waiting.
Remaining forces she laid her hand on the marble expecting the cold to bite her skin, but it didn't came. It was no longer cold. With every move she was dying, but she just smiled.
Cold rain drops hitting the stone slab were mixing down with crimson red from a white hand. It was the first time when someone gave him something more than flowers. This time it was the heart. And it was the first time someone was happy standing over Neji Hyugas grave.
