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A few months passed since he last thought about his ex-wife til he cried himself to sleep. Many operations and complicated cases kept him busy and his mind from wandering to a certain redhead.
But today everything changed.
A woman in her fourtees died under his knife because of a complication during surgery, there was nothing he could do to safe her life.
After he removed his mask and the gloves he washed his hands til the skin was sore and let a few tears drop in the sink. Losing patients was something he couldn't deal with even after nearly 20 years of being a surgeon. The faces of members after they got told about their loss made his expression get cold, made his heart sink a little more.
And today was not different.
He told the family about the complications, about the bleeding and the sudden death. He apologized for his fail, assured them his compassionate and left without another word.
It was always the same routine.
But not today.
Because this woman was special.
Because this woman reminded him horryfying of Addison.
And now he reached the same point where he had been a few monts ago. His stupid brain couldn't stop thinking about her. Even during surgery he wondered how she was.
And suddenly, as he once again lay alone in their trailer, because let's face the truth, Meredith was never the one for him, he decided to change things.
He needed change. A big change.
Derek Shepherd could no longer go on like they never happened, like she was never the love of his life, like he never thought of her as her soulmate.
And while the doctor packed all his clothes and belongings in the case and booked a flight to L.A., he was sure that this was the only right thing to do. Even if she now hated him, even if she throw bad names at him because of his sudden revival in „her" home.
Derek Shepherd was going to L.A.
