This is the first chapter with Kaoru as the narrator. I thought it would fit and show both sides of the emotion. I know that some people don't like it when a story changes perspective but I think it's what's best for this story. I hope you like it!

Step inside the mind of Kaoru

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I watched her as she ran off with a deep feeling of guilt and regret. I had liked that girl. Though I never knew her name, I had always wondered what it was. None of the others in class had ever called her it loudly, not in all the years she had been here. I had spoken to her, said hi to her most mornings but… It was strange now to think that I had just blown my only chances to even be friends with her in just a few careless words. And that she knew what I was doing as I said it only made it worse. Somehow, she had known it was me and not Hikaru.

I dropped my head, my fringe covering my eyes as I watched her run from me. I could feel my heart tear at the thought of what I had just done and could only imagine what she must have been feeling. I sensed rather than heard Hikaru reveal himself from behind the bush. I didn't turn as he walked up to me and placed a hand on my shoulder.

'Kaoru?' he asked me softly, obviously worried about what had just happened. I pulled my shoulder away from him harshly and immediately felt guilty for it. It may have been his idea but I went along with it. It wasn't his fault. I couldn't blame him. Not really.

I sighed. 'Sorry.' I murmured quietly before running off in the opposite direction from the girl whose name I still didn't know.

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I didn't go to club that afternoon. I sat in the garden of Ouran and watched the flower petals fall. Hikaru didn't come and find me. I don't think I really expected to. I didn't expect any of them to. But someone did. Someone even more unexpected than any club member.

Nattilia Daikuji.

I had spoken to her only a few times in demanding conversations. She was a nice girl and smart. She was known to be that girl's best friend and she didn't look happy. Her eyes were narrowed and her brow was wrinkled. Her hands were on her hips and she was scowling.

Damn.

'What did you do to Yuki?' she demanded fiercely. I guess that must be the girl's name. Yuki. It fit her well, as quiet, pale and beautiful as the snow.

'Nothing…' I gasped quickly. It was a bit too defensive and she knew it. If possible, her eyes narrowed further.

'You did something! She had tears running down her face as she flew down that corridor! I knew she would get hurt! It's what you've always done. You did it to me too! What did you do?' she hissed. I imagined her head would be turning red at about this point. She looked like she was about to explode with anger.

I felt my eyes widen. I remember her now. She was one of those girls who had written us a love letter just before the boss had come into the picture. 'I'm sorry.' I apologized, suddenly feeling guilty for all of the girl's hearts I had helped tear out. 'but wasn't it Hikaru you wrote a letter to?' I asked her, hoping it wouldn't upset her more. She nodded.

'Yes, but you were part of it. Did you do the same thing to her? You basted! She trusted you!' Nattilia cried. I looked down, ashamed. I knew this but it didn't help hearing it from someone else.

'I know.' I told her quietly.

'You do, do you?' she whispered loudly and angrily at me. I looked up at her again, into those eyes. Those eyes filled with hatred. She had been holding this hate in for so long. Her hate for me, her hate for my brother. It hurt to think that we deserved this hate. I thought suddenly about the conversations we had shared, me and Hikaru happily laughing and joking with her and shame filled me. How must she have felt, to not even have been recognised by us? To have no apology for the crimes against her and having to act like she didn't care.

'I never thought we would do that again.' I told her bitterly, looking her in the eyes as I spoke. 'But then I got that letter and, well, I suppose old habits die hard. I don't know why I did it. I mean, I do like her. But she'll never trust me again. Just like you.' I saw her eyes soften slightly as I spoke. I looked down again. Why was I telling her this? She didn't care. Why would she?

'No, she won't. At least, not for a while.' She told me softly. I looked at her in surprise as she settled herself down next to me on the bench I was sat on.

'What do you mean?' I asked her, watching her hair blow softly in the wind. She truly was beautiful.

'You still have a chance Kaoru.' She answered dreamily, in a voice often used by the boss when he was trying to help people. 'But you need to prove yourself. Prove to her an to me that you can be trustworthy and truly want to be her friend-' she looked at me, sending her intelligent brown eyes into my soul. 'And maybe she'll let you back. She really likes you, you know.' She finished before heading off and leaving me sitting there, watching as her skirt and hair danced in the wind, waltzing intricately with the flower petals.

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I seem to be quite consistent with the size of these chapters. The actual story hasn't gone over two pages yet…

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