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Sam hadn't been able to save him this time, he had to hear and see his brother being ripped apart and be put back together again and again before they had finally stopped. Of course they had to leave him half tortured so he was still in pain, it broke his heart to see his little brother like this. He had Adam head on his lap unconcerned about all the blood pooling around him. He was stroking Adam hair hoping that it in some way soothed him from the pain of having two steel poles pinning him to the floor. Adam was being strong though, he wasn't crying even though he had to be in a lot of pain. He wasn't doing as well, he was trying to prevent the tears that were in his eyes from falling, it was harder to see his baby brother like this then it was being tortured himself. Which is probably why they usually only tortured one of them at a time and made the other watch.

"Adam I'm sorry." he said trying not sound like he was on the verge of crying. Adam didn't say anything for quite a long time and just starred up at the ceiling. Then he asked so quietly Sam almost didn't hear him.

"Sam, can you tell me about Dad?"

"Sure... he was a good father, I didn't always think so when I was a teenager, I hated the man. " Sam wondered if he should get into this or not, but figured his brother probably wanted to know everything about him and not just the good parts, Adam knew some of this stuff already anyways.

"He treated us like we were soldiers instead of his children. We moved every month and sometimes more then once a month. I went to Stanford because I wanted to be normal and partially to get away from him. He was a good man and a good father, how many people spend their lives saving other people from monsters and ghost with no pay and half the time no thanks? "

"You did." Adam whispered. Sam put his face over Adam's and gave him a look that said don't talk.

"Because that's what my dad taught us to do, because I think he knew even back then that Dean and I would never be normal, and he wanted to prepare us as best he could for the life we would face."

"Do you miss Dean?" he asked Sam heart lurched. He missed Dean, he missed him so much, but he didn't want him here or to do something stupid like make a deal to get him out.

He never thought he would be as close to anyone as he was close to Dean. He was wrong, Dean and Sam had spent decades together , Dean had practically raised him and while no could replace him as his big brother, he felt just as strongly about Adam. They had been all each had had for years now, how many years he wasn't sure, but he cared strongly for Adam and would do whatever he could to protect him.

"Yes I miss Dean." Sam answered honestly, he carded his hand through Adam hair. He felt as if there was an underlying question there, but if Adam didn't ask it he certainly wasn't going to answer.

"Tell me a story...no a memory a good memory." Sam couldn't deny him not when he was like this.

"Okay." he tried to think of a good memory.

"When I was seven, back before I even know about monsters, I was sick really sick and I had to stay home from school." Sam said wistfully with a smile on his face.

" Dean tried to stay home with me, he even tried to fake being sick himself, that didn't work my Dad saw through it and he made Dean go to school. He stayed home from work , even though we needed the money , he made me soup and he stayed with me nearly all day. Not that remember much about it, I was so sick I slept most of the day, but I remember whenever I opened my eyes, even a little bit I saw him there with me. If I had trouble going back to sleep he sung to me. If I had trouble eating he helped me. It's one of my favorite memories of my Dad, because it was one of the few times he was just being my dad."

"Tell me another one." he asked weakly. Sam smiled sadly down at him. Adam had some good memories of his father, but he didn't have a full time father and if he wanted to know about their father he would tell him all the good and bad memories he wanted.

"When I was 8 I..."

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