A/N: Ok this is my first Queer as Folk FanFic. I do not own QAF or anyhting to do with it execpt this story Idea. Anyways some characters maybe a little OOC but I am tryin to keep them in character as possible.

Chapter 3: To Hell and Back

The elevator doors opened on the second floor. the two broke apart and started down the hall towards the ICU unit. THey were stopped at a nurses station. After a few minutes of explination Molly came out into the hall from a room a few doors down. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying, and her hair was pulled back into a messy ponytail. Her clothes were wrinkled and dirty. She looked as though she had been here the whole night.

"Justin?" she said slowly. Her eyes well with tears upon nseeing him again. She had missed him so much over the last six months since he had left.

"Molly," Justin turned his attention to his younger sister. She smiled slightly and ran to him. He crouched down and welcomed her into his open arms. He pulled her close inatight embrace. He placed his face in the crookof her neck and held her tight. He wanted to tell her he was sorry for not checking his phone, he wanted to reassure her things were gonna be alright. No word came to him. He did not know what to say.

Brian enviously watched the two. That was how it was supposed to be between him and Justin. They should be able to hug and comfort one another like that. Brian shook his head. Was he actually having those thoughts. What am I becoming? he thought as he watched the two hug. He noticed Justin had started crying again as had Molly. Molly let go of Justin and turned to Brian. She then walked over to him and hugged him as well.

"Thank you," she said. Brian looked down at the small girl and smiled slightly. "He wouldn't be here if he hadn't missed you," she said. Brian nodded and hugged her back.

"Molly," Justin said softly.

"Come on Tuckers in the waiting room," Molly said. She turned around and walked back down the hall towards the room she had just left. Brian and Justin followed her. Brian looked at the back of Justin's head. He wondered what was going through his head. He wanted to be able to comfort Justin. He wanted to be everything Justin wanted, everything he needed.

They followed Molly into a room. The room was small. It had pale white walls and several plain green and red chairs. There was one other person in the room, Tucker. Tucker looked up as the three entered room.

"Justin? Brian?" he said shocked to see the two standing before him.

Justin nodded as Molly walked over to Tucker and sat down next to him. "I got Molly's phone calls," he said. Tucker nodded. Justin walked over to Molly and sat down next to her, Brian followed suit and sat down next to him. Brian looked over to Justin and grabbed his hand. He squeezed it slightly trying to reassure Justin. He wanted to be everything Justin wanted. He wanted to be everything he needed. He would do anything for Justin now if he could make him happy. He had grown up, somewhat. He wanted to have a more adult relationship with Justin. He wanted to prove he was committed to him.


Emmet yawned as he got out of bed. He was exhausted. He was too tired to go to work. Ever since he had gotten fired from being Queer Guy, he had gone back to be a party/wedding planner. He loved planning parties. It was what he was meant to do. He just needed to find another helper. He missed having Vic around. Vic had been tehre to help him and he could cook amazing dishes. He and Vic had worked so geat together. He was never going to find anyone like that again.

He got out of bed and changed. He went down stairs several minutes later. He walked into the kitchen where Debbie and Carl were eating. HE was jealous of thise two thay had eachother. He had no one at all. He didn't mind being single, but he wanted someone. "Morning," he said.

"Morining sweetie," Debbie said, "How did you sleep?" she asked. Emmet looked at her. She was all smiles on the outside but he knew she knew. He hadn't slept well at all.

"Like a baby," Emmet said. He walked over to the stove and fixed himself a plate of food while Carl said his goodbyes to Debbie. He watched as he kissed Debbie on the cheek and left. He waited until the detective was gone to sit down next to Debbie. He looked over at her. "Is it that obvious?" he asked.

"Yes," Debbie said simply.

"I haven't gotten a good nights sleep in weeks ever since..." He stopped and looked away from Debbie.

"Drew?" she asked. Emmet looked away from her and nodded. Drew had been the reason for his last two failed attempts at a relationship with someone new. He was still stuck on Drew Boyd. Nothing he did would help him move on. If it was possible he fell more in love with the man. HE didn't try to he just couldn't help himself, Drew was perfect for him. He was handsome and had a great body and was amazing in bed, it's just he was still new. He needed to grow. "I know you said he needed to grow up but that was six months ago, maybe he's grown up," she said.

"Debbie I don't think six months is enough time," Emmet said sadly, "Drew hasn't been out that long he needs to play the field. He does not need a boyfriend to get in the way of that," he said looking down at his food. He knew what he was saying made perfect sense. Why did he not believe it? He had never wanted anyone as bad as he wanted Drew. Drew was different from all the other guys he dated. He wanted Drew more than anything it hurt.

"Hon, what he needs is you," Debbie said placing a hand on his arm. She hated seeing one of her 'sons' so unhappy. She knew Emmet would only be happy again when he was back with Drew. She knew Drew wanted him sack as well. She had not seen the football player for several months now but she knew, but before he left he had almost become another of her lost boys.

"I don't know," Emmet said.

"Jesus Fuckin' Christ Emmet just go to him," Debbie said, "I know he probably regret letting you go," she said.

"I wish I could," Emmet said. He wanted to go after Dew but he was afraid Drew had forgotten about him. Drew was probably sleeping around with so many different guys he had forgotten all about Emmet. Emmet sighed as he brushed the thought away. He did not want to spoil his whole day. He started eating his food. He avoided Debbie's gaze. He loved her but at times she scared him. That was part of her charm.

"Sweetie you better do as I say or I'll hav-" she began.

"No foul language while I'm eating," Emmet cut her off. She looked at Emmet surprised. He only wanted to stop her from talking. It worked. The two finished eating in silence. Emmet cleaned his plate and went up to his bedroom to gather his things for work. He was currently planning an engagement party for a gay couple. He had not met either of the couple he had talked on the phone with one of the men. It was an expensive party the man had a lot of money. He wanted to surprise his fiance. He didn't even know the name of his client just that he was some big hot shot. He laughed to himself as he thought of Drew. He had met Drew at his engagement party to his ex-wife. He shook his head as he walked down stairs.


Ted sighed as he looked at his watch once more. Brian was late. He hadn't called and he wasn't answering either home phone or his cell. It was 9:30 and Brian had to be here for a meeting with Brown Althetics. They wanted to go over their new campaign with Brian, but he was nowhere to be found. Cynthia was starting to get testy too. He liked Cynthia but when she was pissed it was a very different story. She was like Brian when she got mad the cuss words came out and she didn't hold back. She had been working for Brian for way to long.

"Ted what are we gonna do he knows about this meeting," she said as she set her phone down after getting Brian's voicemail again.

"I don't know," Ted said honestly, "This isn't the first time he's done this," he added.

"He would not miss Brown without a good reason," Cynthia said, "Was he out late last night?" she asked suddenly. Ted shook his head he remembered the conversation he had had with Brian before he left. Brian had been acting a little strange last night, but that was to be expecter it was Babylon's grand reopening.

"He is so dead when I get my hands on him," Cynthia said as her desk phone rang. she picked up the phone and answered in her normal business tone, "Hello Brian Kinney's office how may I help you," she said.

Ted started to think over the reasons why Brian would not show up without calling. Cynthia was right he would never miss Brown. This account was too big for him to mess it up. He made sure to make every meeting with the company. He knew Brain had left early so over sleeping was not an option. Maybe he didn't go home. Maybe he picked someone up. Maybe he had decided to go to New York after all to surprise Justin and forgot to call. He had done this a few time before. he jsut didn't show up, but never on a day where he had a very important meeting. Ted shook his head as Cynthia hung her phone up once more.

"That was Brown they can't make it today so I rescheduled them for next week," she said. Ted nodded deftly as she spoke. He was only half listening. His cell phone brought him back to the present. He opened it and looked at the caller ID. IT was Brian.

"Brian where the hell are you?" He asked as he answered his phone. Cnythia looked up at Ted. Her soft expression turning hard. He could tell she was annoyed that he finally called and of all it peopleit had been Ted.

"I'm at the hospital with Justin his mom was in an accident last night," Brian said.

"Oh my god is she ok?" Ted asked suddenly his anger gone. He knew what Jenifer meant to Brian. He also knew Justin was close to his mother. He knew they both needed to be there. HE was sure theyb were with Molly and TUcker. He felt bad now for being mad at Brian.

"She hasn't woken up yet but I need you to either cover Brown for me or reschedule," Brian said.

"They can't make it today Cynthia rescheduled them already," Ted said. He looked up at said woman. She was looking at him confused with her arms crossed. Ted held up a finger to her. "Wait Justin's with you?" he asked the news hitting him suddenly.

"Yeah he came back last night but we only got Molly's message this morning," Brian explained. Ted was shocked. So he had picked someone up after all. Justin was back. For how long that was the question. "I have to go but I won't be in today," he added.

"Ok we'll cover for you then," Ted said. he hung up and looked up at Cynthia. "That was Brian he's at the hospital with Justin. Jenifer was in an accident they don't know how she's doing, he won't be in today," he said.

"I hope she's alright," Cynthia said. She did not know Jenifer all that well. They had met once or twice, but she knew her well enough to know she mattered to Brian. She was his third mother. She had gorwn on him just like Debbie had. She was the opposite of Debbie and that is what Brian needed to grow up. Cynthia liked what her boss had become since meeting Justin and her. She knew not only would it hurt Brian if something happened to her Justin would be devastated. She had gotten to know Justin very well over the years. Debbie and Jenifer got some credit for changing her boss but most of it went to the blond artist that stole his heart. She knew Justin almost as well as she knew Brian. She had come to like him. She did not want him getting hurt physically or emotionally.


Justin looked up as Brian walked back into the room. He had gone to call Ted and tell him he was not going into work. He was gonna stay with Justin. Justin stood up and waled over to the older man. He had been sitting for too long he needed to move. "Let's go for a walk," he said turning Brian around. Brian nodded and allowed himself to be steered from the room. Justin walked them down the hall to the elevators and outside. He needed to get away for awhile. He was starting to get restless. They walked along the sidewalk along the side of the building.

"Where are we going?" Brian asked.

"Anywhere I just need to move," Justin said. Brian stopped and grabbed Justin's hand and led him along the side walk along the hospital and to the small walk way through the lawn. He liked this. It was nice. It was a small way for him to show his affection for the younger man beside him. He knew Justin did want him to change but he had. He had changed into a better person because of the blond twink. He wanted Justin to know and accecpt it.

Justin looked up at Brian as they walked. He wondered what was going through Brian's mind right now. He was scared and afraid. There was a big possibility that his mom might not wake up. She could die at any second. He shook his head and stopped walking as more tears found their way down his cheeks. Brian stopped too and pulled him into another embrace this one less awkward and more comfortable. He held Justin to him and let him cry. Justin buried his face in Brian's shoulder. He did not know how long they stood there but it was great to just let it all out. He finally let go of Brian and looked up at the older man. Their eye met.

Brian leaned down and placed a small quick kiss on Justin's lips. Justin leaned up and kissed Him agin. This time it wasn't a small peck it was a full on kiss. he needed this right now a distraction. Brian was always good at doing just that, distracting him. He needed that really bad right now. "Justin no," Brian said softly against his lips.

"I need this right now," Justin murmered as he leaned into Brian.

"No what you need is to go ack in ther and be with you sister," Brian said, "You're upset this isn't right," he added. He knew right now Justin only wanted his for sex. He wanted to get his mind off his mom.

"You turning down sex?" Justin said shocked. Brian gave him a small smile before kissing Justin's forehead. He nodded.

"Let's go back inside," he said softly. Justin looked up at Brian once more. Their eyes locked again as he nodded. They went back inside and up the the waiting room where a doctor was talking to Molly and Tucker.

"Justin," Molly said excitedly, "She's awake," she said.

Justin's heart soared upon hearing that. She was a wake that was a good sign right. It was suppoed to be. "Is she ok?" he asked.

"She wil be," the doctor said, "and you are?" he asked.

"My brother Justin Taylor," Molly said, "and his..." she began.

"Partner," Tucker said looking at Brian who nodded. Justin looked up at Brian shocked.

"Can we go see her?" Justin asked ignoring Brian for the moment.

"In a while we're moving her to a room where you can see her and we need to run na few tests to make sure she hasn't gotten any brain damage," the doctor said. Justin nodded relieved. HE was so glad she was awake. Just because she was awake that didn't mean they were out of the water just yet.


A/N: Next Chapter will have Jenifer in it. I can't do it right now the timing is just not right. Sorry for leaving it out of this chapter but I needed to make it epic and this is long enough for a chapter on it's own. Anywho you're in for a real treat next time.