I ran up the stairs and into my room. I closed the door, knowing I wouldn't be able to hold in the tears any longer. They poured over for so long, that I couldn't see. When I could calm myself, I walked over to my computer. I read over my e-mail that was sent from Renée and replied, telling her about my week and time with Jacob. I went on and on about my time in La Push and all about the boys. My mother told me about Phil teaching her how to play baseball and how bad she was at it.

When that was finished, I walked over to my bed and turned on the radio. I grabbed my book and read for hours. I realized that the first radio station was country.

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time

Here comes the start of every sleepless night

The first of every tear I'm gonna cry

Here comes the pain, here comes me wishing things had never changed

I flipped the station to get the stupid break up song out of my head. I wouldn't fall so hard again. The next station was no better so I tried to drown it out.

Now that it's all said and done,

I can't believe you were the one

To build me up and tear me down

Like an old abandoned house

What you said when you left

Just left me cold and out of breath

I fell to far was in way too deep

I guess I let you get the best of me

I had to change the station again looking for some sort music that wasn't all lovey dovey, but even that didn't help. I was so annoyed, and of course, with my luck it was a break up song.

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'

What could have been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was trying to do

I flipped the channel for one final chance to not hear a love song. I was wrong but this one this one was different. I finally realize my feelings.

I'm staring out into the night

Trying to hide the pain

I'm going to the place where love

And feeling good don't ever cost a thing

And the pain I feel is a different kind of pain

This song finally sunk in. I was completely in love with Jake. Not only had he fixed my broken heart, he had fixed all of me. I had the pieces put together; I was made for Jacob as he was for me. With that as the last thought in my head I fell asleep.

Though the thought was sweet but a new nightmare came tonight. I was walking through the forest as usual, but this time I had a purpose. I saw a wolf in the distance, urging me on. I followed each of its moves before hearing the footsteps behind me. I stopped and in front of me was Jake's limp body. He had a gunshot wound to the right temple. I screamed out and woke up crying.

It wasn't the same scream; this was muffled with tears, but still loud enough to startle someone. I looked at the clock; it said it was 6 am.

I got ready for school very fast. I drove down the road slowly, making sure I didn't miss anything. I saw each rain drop fall, each animal run, and every ray of sunshine that tried to push past the clouds.

All of my classes were a blur except lunch. I sat between Angela and Mike. Mike was busy talking with Ben. Angela was talking to the new girl, Kira. She had re hair and light brown eyes. The way the teachers looked at her was like they were scared. It was the same with her little sister, Rickey.

It took a few minutes, but Angela finally noticed me, and she turned my way. She gesture toward Kira but Kira shook her head.

"So, hey Bella," she started. "How are thing with you now? I didn't see you at all over spring break."

"Oh, things are good, I've kind of been seeing some other friends on the La Push res. So how are thing between you and Ben?"

"Things are great, I don't think anything could get any better," she said. "Seeing other friends, eh? You mean like a boyfriend?"

"Not exactly, I've been hanging out with him since Edward left, Mike knows the guy."

"He's from La Push you said, right. Aren't those guys supposed to be like really muscular and hot? Wait, do I know him?"

"He was at the beach last year with us, so you might know him."

I hadn't notice that Jess was over here now too. She leaned in closer to us and looked as if she was going to ask a question. She did.

"What does he look like? Did you guys kiss yet? Is he amazing?" She asked. "Oh, I almost forgot, what's his name?"

"Well, he is muscular, tan and has the most beautiful brown eyes. Yes, he is amazing, what guy isn't when they are like him? His name, it's uh Jacob, you know. Ummm, Jacob Black."

"First off," Jess started. "Ya didn't answer one of my questions. Second off, I've seen him around, and he is H…O…T hot. How did you score him?"

"Jess, Bella's boyfriend is human too," Angela turned toward me. "Jess did ask a good question, have you two kissed yet?"

"Yes," I said matter of factly.

"Oh, did I tell you guys that Mike asked me out?"

Jess blabbered on and on for the rest of lunch. By the bell, I was sort of annoyed that I had brought Jake up in the conversation. The rest of the day was a total blur. I couldn't concentrate. Jacob was on my mind all day, I could see his smile and how it didn't reach his eyes most of the time. At the final bell I ran to my truck.

As everyone left, I still sat in my truck, and for a split second, I could have sworn I was flying. I saw Jacob at his house laughing, and then it all disappeared. And I was back in my truck.

The house was quiet when I got home. I checked the messages, hoping Jacob had called. He hadn't, I felt let down. I had hoped that I would have been able to hear Jacob's soothing voice. He didn't call or do anything for the next week, and I had made up my mind to go down to the reservation.

Jacob P.O.V

I slowly refolded the paper's crease, making sure it would rip right. I had to be gentle with Bella; she had to know where I was going. This note would mean everything for… for us. I stopped folding it and ripped the note through the center. Then I grabbed a new piece of paper for a new note.

Bella,

I'll be out for a while. Out of town,

Just for now. I am leaving tonight and to

Tell you the truth, I don't know when

I'll be back. I can't tell you where I am

Going, but I wish I could. I know that I

Promised to see you soon, but something came

Up. Sam doesn't know that I left yet, so please,

Please don't tell him. I WILL be back by your

Graduation. I have my bike and phone if

Something happens. Bella, I love you more

Than anything.

FOREVER YOURS,

Jacob

I looked over the note, tempted to rip it up and just tell Bella I was leaving. I heard an engine cut in the front. It was too quiet to be Bella's truck so I assumed it was Charlie. What is he doing here? I thought. I looked out the window to see Charlie and Billy outside. I walked toward the door as they did. When Charlie opened the door, I handed him the note.

"Jacob…" Charlie started.

"Charlie, just give her the note, and tell her that I'll be back soon," I said, cutting Charlie off. "Dad, I'm sorry, I have to go."

"Sure, sure kid."

Billy watched my every move, and tried to hide it. I wouldn't take being treated like a two year old, so I ran to my room grabbed my jacket, and jumped out the window. I ran to the garage and hopped on my bike.

I sped out of La Push and down the highway. I was headed to the East coast to see the people, if I could call them that, who I would be least likely to see. Especially for the sake of Bella and me. I watched the town speed past me as I raced away; leaving the only home I had ever known.

The highway sped by, underneath me flying away. The wind would have blown most people so they couldn't see, but I saw everything clearly. Each line on the road, everything. I left it all behind me, knowing that this might be the last time I was here before Bella graduated from high school. I promised that I would be there, for her. This was all for her.