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Nathan ran out of the room and into the nearest bathroom. What was he thinking? He wasn't the cheating type he never had before and he hated anyone who did. So does that make him a hypocrite? He went to the sink and splashed water on his face it was cold water. He was still shaken up about what had almost happened and what did happen. He couldn't believe that he almost had sex with Brooke, Brooke Davis his old best friend. They used to be so close he told her everything and she always knew what he was feeling she could read him like a book.
It was the same for him he always knew what she was thinking or feeling. They always had this weird chemistry that couldn't be explained. They would sometimes have an entire conversation without words they could read each others faces and just know what the other was thinking it was honestly pretty weird to think about. "What the hell?" Nathan whispered out loud. How could this happen? He thought.
All he wanted to do was give her a nice graduation present. Ever since he moved back into his old house he kept finding all sorts of pictures and things that reminded him of Brooke. So he figured why not give them to her. It hadn't taken him that long to make the scrapbook he knew that was kind of a lame gift to give some one at their age, but he also knew Brooke and Brooke wouldn't care. He was right he saw the tears in her eyes as they looked at it.
He wouldn't trade seeing her expression when she saw the plane ticket for anything. He knew that fashion was important to her probably better than anyone. He knew it was her dream and he wanted her to be happy so he tried to help. Nathan honestly didn't know what possessed him to spend that kind of money on a plane ticket that wasn't even for him, but when he finished making the book it just didn't feel like enough so he finally thought of her going to Paris for the summer before college and it just felt like the right thing to do. He didn't even bother telling Haley about it. Oh shit he thought. "Haley." He whispered. He cheated on his wife Haley.
Nathan felt nothing but guilt. "Why did I let it get as far as it did?" he said to himself. It wasn't Brooke's fault she was excited and he was almost positive all she wanted was a hug. "I just happened to turn my head as she did and it was an accident." He tried to reason with himself but it wasn't working. No matter how it happened accident or not it happened and he didn't know what to do. Should he talk to Brooke about it? Would she blame him? No he thought it wasn't his fault.
He splashed some more cold water on his face. He really needed to calm down. He dried his face and went outside. As he walked out his eyes immediately met Brookes. Why did this always happen when they just looked at each other? It wasn't normal but something was some how pulling them together like magnets and he couldn't look away. He was so busy zoning out on Brooke that he didn't notice Haley come up to him.
"Hey you." She said. Nathan jumped and looked away from Brooke to look at Haley. He felt guilty all over again.
"Hey." He said trying to act calm. Did she see him looking at Brooke did she see him take her into that room?
"Where have you been I've been looking for you and calling you, but you didn't answer." She said not acting like she knew anything.
"Yeah sorry my phone died and I was by the keg talking to Skillz." He said lying and feeling bad about it.
"Oh ok do you wanna get out of here I'm exhausted." She said smiling
"Yeah sure lets go." Nathan said getting one last look at Brooke.
They drove home in silence, which didn't bother Nathan it gave him time to think and try to rationalize his previous actions. The more he thought about it the more he realized that no matter how he looked at it he cheated on Haley with Brooke. It might have started out accidental but he didn't stop it. It just felt so right to be with her he didn't even think about Haley or anyone else. The truth was he really missed Brooke since they drifted and stopped being best friends.
They pulled into the driveway and walked up to James' room to check on him. He was sleeping peacefully which was good considering how tired the both of them were. They walked into their room and changed for bed. Nathan was wearing basketball shorts and a white t-shirt. Haley was wearing a t-shirt and PJ pants. She leaned over and kissed him, which surprised him. It wasn't as hard or quite as passionate as Brooke's kiss but it was fine. No! He thought stop thinking about Brooke she isn't your wife Haley is think about her!
Haley pulled away and said good night. Nathan sank down into the bed and closed his eyes. All he could think about was Brooke. All sorts of memories were passing through his mind especially the most recent one. The truth was no one kissed like Brooke and he hated himself for loving every minute of their time together tonight. His thoughts were interrupted when Haley asked him something.
"Hey are you okay you were acting kind of weird tonight and now your breathing kind of hard." She asked concerned. Nathan turned to her and forced a smile and said, "I'm fine just tired that's all good night." He rolled over hoping she would drop it and go to sleep. He heard her sigh and felt her roll over. He felt himself sigh with relief. What the hell is wrong with me? He thought he loved Haley he really did she was a wonderful mother a great wife except for kissing Chris and going on tour with him, but he couldn't be mad about that anymore he almost slept with Brooke which is ten times worse. She is an amazing woman and he was lucky to have her, but there was something about Brooke that was just so real and passionate that he couldn't not be in her life since she was such a huge part of his for the first 15 years of his life.
But he had to stop what ever it was that was going on. Well technically there is nothing so that was a one time thing he kept telling himself but there was something in the back of his head telling him that it wasn't entirely the truth. He closed his eyes trying to remember all of his good times with Haley, but Brooke all he could really think about was Brooke.
