Sorry it has been forever. Life happened.
Just a fluff chapter after all the drama.
Chapter 3
August 9th.
I can't sleep.
I lied in bed for the longest time scratching Callie's back while we both talked and shed some tears.
I feel some better after our talk and I hope she does, too. I always feel better after any talk with her.
It's one of the many things I love about her.
Although we're both stubborn at times, she's so easy to talk to about anything. We can have some of the most serious, heartfelt conversations and she still finds a way to make me laugh, as I do her.
Eventually she fell asleep, so I decided to write some feelings down. As soon as Callie rolled off me, I scooted up in the bed and grabbed my journal, but just as soon as I was about to put pen to the pad she stirred and wrapped herself around me and pleaded for me to scratch her head.
So now, my baby is finally asleep with her head lying in my lap and for the longest time I couldn't seem to take my hands or eyes off her. I told myself a hundred times to stop scratching her head, but I love running my fingers through her thick brown hair. I know she loves it, and I always want to make her feel good even if she's unaware of it. I could do it for hours on end.
Actually I'd do anything for Calliope for hours on end, but sometimes I don't think she realizes that. I'm not sure she understands how deep my love runs for her.
Not that I fault her on that, everyone has their days where they question everything under the sun and I know that's what she's been doing, especially today.
She was so excited last night and this morning or that was until she took the pregnancy test which made the fifth time we had received negative results, and it's wearing on us both.
She was adamant that this was our moment. She felt it within herself and to be honest, I did, too. Maybe it was because I could see the hopefulness return in her eyes, but the test proved otherwise.
There was a part of me that wondered if it could be a false negative like I had with Charlee, but Callie killed my suspicion while lying in bed tonight. She had informed me that she had April run a blood test on her this afternoon.
It breaks my heart to watch Callie take shot after shot after shot, and test after test after test to only have negative outcomes. The disappointment in her eyes breaks my heart every single time.
We know Callie isn't as fertile as she was five years ago, but she's not infertile. Addison has performed every test under the sun and says there is nothing wrong with her, so why can't my wife get pregnant?
I keep questioning myself, am I not doing something right? Am I not taking good enough care of her?
The Doctor in me knows these are all silly questions, but in this situation I am only a wife. And to watch mine go through this... sucks.
I can't help but wonder if I would have folded the last load of laundry or made her rest when she insisted on cooking or if I would have cleaned the floor that one time... maybe she would be pregnant.
I've talked to Addison a number of times about everything and she insists it's nothing we're doing, but I still can't help it.
I keep telling myself over and over that I should have took the one bag of trash out, I should have made her sit down instead of helping me carry the groceries inside the house, and I should have demanded her to rest on the couch and bake our baby instead of running after Charlee.
I just feel like I'm failing her as a partner, and it's the worst feeling in the world.
That's just a small amount of what I'm feeling, so I can't even begin to think what Callie's feeling. She hasn't said it, but I think she feels as if she's let me and our family down.
The truth is she has done anything but.
She's brave for doing this so many times when some women try once or twice and stop. She's strong, loving, beautiful, and just all around amazing to me and our daughter.
To us, the sun rises and sets on Calliope Robbins.
I know, I know she's a flawed human being, we all are, but in mine and our daughter's eyes my wife is flawless.
She has a heart of gold and is breathtakingly stunning inside and out.
That woman deserves the world, and I'm going to do my damnedest to make that happen because I know we are meant to have this house full of tiny humans.
She'll have a baby. I have to believe that.
I just keep telling myself all in good time. We just have to wait until the timing is right.
So for now, I'm going to take my wife in my arms and hold her, for I believe in this very moment we are right where we belong.
-A. Robbins.
"Calliope," Callie startled when she heard her name being called from down the hallway.
Shutting the journal, she slipped it back in the drawer where it stayed just as her wife made her presence known.
She and Arizona had been sharing a journal since their wedding and were currently ending their third book and about to start the fourth.
Actually it was more like Arizona was ending their third and starting their fourth.
Callie hadn't written near as much as her wife, but she had managed to write some, mainly because she loved going back and reading Arizona's thoughts and her wife deserved to be able to read what was running through her mind as well.
Callie thought that was the reason they got along so well most times. They fought just like any normal couple would, but they always knew what the other was thinking and if by chance they didn't, the journal always spoke the truth.
And Callie was about to lay some of her thoughts down minutes ago, however when she flipped through and saw the date her wife had written at the top of a page she couldn't help but skim the entry about their latest negative pregnancy test a month ago.
"Are you ready?" She heard before turning to see Arizona poke her head inside their bedroom door.
"Yeah," she looked up to see her wife's beautiful face shining through the room. "I'm right behind ya," she grabbed her jacket off the bed. "Everything ready?"
"Yep,"
"Arizona," she yelled when the woman turned to leave.
"Yeah, babe," she stopped turning to see her wife standing from the bed.
"Love?"
"Always love," she couldn't help but smile before turning to head downstairs, again.
"Hey, love," she caught up with her at the door.
After reading the blonde's journal entry, she felt the strong need to show her some love and attention.
"What, Callie," Arizona stopped again; she was starting to get agitated with her wife yelling for her every time she started away.
"I just," she brought her right hand up and brushed the back of it against her wife's cheek. Arizona had been there every step of the way and Callie wouldn't have survived if it wasn't for her. "I just want you to know how grateful I am for you and everything you do for our family," She breathed leaning in to kiss her cheek. "I appreciate all you do for me and Charlee."
"What did you do?" She teased glancing over her wife's shoulder to peer around the room to see if Callie had done something.
"Nothing," she snickered, stepping to the side of the door so Arizona could see. "I love you with all that's inside me and," she stepped back in the door way. "I just don't think I tell you enough sometimes," she shrugged.
Arizona couldn't help but squint at her wife as she studied her, trying to see if she had any ulterior motives, but then she just accepted the sentiment.
"You don't have to tell me all the time, honey," she cupped the back of her wife's neck and pulled Callie close. "You make me feel it," She grazed her nose against the brunette's teasing her before faintly brushing her lips against her wife's.
"Happy Anniversary, baby," the brunette breathed feeling her wife's hot breath envelop her senses.
"Happy Anniversary, Calliope," she cut the teasing and crashed her lips against red ones, pushing the brunette gently against the door until they ran out of breath.
"Four years down," she smiled with a smug grin on her face when Arizona pulled back and lovingly gazed at her.
"Forever to go,"
"It just keeps getting better and better."
"You think?" Arizona teased.
Of course she thought that also, but she wanted to hear it from her lover again.
"Feels like the first time, every time," she leaned in and pecked pink lips before quickly spinning her wife around.
"I love you, Calliope Robbins," Arizona giggled. "Hmm," she hummed when her back became pressed against the door by the brunette.
"I love you, more, Arizona Robbins," she husked, taking her lovers hands and pinning them above her head. "I plan on showing you how much," she purred, kissing up her jawline and ending at her earlobe causing her wife's eyes to widen from the surprise when she sucked it in her mouth. "Very soon, baby,"
"Char-lee," she whimpered feeling herself weaken as succumbing to her wife's advances. "She's awake downstairs," she whined, wishing her daughter was still taking her nap.
She'd kill to have twenty minutes with her wife right now.
"She's such a clam jam," Callie slumped her shoulders in defeat. She knew they weren't going to have any chance for sexy time until tonight at best, but it was still fun to tease her wife especially when she saw the need in those dark blue eyes.
"She really is," Arizona agreed nodding her head slowly as she became wrapped up in Callie's senses. "But I love her,"
God, the unmentionable things she wanted this woman to do to her right now.
"Me too," she bit back her grin when she saw the blonde's dazed look.
"Are we packed and ready?" Callie smacked her on the hip and walked out the door leaving Arizona flustered.
She knew exactly what she had done to her wife and it was fun watching her squirm even if she wanted it just as bad.
"What's that Charlee," Arizona said whispering in her daughter's ear, pointing out in the water as the girl stood in front her.
"Duckies,"
She couldn't help but grin when she watched her clap her hands in excitement when she saw the row of ducks floating down the river.
"Yeah," she pulled the girl to sit on her lap. "Can you count how many?" She asked, holding her daughter tight.
"Mine," she pointed to the animals and looked to her mama.
"No," she laughed.
"Want duckies, Mama,"
"Ducks would be nice, but don't you think we have enough animals in our life?" She questioned as she caught a glimpse of her wife busying herself around camp as she prepared their meal. "Think Mommy would let us have a duck?"
While Arizona and Charles enjoyed their scenery, Callie busied herself by feeding the dogs over by the huge shade tree before beginning to prepare the dinner she insisted on making for them this evening.
Today was their fourth wedding anniversary and they decided to spend one last weekend camping before the chill of autumn set in.
So, they headed out to the river to spend their anniversary at their favorite spot with their daughter in tow.
They wanted some alone time, but they also wanted to enjoy an outing with their daughter one more time before being cooped up in the house during winter, so, they decided to spend their anniversary day with her.
That afternoon they headed out and set up camp, while Charlee and the dogs tormented them the whole time they prepared camp.
Just about the time they were setting up the tent, their daughter, along with the dogs, darted inside causing a ruckus as Charlee laughed and screamed causing the dogs to become feistier which caused the tent poles to slip from their hands, causing the vinyl on the tent to fall on the intruders, which made for even more laughs, screams, and barks from the three amigos.
Charlee and the two dogs always seem to get into things together. If you saw one, you knew the other two wouldn't be far along, so it was no surprise to the women when all three darted inside and crashed the tent down.
After scrambling to get them out, they were able to finish setting up camp before sitting down to relax for a few minutes, however that didn't last long.
The toddler was being a rambunctious two year old, running near the water's edge which was nearly giving Arizona a heart attack, so Callie suggested taking Charlee and the dogs for a stroll through the bottom after they sat up camp.
After their nice stroll which consisted of pulling Charlee along in her little red wagon, they returned back to their camp site which was when Callie started dinner for her family.
Arizona had done so much for her lately with all the failed attempts of getting pregnant, so Callie just wanted her to relax and have a nice evening without having to make sure everyone was happy.
It was her turn to feel special.
She appreciated everything Arizona had done lately, and although making a quick dinner was only a very small gesture, it was a start.
So, Arizona spent a few extra minutes with Charlee as she prepared dinner. She knew if she didn't keep the toddler busy, she would want to be behind her mother as she cooked, and they didn't want her anywhere near the fire, so Arizona kept her busy until Callie finished.
"Alright, my ladies, dinner is served," she knelt down with a plate of hotdogs in hand. "Anyone hungry?"
"Best dinner ever," Arizona smiled, taking one off the plate and sharing with her daughter. "Thank you," she looked up, wanting a kiss from her wife.
"Welcome," Callie leaned down and pecked waiting pink lips.
"Tank, Ma," Charlee leaned in and took a bite of her mother's food.
"You're welcome, bug," she said rubbing the top of the girls head as she chewed away.
"Me kiss," she looked up to Callie similar to the way Arizona did.
"I love your kisses," she accepted the kiss from the toddler and then watched her take another bite of her mama's food.
"Love, Ma," Arizona watched her little girls blue eyes shine up at her wife when she spoke.
"Oh, baby," the brunette knelt back down and cupped her daughter's cheeks. "Ma, love," she kissed her cheek. "So, so much, buggy,"
It was moments like these she wanted to freeze in time. No matter what she was going through, having this special time with her family put so much joy in her heart that nothing else could.
"You eat," Callie stood and walked over to the fire. "And after we'll tell bedtime stories," she said throwing another log on the fire. "How's that sound?"
She knew that would put the girl to sleep soon, every time she or Arizona told her a story she was out like a light, and she was hoping this time would be no different because she wanted a little alone time with her wife to snuggle by the fire before they went to bed.
"Yay,"
"I thought so," she smiled at her daughter. "You need something to drink, babe?" She turned her attention to the blonde.
"Well I will say that bottle of patron we have on ice is calling my name," she teased the brunette. "But I guess I'll wait until Mama picks Charlee up in the morning," she grinned when she saw her wife swallow. "For now, I'll settle on a Sprite, please."
"Yes, dear,"
Tequila at the river only meant one thing and Callie couldn't wait for the drunken sex that was to be had with her wife, however it meant they had to wait until tomorrow when Charlee was gone.
They had planned on spending the weekend together as a family, but when Barbara found out they were going, she insisted Charlee didn't need to be in that cool air all weekend. So, to the women's excitement, she offered to keep her granddaughter on Saturday so they could spend some quality time alone for their anniversary which they quickly jumped at the opportunity.
And now both women were biding their time until they could spend the day alone.
"We full?" Callie questioned, sitting down on be blanket where her wife and daughter had been seated as they watched the river flow and the sun begin to set in the sky before them.
"I am," Arizona confirmed. "What about you, ladybug?" She patted her daughter's belly. "Is your belly full?"
"Decious," she nodded.
"It was delicious," Arizona confirmed. "What about you, Ma," she squeezed her wife's leg to show her some love.
"I'm getting there," she held up her hotdog before taking a bite and leaning against her wife as they watched the sky turn from bright blue to a soft pink over the mountaintop.
"Thank you for dinner, honey," Arizona hummed as she too leaned against her lover.
Even though they didn't spend their anniversary alone, it was still perfect in every way. She had the woman of her dreams by her side, and the most precious child anyone could ever want.
"You're welcome, love," she returned with a kiss to the lips. "Thank you for marrying me."
"Thank you for giving me this beautiful life," the blonde hugged her daughter with her left arm and wrapped her right around her lover.
Callie didn't reply to her wife's thank you, she only pulled her tight and kissed her hair as they soaked up the moment while they watched the sunset.
The only thing that broke her out of her quiet thoughts were Arizona whispering in Charlee's ear which caused the girl to break out in her dimpled grin and nod at her wife's words.
"What are you two up to?" She questioned as Charlee crawled out of her mama's arms and into hers.
"I love, Ma," she laid it on thick, wrapping her arms around Callie's neck. She may be small, but she knew she could talk her mother into anything as did Arizona.
"What are you up to?" She glared at her wife knowing good and well Arizona had put her up to this.
"I love Ma, too," Arizona threw herself around the two girls, causing Callie to fall backwards eliciting squeals from her daughter.
"Spit it out," Callie laughed when Charlee grabbed her cheeks.
"Wha, Mama?" She couldn't remember what she was supposed to say to her mother now so she leaned over and let the blonde whisper to her again.
Charlee squeezed her cheeks together and leaned down close to her face before she finally whispered. "Want duckies, Ma,"
She was taken aback by the statement. There was no way she would think Arizona would put her up to this. "No way," Callie denied her. "We have four chickens and two dogs," she stated as she saw her wife turn to give her a pouty face as did Charlee.
Damn it, she hated them for ganging up on her.
She had a hard time telling one no when they stuck out their bottom lip to pout, which made their dimples pop even more, and now she had two sets of dimples and sad blue eyes begging her. "No," she stood her ground, though. "Don't you dare start." She sat back up.
"But," Arizona took Charlee in her arms, knowing Callie would find them irresistible. "We really, really want ducks, Ma," she looked at her daughter and nodded as Charlee begged her mother with her pleasing eyes.
"Pease, Ma,"
"Don't you love us, Calliope?" She asked as the little girl hugged her around her neck.
"Of course I do," She didn't want to have to worry about taking care of another animal; dogs and chickens were enough. "But, we're not getting a duck, that's out of the question."
"Ma,"
"No, Charlee, were not getting a duck." She stated a little too loudly causing the little girl to whimper and turn away from her in her mother's arms.
Telling that little girl no was the hardest thing in the world, but maybe she could have been a little gentler.
"Calliope, she just wants a duck," Arizona scolded, rubbing her daughter's back as she cried on her shoulder.
"We don't need a duck, Arizona," she was pissed Arizona would do this to her. "What in the world would we do with one?"
"I didn't get to have any animals when I was a kid, and I want her to have them if she wants them."
"I didn't either, Arizona, which is why we have two dogs and four chickens," she reminded her.
"What harm would a duck do?"
"I'd be all for getting more animals if we lived in the country, but we have a house... in the city." She stressed.
"That's on the shore of the bay,"
"Okay, so we get a duck and it swims away, what then?"
"We can build a pond."
"So, spend a thousand dollars on a pond for a three dollar duck that may or may not venture away," Callie stated. "That's reasonable."
"Okay, Callie," she sighed wanting to drop it. "Your point has been made."
How did this moment turn into a disagreement over a duck?
"No, no don't do that, you're trying to placate me now," she breathed; she knew Arizona was just trying to get her to shut up, but she wasn't having it.
"No, I am not."
"After we build a pond, get a duck that won't stay, what's next? A goat, pony, or a miniature pig?" Callie shrugged as she waited in a reply.
"No, Callie, I never want another animal at our house is that what you want to hear," she huffed, quickly standing from her seat on the blanket. "Let's go put on your pj's, big girl."
"Arizon..."
"It's just a duck, Callie," the blonde stopped and turned to look at her wife when she tried to speak. "A duck,"
"Oh my god," she huffed throwing her head back in defeat when her wife walked away. She knew no matter what they would make her feel bad about not getting a duck, but they didn't need a duck or chickens, but she did that to put a smile on her Arizona's face.
"Okay, listen," she said as she watched her wife grab the small suitcase out of the back of the SUV while she held Charlee on her hip.
"Save it, Callie," she walked past the woman and walked to the tent to get Charlee ready for bed.
"What the hell just happened," the brunette sighed, throwing herself backwards on the blanket while she waited, hoping the duo returned from the tent.
She wouldn't be surprised if Arizona decided to stay in there the rest of the night without talking to her, so she decided to give her a few minutes and if they didn't return she would go inside and face her two girls.
"Ma," Charlee yelled a few minutes later, poking her head out of the tent as she waited on her mother to unzip it further. "Wook," she took off running. "Wooky," she patted her chest, showing her mother her new pajamas, the duck a faint memory in her mind. "Doc," she pointed.
"Awe, Doc McStuffins," Callie quickly sat back up when she saw her blue eyed baby doll running up to her.
"Doc, like me Ma's,"
"Yeah," she giggled at her. "How pretty you are. Do you like your new Jammie's?" she took her in her arms.
"Yup,"
"Mama did a good job picking them out, huh," she kissed the hairline of her forehead as she wiggled in her lap.
You'd never know she was so upset a few minutes ago, but Arizona on the other hand still had the pissed off look on her face when she walked out.
"Babe, would you please come sit with us?" She softly asked when she saw Arizona emerge from the tent dressed in comfier clothes also.
"What now, Callie?" She said flatly.
"Please, just come here," she sighed knowing she needed to apologize for the way she went about it, but she was also going to bring up the way Arizona did also.
"What?" Arizona crossed her arms when she came to stand a few feet away from her wife and daughter.
Callie could tell Arizona wasn't pleased with her at the moment and she didn't want this evening to be ruined over something ridiculous.
"I'm sorry," she looked up to her wife before glancing down at her daughter. "I am," she insisted as she kept looking between them. "I should have heard you out without shooting you down as soon as you asked, so for that I'm sorry," she looked up at her wife and noticed although she was dressed in flannel pajama pants and a hoody, she looked gorgeous. "I'm sorry, babe, but you also have to talk to me before getting her involved."
"I realize that," it all started out as wishful thinking, but Callie got defensive and then so did she.
"We can't have a duck right now, bug, okay," she looked down at the toddler. "It's fall, if you want ducks you'd want babies, right?"
"I want baby," she spoke softly when Arizona knelt down and met eyes with her wife.
"Yeah," Callie sighed and glanced to the blonde. She wanted a different kind of baby, too, but that wasn't her focus anymore. "So, right now is just not the time to get a baby duck, it's going to be too cold to take care of one the way it needs. Plus we have Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas to keep us busy, so we'll talk about it again in the spring, okay," she kissed the top of Charlee's head before looking at her wife again.
"No," Arizona shook her head again. "You don't have to worry about that; I won't mention another pet, again."
"Don't," Callie grabbed her arm so she wouldn't move away. "I'm sorry."
Sighing, Arizona gave in as well. "Me too," she breathed a sigh of relief knowing they were going to drop the subject and move on.
This was one of the things in the span of trying to get Callie pregnant that had happened more frequently then they liked. They always nitpicked about stupid things and she was relieved it was being dropped instead of dragging on further.
"I shouldn't have gone about it like that," Arizona admitted. "She said she wanted one, and then I thought wouldn't it be neat, so we asked."
"It's okay," she leaned over hoping her wife would accept her kiss.
"Don't be an ass," Arizona whispered pecking red lips.
"You either," she chuckled, peppering a few more kisses on her wife's lips. "Come sit down," she spread her legs and patted the space between them hoping she would take the initiative.
"Ooooo, pitty," Charlee pointed up to the pink and blue sunset in the sky causing Arizona to look up along with Callie.
"Yeah," Arizona breathed, taking a seat when Callie moved Charlee out of the way.
"Watching the sunset is my favorite thing to do with you here," Callie breathed when Arizona leaned back against her.
"All-time favorite?" Arizona asked, leaning her head on her lover's shoulder as Charlee crawled around them.
"Well, no," she purred in her ear. "You know my all-time favorite thing," she planted open mouth kisses on her neck as she circled her arms around her.
"Refresh my memory," she whispered, closing her eyes and soaking up the feel of her wife's lips roaming her neck.
"Mmmm..." Callie squeezed her in her arms tightly, humming in her ear before licking the shell causing her lover to giggle at the feel.
"Stop," Arizona elbowed her as she peeked an eye open. "Don't start something you can't finished," She hadn't felt the little tot squirming around then for a few seconds and she needed to see where Charlee had ran off to.
"I can finish it, the question is can you keep quiet,"
"What are you doing?" The blonde broke her out of their little stupor when she saw the two year old fighting with her shirt.
"Nakey," she stopped long enough to look to her mother before dashing away knowing she would stop her.
"No, it's too cool, young lady,"
"You created that hot mess," Callie laughed as she watched Arizona dart up and chase after her as Charlee ran around trying to rid herself of her clothes.
After wrangling Charlee, Arizona finally got her settled down on the blanket in between she and Callie. All it took was a story from the brunette and a light back scratch to get her to relax on the blanket as the tale was being told.
Every time they came to the river, Arizona or Callie would tell Charlee some story they held of Tim. Both women learning new things about him as some stories were revealed.
There had been times in the past Arizona had become slightly upset as she or Callie recalled a memory.
He was missing out on so much in his sisters' life and she found herself guessing he would be married with 2.5 kids of his own now.
She couldn't help but wonder if he'd live close to her, go on family vacations, and spend every waking holiday as a huge family unit just like they had promised when they were starting to venture out in the real world.
But that life was taken at such a young age, so Arizona felt that his memory needed to live on through her family and kids.
She had always wanted her children to know about their Uncle. She and Callie made it a point to talk to her about him often especially when they were camping since all of Callie's stories of him were at this spot. So, it always seemed the perfect place and time to think back and reminisce.
Often times when Callie would recollect a story Arizona couldn't help but wonder what kind of husband or dad he would be.
He didn't get to experience the greatest joys of life, and Arizona felt she needed to soak up every experience he didn't get to have, and in those times she couldn't help but look at everything around her in a different light.
Instead of running her fingers through Charlee's soft hair and scratching her back for five minutes she'd do for ten even if she had already drifted off to sleep while Callie kept talking.
All the while, she didn't take her eyes off her wife's features as she recounted stories. She took the time to study every laugh line, wrinkle, or crease on her lover's face that she adored so much.
"Babe," Callie brought her out of her thoughts. "I'm going to put bug and the dogs in bed, and then change," she whispered when she saw her wife's faraway look. "I'll be back in a few," she ran her fingers through blonde hair as Arizona laid there staring. "Come on, boys," she called the dogs that were lying on the other side of the fire.
"Hurry back," she whispered, rolling over to grab some warmth from the fire while she gazed up at the starry night as her thoughts continued.
Moments like this were when she felt most grateful.
Grateful for the life she was living, the people she had been given to spend it with, and thankful for the time she had with them.
"Are you okay?" Arizona was stirred once again from her thoughts when she heard her wife's voice again.
"Hmm," she hummed when Callie returned to find her lying on her stomach, using her arms as a pillow.
"You got really quiet earlier." Callie lied behind her wife and snuggling up to her when she rolled on her side.
"No, I'm good," she grabbed her wife's arm she was lying over her hip and wrapped it around her chest. "I'm sorry about earlier."
"It's forgotten."
"Good," she snuggled; she just wanted to feel surrounded by her lover.
"Are you sure you're good?" Callie propped herself up on her arm as she glared over top the blonde's head to the fire before them.
"Yeah," she whispered as they became silent for a few more moments while she reveled in the embrace of her wife as the brunette started to hum.
She would know that tune anywhere.
Callie had been singing a song all day and she couldn't get it out of her head every time she looked to her wife.
It was the song she had written for her just days before their wedding and on this day every year thereafter she couldn't help but hum along to it through the day.
"That's my song," Arizona turned in her arms and looked up to brown eyes.
"Mmhmmm..." Callie couldn't help but smile as Arizona buried her face into her neck.
You've got a way with me.
She softly began to sing the lyrics to her wife as she held her close.
Somehow you got me to believe
She carried the tune while she gently combed her fingers through her wife's blonde tresses.
In everything that I could be
She harmonized as she brought her mouth close to her lover's ear, planting a tender kiss on her temple before continuing.
I've gotta say you really got a way.
She cupped the back of her wife's neck and held her in place when she felt Arizona place delicate kisses down her neck.
You've got a way it seems
Every time Arizona heard Callie sing this song she couldn't keep her hands or mouth off of her.
You gave me faith to find my dreams
But there was something special about the way Callie sung this song to her. Every word she sung was felt down to her sole.
You'll never know just what that means
To know that Callie wrote this song solely for her made her feel like the most cherished person in the world.
Can't you see... You got a way with me
Placing one last kiss on the dip of her wife's neck, Arizona pulled back slightly to meet eyes with her lover, staring for a moment before slowly brushing her lips against Callie's red buds.
"I miss you, Calliope," her voice was barely a whisper as she continued to stare into brown eyes.
Callie could hear the vulnerability in her wife's statement as she studied her blue eyes.
She felt terrible when she heard Arizona's plea. They had such rocky months lately and she felt like they were missing out on each other and she wanted it to stop.
Although they had agreed to just let things transpire in the baby department, they still hadn't really took the time showing each other how much they loved one another.
They had did stuff after the last pregnancy test, but they were still yet to do certain things and it was those things they missed so much with one another.
Their daily life had become hectic in the past month and by the time things were settled in the evening they were falling into bed too tired to really take their time with one another.
"Baby," the brunette sighed caressing her face. "I miss you, too, honey," she pecked pink lips. "So much," she whispered against soft lips.
She wanted to show her how much she had missed her but they couldn't; not with Charlee laying just a few feet away from them.
"I promise you," she pulled back to look down at blue eyes as she tried to convey all the love she had for her. "Tomorrow I plan on showing you how much," she said as Arizona rolled to her back.
"You do," the blonde watched as Callie hovered atop her.
"All day long," she nodded, kissing both corners of her wife's lips. "If you'll have me,"
"Always," she smiled up at her lover.
"And forever?" Callie questioned.
"As long as there are stars in the sky."
"And, fish in the sea."
"Mmhmm," she hummed when Callie brushed her lips against hers. "Can we at least have a heavy make session right now?" Arizona asked, as she grabbed a handful of brown hair that was cascading down around her.
"I'm going to take advantage of you whether you like it or not," she snickered getting one in return from her wife.
"Happy Anniversary, baby,"
"Happy Anniversary, love," She barely breathed as the blonde fisted her dark hair while crashing their lips together in a passionate kiss.
Sorry for the longest delay ever. I hope it was worth it.
Next chapter good times will ensue. :)
