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I kept my word, when I woke up I searched for Jacob. It didn't took very long, because he was looking for me too. We found each other on the meadow.

"Hey stranger" He said in a soft voice. A feeling of excitement fizzed through me.

"Hey stranger" I said as I sat down. I couldn't help thinking about what I could give him to grant us passing. I couldn't sleep yesterday, staring at the tent I repeated the question over and over in my head. I knew he was attracted to me. Would he grant me permission if I answered these emotions and slept with him? Losing my virginity like this wasn't the way I pictured it, but I would if I could help my coven this way..

"I'm really sorry about yesterday" he said "Could you please forgive me?" his pleading eyes were locking mine. I tried to smile, trying to hide that I was nervous as hell. How the hell was I supposed to pull this off, I had no idea what I was doing.

"Maybe" I rolled my shoulders, trying to play him "Ahh I'm so stiff"

His warm hands found my shoulders, just like I expected. He was almost making this too easy for me. But when his hands worked on my shoulders I couldn't help but let out a moan of pleasure. With expertise he worked on my whole back. "Wow you did this before" I mumbled, secretly enjoying his touch. I never been so close to someone before. He just 'Mmm'ed behind me. Then suddenly he stopped massaging me, because I had been leaning onto his hands I felt backwards. His warm chest welcomed me and I enjoyed the heat radiating from it. I wasn't the only one playing him, he knew exactly what he was doing. I didn't said anything, actually I was quite enjoying myself. His hands caressed my arms. I needed to keep my focus, needed to get that permission. But just a few more seconds couldn't hurt could they?

"Do you want me to teach you?" He asked

'Mmm?" I answered sleepy

"to read" he whispered in my ear like it was a secret. I shivered and sat up, don't bitch now I told myself. I needed to behave today. So I just shrugged my shoulders "Maybe"

I turned around facing him. "Are you really keeping your word, that you will let us pass I mean" I asked him while I used my puppy eyes. He softly touched my face with his finger. "Yes"
I nodded pleased with myself, I was already making progress.

"What do you want me to do next?" I asked with a sweet voice.

"Close your eyes" He ordered. Anxious of what going to happen next I closed them. I totally sucked at this stuff, but I would try my very best. I knew I was nervous, but the beating of my heart, when he pressed his lips on mine, was just ridiculous. It accelerated so much I could hear the blood pumping in my ears. His lips were warm and soft, tender. A voice in my head screamed that what I was doing was very dangerous, but it was overpowered by the pressure of his touch.
With my hand I grabbed his hair and pulled him closer, not wanting it to end. He softly bit my lip and soon ours tongues danced together. After a while he started to pull back and broke the kiss. I knew for sure that my cheeks were burning, and for a second I was too ashamed to even look at him. But I gathered every bit of courage and looked up. He was staring at me with a smile plastered on his face. I grinned as I turned my eyes to the ground. I needed to get myself under control, I was losing myself in feelings and I needed to stop. Love was weakness, if someone knew that it was me. Even though I tried to keep smiling, he seemed pleased. Happy that I answered his kiss, but not trying to show it too much. Then he took his backpack and pulled out a notebook and a pen.

"This is the letter A" I watched when he wrote the letter.

"Do you know a word with the letter A?" His eyes twinkled when he turned to face me.

"Apple"

He nodded and wrote down another letter "This is the B"

"From bees" He grinned "Yes excellent"

The next letter was the C. "Seas" I mumbled and he shook his head.

"No not really" He started but I cut him off "Why don't you teach me something useful, like teach me how to fight" I was determined to change the subject, because I felt slightly humiliated by this reading thing.

"I'm not going to fight you" He said brushing off the subject. I snorted "Fine, If you are scared" I said while I challenged him. He grinned and stood up. I fought a few times before but they were not fair fights. In some my vampire side caused me to have the upper hand, in others my human side made me crawl away in pain and fear.

He was fast, I would give him that. His arms reached for me but I quickly blocked them by grabbing his wrists. He seemed surprised and amused at the same time. I grinned at him and the next second he literally sweeps me off my feet by making me trip over his foot.

"That's cheating" I mumbled while I stood up and dusted off the sand. He offered me a hand and I took it, he pulled me up and our eyes locked again. When his face was just an inch from mine we were interrupted by the rumbling of my stomach.

"Why don't you come over to my house, I'll make you something to eat" He generously offered. Happily I accepted, because I was literally starving. I tried to save the bloodbags in my possession for the coven. I could fight the thirst more easily, I could even survive on human food. But there was not much opportunity for me to get human food. We walked in silence for a while, I was enjoying the birds and the deer that ran passed us.

"So tell me, what are you precisely looking for?" He asked and hesitant he took my hand. I let him and we intertwined our fingers.

"A Witch" I simply stated, trying to find a balance between letting him in and pushing him away.

"A Witch?" He laughed until the tears ran over his face.

"You are a werewolf, your neighbors are vampires and you laugh when I tell you that I'm looking for a witch" I raised my eyebrows.

"Well yeah, I mean come on witches.. Do you already see them flying around on their broomsticks?"

"Is Silver deadly to you?" I asked him.

"What? no of course not"

"Then don't believe anything you hear" I teased him as I stomped against his shoulder. Damn this guy was like a solid rock. He pulled me in his arms "Well you little.." He pressed his lips on mine and again I completely lose myself in this kiss. I melted in his warm arms. When he pulled back I was stunned, unable to process what was happening around me. There could be an explosion and I still would've missed it. He pressed a last kiss on my lips and dragged me to his house. The house was made of wood and I think he build it himself, but damn I was impressed. The rooms where light and that totally had that 'welcome home' vibe.

"You have a lovely home" I said as I sat down on the couch, waiting for him to finish our lunch.

"Thanks"

Soon he came back with grilled cheese. We ate in silence, but I did not care because I was enjoying this meal way too much. "Oh my god I almost forgot the taste of cheese" I sat while I chewed. He looked at me with a mixture of curiosity and sadness.

I stared at his wall with photo's "How old are you anyway?" I blurted out.

"24, am I too told for you now?" He teased. I smiled at him, if only he knew.. I couldn't tell him that I was born in 2009, that I was only six years old.

"What are you going to do after the witch? " He asked while he took another bite. God I'd been hungry, but this guy could eat twenty grilled cheese. How was that even possible.

"Find salvation, pay for all the things that I did" I said with a bitter tone. I was trying hard to keep my voice steady, but it seemed that somewhere in the process I slipped up because he wrapped his arm around my shoulder. He changed the subject quickly "How is your back"

"I'm am fine, the only thing I miss is sleep. But there is nothing I can do about that" I said while I suppressed a yawn.

"Then sleep" He said while he handed me a pillow.

"What? Here?'" I chucked. "No way, I got better things to do"

"Like reading?" He tried

I groaned and let myself fall on the couch. No, no more reading. Ever. I stared at the ceiling as he did the dishes, I could hear him whistle a song. When I concentrated on that I was able to relax some more and closed my eyes.

I woke up screaming. His arms were around me, holding me, trying to comfort me. I gasped and tried to remember where I was. He caressed my hair and I slowly calmed down.

"You're okay now, I won't let everything happen to you" He whispered. Shaking lake a leaf I wrapped my arms around his neck and let him hold me. For the first time in forever I felt safe. He wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me on his lap to make me more comfortable.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"Never"

He pressed his lips on my forehead. Without even realizing it, I pressed my lips on his. He started to kiss me back slowly. Then something strange happened, I don't who started it. But suddenly I was filled with lust, I laid down on the couch and pulled him on top. He took off my jacket and I tore off his shirt. The kissing just got more and more intense and when his lips found their way to my neck I melted. I ignored all the voices in my head that told me to stop. Maybe I didn't plan it like this, but this was my choice. I wanted it to happen.

Jake however was hesitant "Are you sure, don't you think this is too fast?"

I pressed another kiss on his lips "I've never been so sure of anything before" I whispered. And that was the truth. I wanted it to be him, I wanted to feel wanted by him. By this beautiful person, with his kindness and his godlike body.

"Is this your first time?" He asked. I could see that underneath that question was something more. I did not know what to say, so I told him the truth. I nodded. He seemed relieved. Which made no sense at all, why would he be relieved about something like this. Maybe it was his first time too, but somehow I doubted that.

"JAKE" Someone stormed in. Annoyed we both looked his way. Jake sat up and I quickly checked if I was decent. "What is it Seth?"

"One of that monstrosities attacked Sam, he is dying"

I jumped up and dashed out of the house. I ran back to our camp and found them in complete chaos. It was true, Carlisle tried to save Sam's life. Soren and Alex where holding Chelsey back, they held her down on her knees. When she noticed me she stared at me with pleading eyes, but I ignored her. I was a terrible leader, how could I let this happen. I hurried to Carlisle's side, he didn't seemed happy to see me.

"What can I do?" I begged him.

"The venom is spreading, I tried to suck it out but it's just getting worse" He explained to me coldly.

"Let me do it, I am not venomous" I said as I almost pushed him aside. My heart was racing, I couldn't let him die. If Sam would die they would kill us. I opened the wound with my teeth and tried to suck all the venom out. Carlisle was giving Sam a blood transfusion because I was almost sucking him dry. When he finally tasted clean I let Carlisle do his job. Soon the fever broke. I sighted deep and sat down. I hid my face in my hands knowing this wasn't the end of it. I was covered in Sam's blood and I felt disgusted. I took a deep breath and stood up.

"What happened?" I asked coldly

Soren answered for me "Chelsey lost it, She went on a killing spree, killed a hiker in the process. The wolfman tried to stop her and she bit him"

This was the third time Chelsey couldn't control herself. We had to obey the rules of the coven. We all knew that.

"Light the fire" I hissed to Cheng.

"But…" He protested staring at me with anxious eyes.

"Just do it" I said while I clenched my teeth to almost their breaking point. Everyone watched me closely as I gestured Alex and Soren to bring her forward. There was a huge lump in my throat and I tried to swallow. I needed to press the switch, I needed to turn my humanity off. My coven all lined up in front of me.

"We all know the rules. We shall not hunt, We shall not kill and we shall not fight unless it is to protect our own. We shall respect and cherish every living being at earth. But today someone broke these rules" I sighted and took a deep breath.

"That's why death shall answer with death. Chelsey Dubell you have been sentenced to die. Is there someone who wants to speak in her defense?" My eyes searched for everyone in the coven, they just turned their eyes in the ground. From the background I could hear Jacob struggling and with one glance over my shoulder I knew he was being restrained by the others of his pack.

"Chelsey Dubell do you have any last words to say?" My voice was icecold. With pain in my heart my eyes found hers.

"I'm really sorry" She wined. I nodded "May god have mercy on your soul" I gestured Alex that it was time and with a swift move he beheaded her. Together we dragged her body to the fire and threw the remains in it. When I stared at the flames and the smell penetrated my nose I couldn't fight the wave of nausea. I ran to a tree and emptied my stomach. 'Love is weakness' I mumbled to myself as I wiped my mouth. I had to do what was best for the Coven, Chelsey broke the rules she knew what the consequences were.

I walked back to the group who was waiting at the camp. I cleared my throat before I spoke. I searched for Jacob in the crowd, hoping he would understand. But when his eyes found mine he broke eye contact as soon as possible and stared at the ground. I took a deep breath and pinched the bridge of my nose, 'please dear god help me' I begged.

"We understand that what Chelsey did is unforgiveable. We know that this sacrifice can't make up for the mourning family, de bloodshed and the horror that surround this deed. We will not say that it will. All we ask is the understanding that she paid for her crimes and let us be on our way" It took me a lot of effort to keep a clear and straight voice. The hardest decisions of my life were decisions like this one. That I had to make a choice if someone lives of dies. But someone had to do it, I had to bear it so they didn't have to.

"Grab your things, We are leaving" I whispered to my Coven. Without even looking up they hurried away. But before they could reach the camp they were driven back by another group. As I watched them approach goosebumps appeared on my arm. They found us, this was the beginning of the end.


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