AN:
Hi Everybody!!!!
I'm back. And I'm really sorry that I haven't posted anything in so long but I have been crazy busy. Anyways, I chose this story to update first because it got pretty popular considering I only posted 2 chapters… I thought that I was going to take it down, but thanks to loyalluv, I didn't. She rocks. And she has great ideas and is the best Beta I could ask for, so if you like this story, then thank her for helping me decide to keep it on FanFiction. (: Please read all the way and review.
My super-duper beta - loyalluv
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~Team Edcob 4 Life
Bella's POV
Now that Edward and Angela were together, things had been changing. A lot.
For example, school had become a living hell. I was a good student, but I never really went to school to learn. I went for my best friends. Because I loved them so much, the time I got to spend with them was always fun filled and the highlight of my day. But now that Edward wasn't single, I would feel a sharp prang in my hear when he passed by with her held close to him.
Edward was always a passionate person. The glow in his eyes that showed when he looked at Angela was more than I could handle. And yet, I still didn't exactly know why. There was something that drew me to Edward still, and now that Angela was always by his side, I didn't want to hang out with him as much because I either felt out of the conversation and like a third wheel, or Angela would give me a look that told me to just leave her alone. And I had never seen a side of Angela like that before. It scared me almost.
And I became in a depressed mode. I was slumping all over the place, and all of my friends noticed, and tried to help but there wasn't anything they could do, and eventually they gave up after about two weeks of my sadness.
Alice and I went over to my house after school one day, and we were gossip as usual. Then, the topic of Edward came up. I felt sick to my stomach when she began talking about Angela and them being a good couple.
"Bella, are you alright? You look terrible." she asked me. I could feel myself practically turning green.
"Yeah, I am totally fine, I just must have eaten something bad, I guess." I said, and when we went on talking, I was getting a headache.
"…And he told me all about how he wasn't really sure about going out with Angela, but after he really thought about it, he knew it was the perfect decision." Alice paused, and looked at me. "Bella, why do I get the feeling that it's me talking about Edward and Angela that is messing with you?"
"I don't know, I really don't. Maybe I should just take some medicine or rough it out.." I guessed, yeah, maybe medicine would help.
To make a long story short, the aspirin didn't help.
Time passed slowly since I found out Edward and Angela were together. They had been going out for 3 weeks already, but it seemed like it had been 3 years. It was just too much for me. And Edward noticed.
One day, he approached me while I was sitting by myself in the corner. He big beautiful eyes glimmered in the sunlight shining through the windows of our classroom and I felt that pain again, but he looked so stunning that my breath got taken completely away. I had always known Edward was attractive to some girls, but never to me. Not that I had known of. But that day, I noticed that he was kind of gorgeous. He had an great jaw line, smooth, but messy hair, big green eyes that a girl could easily get lost in, and whatever he wore, you could see his muscles through his shirt. He was so deep, and he wrote these amazing lyrics to these songs he played about life, and love and anything you could think of and his voice made it sound beautiful. He could read the phonebook and it would be a work of art. And he was smart, a 4.0 grade point average every quarter, and he would never fail to make smile if I was down,
I sat with my head down, wondering what was wrong with me for thinking about how good looking my best friend was, when he sat down next to me and put his arm around my shoulders. People passing by to grab supplies for the project we were working on looked at us disapprovingly because by then, everybody who wasn't living under a rock knew about their relationship.
"Hey, Bells." he said.
"Hey." I say back quietly.
"Look, Bella, what's wrong? Did something happen? I want to know what I can do to make it better, because I am not going to just sit here and watch my best friend suffer. I can read you like a book, Bella Swan. Don't pretend I can't." he said looking holding his gaze on me, even though I tried to break it.
I tried to fake a smile, I didn't want him to see me at such a time in my life where I was so confused. "Edward, I'm not suffering. Nothings wrong. I'm just being… melodramatic I guess. I uh… uh… I stubbed my toe and there is a bruise on it, and well, it hurts like crazy to walk, that's why I am always sitting now. And, I uh… I sit by myself because I um… I don't want to disturb other people about how whiny I am, and uh… yeah."
"Bella." he said and gave me a look telling me that he didn't believe me. I gave him one back, mocking him. "Fine, if you won't tell me the real story, then I won't help. I hope your 'stubbed toe' feels better." He chuckled lightly at himself,
I couldn't help but bust a real smile along with him. His smile was just so contagious, it gave me the little bit of pure happiness that I needed, and needed to hold on to for a million years. But I couldn't.
Edward was there with me for a while, trying to help me, but I was all too embarrassed to explain to him what was wrong. But that was the day I came to terms, I had to analyze it in my room that night, but I finally had to admit to myself the truth. I jotted down the facts.
1. I thought Edward was gorgeous
2. I got butterflies when he was around
3. It hurt me to see him around Angela
4. I started feeling uncomfortable when he started going out with Angela.
5. He made me feel safe, and at home, and I loved being around him every waking moment possible
It was weird for me to admit to myself what the truth was, whether I liked it or not. I wanted to tell myself that it was just hormones, that I was just a growing girl who couldn't describe her feelings. But I couldn't convince myself that. This 'crush', if that is what I would call it, was more than anything I had ever felt before. It had hit me like a rock, and so the only thing I conclude was this: I liked Edward Cullen. My best friend. I would keep it a secret forever and a day, I told myself. Nobody could know.
AN:
Hi everyone!!!!
So, that was all I could get down for now, but I am so happy that I finally finished a chapter!!!! I still promise they will get longer… I just have to wait for plot to evolve. Please review!!! They make me soooo happy!!!!
Love you for reading!!!!
~Team Edcob 4 Life
