Title: What You Leave Behind, Pt. 1

Summary: Julian has spend every minute of his free time at the holosuite as he had forgotten about those in the real world.

Timeline: This takes place between the episodes "Civil Defense" until "Prophet Motive" in Season 03.

Disclaimer: I do not owe ST: DS9!

Author's Note: So sorry it took me awhile. This chapter was giving me a hard time to write. It took me almost an hour to write this chapter. I gotten the title from the last episode of DS9 and I thought it was perfect for this chapter and the next. The next chapter is coming out next week. NO FLAMES!


"No, this isn't happening! This isn't why I created this program," Julian breathed out as holo-Garak was kissing his neck.

"Then what did you came here for?" Holo-Garak asked against his ear.

"I…I just want to talk, that's all," Julian explained as the two looked at one another.

Holo-Garak stared at him for a moment and saw the seriousness within his eyes, "If that is what you want, that is what I'll give you," he said and he began walking towards the couch as Julian followed him. "What is it that you wanted to tell me?" Holo-Garak asked.

Julian fidgeted nervously as he stood by the couch, "You're created to represent the one that I have feelings for," he began.

"I know," Holo-Garak said with a smile.

Julian stared at him, "That's impossible…" he said as he was lost for words.

"My creator, Felix, creates his programs like that. Well, only the main character and the one who requested knows it," holo-Garak explained.

"So Quark knows?" Julian asked as he sat down on the couch beside him.

"He should know," holo-Garak replied, "at least that's what Felix says since his the one who requested this program," he said.

"He didn't request it," Julian said, "I did."

"And Quark never told you?" Holo-Garak asked surprised and he laughed, "I guess he wanted to surprise you," he said.

"That he did," Julian replied as he was going to kill Quark after.

"Don't get this the wrong way doctor," Holo-Garak said making Julian looked at him, "I think Quark wanted to do the right thing for you. You haven't been yourself lately," he said.

"Is that what he told Felix?" Julian asked.

"Well, he says that you have feelings for someone on the station which that should be me. The only thing I don't get is why you programmed me to have lust and love feelings for you if the other me doesn't have for you," holo-Garak said.

"I just want to know how it feels like to be kissed by someone that you love," Julian explained.

"I see," holo-Garak muttered, "so this is some sort of like counseling for you?" He asked.

Julian nodded, "I wanted to find out if I'm truly in love with my friend who is a Cardassian and now I know that I am," he said sighing as he leaned back against the couch.

"Is that so wrong? I mean, is it wrong to fall in love with someone that is a Cardassian?" Holo-Garak asked.

"Yes," Julian said slowly, "we are allies at the moment but there are some Cardassian's who aren't keen to be allies with the Federation," he said.

"What do you mean?" Holo-Garak asked.

"This will take some time," Julian said as he began to tell him what was going on with the Cardassian and the Federation.

After that hour, Julian arrived at the bar where he found Quark behind the bar. "So doctor, how do you like the program?" He asked.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Julian asked angrily.

"Tell you what?" Quark asked surprised.

"That all of Felix's programs know what's going on! I just spent the last hour talking to him about his home-world," Julian said.

"So you didn't like the program?" Quark asked nervously.

"Consider yourself lucky," Julian replied as he held the data rod in his fingertips, "however, I'm keeping this with me," he said.

"What? That's against policy!" Quark exclaimed.

"No it isn't," Julian said, "this is my own program and not yours," he said and with that said, he paid Quark and left the bar leaving a dumbstruck Quark behind.


"Has anyone seen Julian lately?" Miles O'Brien asked as he saw Major Kira and Dax at the bar one day having lunch together.

It's been over a week since Julian gotten the new program that he requested and he had spent every minute of his free time in the holosuite.

"No, we haven't seen him today, why?" Jadzia asked.

"Something's up," Miles replied as he sat down with the two women in the table, "I asked him if he wanted to play racquetball with me but he told me he was going to the holosuite instead. I asked him if I could go along like usual but he insisted it was personal," he said.

"You know, now that you mentioned it, when we had a staff meeting two days ago, his mind was somewhere else. He wasn't paying attention to what Commander Sisko was saying because when he called to him, he didn't answered right away," Kira replied.

"Perhaps we should ask Garak," Jadzia said gesturing to the Cardassian who had just came in, "after all, the two has lunch with each other once a week at least," she said as she called Garak to come over.

"This is a surprise," Garak replied acknowledging everyone at the table, "it's unusual for me to have a seat with Mr. O'Brien here," he said.

"You're not the only one," Miles murmured as Garak sat next to him.

"We were just talking about Julian," Jadzia began, "have you've seen him lately?" She asked.

"Unfortunately I haven't," Garak said shaking his head, "this was our day to have lunch together and I was waiting for him at the Replimat but he never showed up. I thought he would be here having lunch with the Chief or if he was in the infirmary being busy and all," Garak explained as he called Quark over so that he could take his order.

"Something's up with him and I don't like it," Miles said unhappily.

"If I were you, I would stay out from someone else's business," Quark said.

"You don't know what we were talking about," Miles replied.

"Quark, have you've seen Julian lately?" Jadzia asked.

"I haven't seen him," Quark lied as he took down Garak's order but he looked at Jadzia, "but you should know though," he said and with that, he left the table.

"What did he mean by that?" Kira asked surprised.

Jadzia gasped as she suddenly knew what was going on with Julian. "He has a holosuite program that his been running these last few days," she said.

"What? What kind of program?" Garak asked intrigued.

And before Jadzia could say anything else, a voice piped up: "How's everyone doing today?" The voice belonged to Julian as he had come out from the holosuite and saw his friends sitting at the table.

Before anyone could say anything, Miles spoke: "We are worried about you," he said as Quark came over to bring Garak's food.

"Worried? Why should anyone be worried about me?" Julian asked with a smile as he grabbed a chair and sat down.

"You missed our lunch schedule today doctor," Garak replied.

Julian fidgeted on where he sat, just a few minutes ago, he was just making out with the holo-Garak and the words that he had spoken had made him hard. "I'm sorry, it's just that the new program that I have is intriguing," he said smiling.

"You're new counselor is helping you about the one that you love?" Jadzia asked teasing.

Julian shot her a look but he didn't saw Garak's gaze turned away when she said it. "It's a new program of James Bond," he lied.

"James Bond?" Miles asked as he never heard him before.

"Look I better get to the infirmary, my duty is coming up and I don't want the nurses hounding me," Julian said quickly as he got up and looked at Garak, "tomorrow we'll have lunch at the Replimat, I promise," he said and he left the table before Garak could say anything.

"I thought you said that you haven't seen him lately?" Miles asked looking at Quark.

"Ah, must have slipped my mind," Quark replied as he left the group.

"What should we do?" Miles asked.

"There's nothing that we can do but wait until Julian comes around," Jadzia said and the group didn't say anything more as Garak sat there eating his lunch as he thought about Julian worriedly.


TBC...

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