Okay, so here's chapter three. I know lots of you want to know more about Emmett and Rose's relationship; hold on a little while longer and you'll get it. But again, if you have any idea's of how they should get what they want please let me know, because to be honest, I have no idea how they can have a child. Any ideas? Anyway, here's chapter 3. Enjoy.


Chapter 3

"I can hear everything you're thinking remember?" Edward says to me, not turning his head from the dear he approaches.

"I'm well aware of that," I reply. "I haven't even got to the good stuff yet." I draw up an image from our holiday last year, with Rose in her red bikini, decorated with roses. He squirms beside me and I grin. Maybe he won't be listening so hard now.

I turn my attention back to the dear and prepare to pounce. "There is no other way," he says, making me jump, loosing balance and toppling of the rock to the ground. The deer is startled and races of into the woods. Great. "There is only the way Bella and I had Renesmee and I doubt Rosalie would be willing to allow that."

"You underestimate how desperate she is."

"I know how desperate she is, maybe more than you, though I pretend not to. And I know how sad it makes you feel. There are no secrets from me remember?"

"I remember all right." I sigh. "Are you sure there isn't another way? Couldn't we… I don't know, is there no hope?"

"Unless you adopt a human child, raise it until its full grown and then bite it you have no hope. Or you could do what you keep thinking of inside your mind, but I doubt she'll allow it."

I kick the ground in frustration and begin chasing after the deer. Edward catches up with me. "Maybe that's what you should do. Adopt and then bite. The Volturri won't like it but I doubt they'll be jumping at the bit to attack. Not yet at least."

"But a human baby? So fragile and small. I'll almost defiantly squish it. Strongest in the clan remember?"

"Not with the child that you'll love so much. Renesmee wasn't that much stronger than a normal baby. A little more durable perhaps but close to a human baby and you were okay with her."

"But the transformation is hell, and watching someone go through that must be the hardest thing you'll ever have to do. Could you do that to Renesmee without due cause, like a broken spine or being mauled by a bear?" I shiver at the memory. "Could you inflict such pain on your own children?"

"That's the hardest bit. I will admit," Edward agrees, his eyes shadowed my memories. "But the injection of morphine seemed to help ease the pain."

I barely hear him. "And you don't think that the child won't want family? Who's to say they won't want children just as much as Rose does? If there's anything Rose thinks is more important that her own need for children, its other human's need for children. She would never deprive them of what she was deprived of."

"Yes, that I agree with. It's one of the only selfless qualities she has."

I shoot him a look. I'm not in the mood for his teasing jokes about my wife today. Usually I take them on the chin, but today, I feel glum and do not have the patience for insults, even ones from Edward who means them in the nicest way possible.

Yet still my shoulders droop. "So that's it. That's all my options? I have no choice."

He shakes his head. "You have two choices. To give up, or to find a way. It's all down to you, but I'll help in any way needed."

I nod.

"Keep thinking. You never know. You may get the idea of a lifetime any moment."

I feel like a deflated helium balloon. My shoulders droop, my smile sags, and yet there are still too options. Is this really what it's come to? To bit a human child, or do the same to a human as Edward did to Bella. Which not only is dangerous, but is slightly different in this situation and I'm not totally heartless. Taking a child from its mother, and that's if she survives. If she doesn't, I'll feel so bad about how she was killed that I'd turn her, and then she has every right to the child as me and Rose.

Everything is complicated, everything has consequences. Consequences that we have to live with, except, prioritize. What could possibly be so important that I could justify killing? Apart from the fact that I am a vampire, and vampires are born to kill. Yet bigger than consequences, dilemmas. Because it is these dilemmas that decide the consequences. I have reached cross road flowing busy traffic, and I'm about to face it head on.

Suddenly Jasper is in front of me, running backwards. Show off. Usually I would use this as a challenge, a race or a fight, something competitive, but for once I let it go. He frowns. "What's up with you?"

"Nothing," Edward says. "He is just annoyed I scared away that deer."

"I can't see any of the bears Alice promised," I scowl. Right now I want to release my anger, kill a bear slowly and painfully, just like it did to me.

"Maybe you're not looking hard enough," Jasper retorts. Anything bad about Alice is usually our fault to Jasper; he won't have you criticising her.

I begin to run faster and they both speed up, Jasper working harder than Edward, who is actually the fastest of us all, but they both manage to keep pace. Carlisle is close behind.

"Seriously, what's up with him? This has nothing to do with deer's. He's feeling way too annoyed and… sad for that. Actually, it's more like heartbroken." Jaspers question is aimed at Edward, but it still gets under my skin. Why can't he just let it go?

"Don't push him Jasper. He's too angry to talk, and if you get on the wrong end of that, well, things actually won't turn out well for you," Edward warns.

I feel a wave of calm flow through me and I growl. I don't want Jasper to make me feel calm, I need to find a bear. Carlisle is with us now. "Everything alright boys?"

"Don't ask," Edward says, but Jasper isn't as careful.

"It could result in you losing your head."

I turn my head and snarl. But I lose focus and slam into a tree. The force in which I hit it sends tremors through the ground, the tree creaking as it tips sideways, crashing to the floor, taking two more down with it like dominoes. Edward stops, holding out an arm to stop Carlisle and Jasper.

"Keep them away from me, bro. I need to be alone, and in this mood, I might just kill them." With that I race off into the woods, putting as much distance between them and me. Without another thought, I run further than ever before. Only one thing in my mind; I've failed Rose.