Hey guys! Thanks for reading! And thanks again to my WONDERFUL beta! :D :D Now, bare with me because this is where the impulses start getting heavy. Really heavy. So here it is! Oh, wait, first: I don't own BTR or Tokio Hotel or anything besides Sadie and this plot….enjoy!
James felt me stiffen under his arm and pulled me closer. His breath tickled my ear as he whispered, "You okay?"
I nodded but pulled away from his chest shakily. I've got to distract him, this is getting a little weird.
"Hey, guys!" I yelled over the ruckus. No one quit talking. "GUYS!" I screamed.
The guys finally turned to look at me with wide, laughing eyes. "Thank you." I smiled prettily. "I have a declaration!"
"We're all ears." Kendall said sarcastically.
"Well, I hope not." I replied. "Then you'd be ugly."
He rolled his eyes and chuckled. "What is your declaration?"
"That the boys must sing for me. Please and thank you." I said with a high-pitched giggle.
They all exchanged entertained glances, "Well, okay then." Carlos smiled at me brightly. I returned the smile and waited for one of the four to start. Kendall began with his amazingly sweet voice.
When your chips are down, back against the wall.
Got no more to give, cause we gave it all.
Seems like goin a distance is unrealistic.
We're too far from the start.
Carlos took the next part, singing just as well as I always told him he could.
So we take what comes and we keep on goin,
leanin on each others shoulders.
Then we turn around and see we've come so far somehow.
James took the lead on the chorus. The others sang softly behind him, harmonizing.
We're halfway there, we're lookin' good now.
Nothin's gunna get in the way.
Were halfway there, and lookin' back now
I never thought that I'd ever say
We're halfway there
We're halfway there
Mystified at James's improved sound, I smiled. His voice was so gentle but so strong. Just like him…I almost smacked myself as the thought crossed my mind.If we never flew, we would never fall.
If the world was ours, we would have it all.
But the life we live isn't so simplistic,
you just don't get what you want.
Logan began to sing, a smile easing onto his face. I only saw this particular smile when he was singing. It was my favorite of them all.
So we take what comes and we keep on goin',
leanin on each others shoulders.
Then we turn around and see we've come so far somehow.
Again, James took the lead on the chorus, proving to me how good he really was. How good they all were.
Were halfway there, we're lookin' good now.
Nothin's gunna get in the way.
Were halfway there and lookin' back now.
I never thought that I'd ever say
We're halfway there
We're halfway there.
Logan's voice lifted to a feathery high-note. He sounded angelic.
How you ever gunna reach the stars
If you never get off the ground
and you always be where you are,
If you let life knock you down.
Again, James took over for the end. They all smiled and laughed, pointing at me as they sang.
We're halfway there, we're lookin' good now.
Nothin's gunna get in the way.
We're halfway there, and lookin' back now
I never thought that I'd ever say.
We're halfway there
We're halfway there
I didn't realize how big my smile was until Carlos poked my cheek, "Doesn't it hurt to smile that big?"
I laughed and swatted his hand away, "No, Stupid, it doesn't. And guys, that was amazing!"
I recieved variations of 'Aw, thanks,' and 'Don'tcha know it?' in response. I punched James and Carlos's shoulders playfully.
Ms. Knight pulled into the parking-lot and said, "Alright, get out of the car!" We piled out with huge grins. I slung my arms around Carlos and Logan's shoulders, lifting my feet and putting all of my weight on them.
"Away, we go!" I laughed, pointing vaguely with my hand that was twined around Carlos's neck.
The boys snickered as they led me to their apartment. As soon as we entered apartment 2J, I whistled. It was pretty impressive.
"Nice digs," I complimented, absorbing as much of the beautiful home as I could.
"Perks of being a popstar baby," James bragged, grinning from ear to ear. I slapped his shoulder playfully.
"It's not nice to gloat," I reprimanded, trying not to chuckle. He bowed his head and emitted a loud whimper, pretending to feel guilty.
I patted his head. "Good boy."
"So, do you need any help unpacking?" Kendall offered, disrupting our little game.
"Not really but you can come hang with me while I do." I offered, gesturing to the tiny duffle-bag. I headed towards the door that stood open, sticking my head into the small room. The boys followed me, poking each other and playing.
"Cute." I said with a small smile. The boys had done a good job of putting a touch of Sadie in there. Posters of 3 Days Grace, Paramore, Tokio Hotel, and others covered the walls. Right above my headboard, however, was a poster of Big Time Rush.
I dropped my bag on the bed and knelt on the bed so I could peer at the poster. "It's nice, right?" Logan said, sitting beside me on the bed.
"Yeah…yeah, it's awesome." I sank down to my butt and unzipped the duffle-bag. I walked over to the closet doors and pulled some hangers out. Bringing them over to the bed, I started to put shirts on them. I handed them, one-by-one to Logan. He handed them to Carlos, who handed them to James, who then handed them to Kendall. Kendall put them in the closet.
When my seven shirts were in the closet, I pulled open a dresser drawer and dropped my shorts into it. My underwear went into another. With a satisfied smile, I hip-bumped the drawers closed. Then, I returned to the bed.
I pulled the last item from the duffle-bag. The photo-album's tips were charred and black, pitiful looking. My jaw clenched as I held back tears. The boys all moved closer to me, sensing my distress.
Logan put an arm around my shoulders, pressing his lips to my temple. "Dee…" He whispered. "Dee, what is it?"
Kendall came around the bed, sitting down on my other side. He took the album from my hands gently. He flipped it open to the first page. His face registered the memories that stared up at him. "Oh god, Sadie." He sighed, handing the album to Logan.
Logan moved his arms from my shoulders and leafed through the album with James and Carlos hovering over his shoulder. Kendall pulled my head gently to his chest. "It's okay to cry, Sadie. It's just us."
At those words, I let my torrent of tears free. I sobbed against him, clutching his shirt tightly. He kissed my head and smoothed my hair. Carlos set his hand on my knee, just letting me know he was there. James rubbed my back and the constant gesture was soothing. Logan whispered reassurances in my ear.
I don't even know how long I cried, how long I made them comfort me. They never stopped; taking shifts so that someone was always there to hold me, to comfort me. After a while, Katie opened the door and froze.
"Uh…" she stuttered. "Uh…Mom says that dinner's ready."
A sudden thought jarred me. I touched my pocket gently. They're still there. Impulsively, I tore myself away from Kendall and Logan and Carlos and James. I ran past Katie, leaving apartment 2J as fast as I could.
The people that were coming into the Palm Woods from work were completely oblivious to the crying girl running down the hall. They were all too focused on their phones or their friends or their parents or whatever to notice me. And that was all the better.
I raced towards the Palm Woods park, finally skidding to a stop in front of a massive oak. I glanced up the tree, studying the branches to see if they could hold my weight. Deciding that I honestly didn't care either way, I reached up and began to pull myself up the tree.
As I got to about the tenth limb from the bottom, I sighed and slid my butt onto the branch. It didn't waver under my weight so I shifted my back against the trunk. I reached into my pocket and stared at the plastic bag.
There were nine white pills lying in the bag, begging for me to take them and end it. End everything. Give the boys their life back. Stop burdening Ms. Knight. Stop burdening my best friends.
I pulled open the bag, letting the pills slither down into my hand. Gathering enough spit to down the pills, I popped them in two at a time. It didn't take long for them to take their effect.
The world went black and I felt myself falling.
"SADIE!" Kendall's scream shoved its way into my darkness. Kendall, my mind struggled against the darkness. Goodbye hon. You've done so much for me. I'll never burden you again.
The last thing I thought about before I lost consciousness was the BTR poster hanging over my bed. I'd never see it again.
*cringe* Don't hate me! I promise I'll post chapter 3 as soon as it's done. Don't flame please! I can promise you that the next chapter will be a lot less sad! Uh, R & R!
