Authors note! = Here your going to take a look at Bella's mind. And you'll see she wasn't always the person she was now.
DISCLAIMER= I own nada of Twilight I can only wish I did
(BPOV)
I'm living with my father now because of my old school in Florida . They picked on me, put gum in my hair, left unpleasant things in my locker, and a lot of other things that i don't want to think about. At first I just dealt with it, but over the years I just kept getting more and more angry. So now I'm using my new attitude to be better in this school. I'm never gonna be picked on again.
But the old me hasn't fully gone away.
It's just another part of me I guess. I call her Marie, I'm constantly fighting with her, she represents the old me. I want to be: a strong, outspoken, cool girl with an 'I don't give a shit' attitude. Yet I still am the old girl I once was: the nice, quiet, girl, who allowed people to push her around. I tried to push her away, but there were times when I wondered if I really wanted to be a new girl.
Fuck ya I do!
No! She's cruel to undeserving people!
If that's what it takes to be popular then so be it!
Since when did you care about being popular?
Why did I care? Why do I all of a sudden want to be part of the very kind of people that made my life hell? Oh yea because you either join them or become there victims and I wont allow that to happen. Not here.
My dad came into the kitchen were I was eating cereal and grabbed his hat. He was the police chief of Forks. Which means he'll know if I do any law breaking.
Damn!
"Bye Bells! Have a good day at your new school, and uh, make new friends." He said leaving the house. Man I though he would never leave!
I looked at my self in the mirror and smiled. I looked pretty damn good. Not to be vain of course.
I got into my red truck and headed towards school. The parking lot was packed so I had to drive around until I finally found a parking spot.
I went into the office and got my class schedule. I got lost twice, but it's all good. In my first two classes boys checked me out and gave me flirting smiles. I returned those smiles adding a few winks here and there or a casual wave of my hand.
When I walked in the cafeteria for lunch, I had no idea where the hell I was going to sit! I looked around, and everyone was all in there own little groups. People were starting to look at me, and I didn't know what to do!
Suddenly this cute blonde haired boy with blue eyes sprinted towards me. His fast movements caught me off guard. I gave the cafeteria a quick once over; they had a lot of cute boys. I had experience with boy's, with one relationship ending with tears and heart brake, but I wasn't going to think about him. He ruined me and I wouldn't let him take more tears from me.
"Hey I'm mike!" Mike said.
"Ah the cutie has a name," I said smiling.
"Uh y-y-a. That's m-me," he stuttered and I laughed at his stuttering.
"So…" I asked while making a hand gesture asking why he ran up to me.
"oh!" He seemed to remember why he came up to me. "I wanted to ask you if you, uh, maybe wanted to sit with me and my friends."
Saved by the cutie. "I would love to!" He led me to a table with six kids. They somehow knew my name, but I quickly told them I preferred to be called Bella. Isabella ugh what a formal name.
They introduced themselves and asked me all sorts of questions and I asked questions in return. I learned that Mike was loyal and doesn't give up (on flirting with me). Jessica has a major crush on Mike and loves gossip (typical). Lauren seems like a bitch, I mean she kept glaring at me the whole damn time and slyly insulted me every chance she got. Tyler is pretty cool, and Eric is kind of quirky. Angela is the nicest girl I ever met, she's awesome.
During lunch I couldn't help but feel like someone was staring at me. When I decided to check it out I was met with startling green eyes.
He was gorgeous, my heart skipped a beat just looking at him. I did the only thing I could think of, and winked at him. He seemed shocked and looked down at the table.
Really Bella? You winked! How lame can you be!
She'll have her good moments and then she'll have her bad moments. You'll see soon! Wink wink nudge nudge ;]
Okay I promise this time that the next chapter will have Edward and Bella interaction!!!
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