This chapter was a little harder because I really don't understand Edward Cullen that much, but I did it!
The song at the beginning of this chapter, I feel shows a lot on how Edward felt towards Bella the first time his saw her, in this story. If you want to hear the whole thing, it is called First Day Of My Life by Bright Eyes. The song is kind of sad, but it helped me write this chapter
I hope you enjoy, but no matter how you feel please review!
Chapter 3: Everything Changed
Edward POV
I went out in the rain, suddenly Everything Changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach
Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don't know where I am
Don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go
And so I thought I'd let you know
That these things take forever
. . .
But I realized that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home . . .
-First Day Of My Life_Bright Eyes
It was the same town.
The same story,
The same life,
And the same normal,
But a new day; maybe everything would be different.
I wouldn't consider my existence to be counted as worthy. I have my family, the only thing that is keeping me in this world. I know I deserved this kind of nonexistent torture; the need and feeling of nothing. I see my family and how they are content with being what they are; they have let go of their past and their faults while I am still holding on to what I have done.
Whenever I let my mind wonder, I would wish there could be something that could distract my racing mind. If I let the voices creep in all I felt was guilt for intruding where I knew I had no right. Most of the voices I regularly heard were nowhere near memorable, not interesting in any way, granted I was usually surrounded by drama filled high school students.
I was lying on my bedroom floor listening to one of my many music CDs when I heard my mother's, Esme's, voice.
Time to go to school young man, It was her thoughts that she talked with instead of her voice.
I smiled at the way she called me 'young man', I was technically older then she was but it was nice to have a motherly figure, like Esme, around when I needed her.
I turned off my radio and raced down the stairs. I stopped behind Esme, thinking of how gentle and tender she has been towards me and anyone she meets. I wrapped my arm around her waist and quickly kissed her cheek, saying goodbye.
She smiled in return. You better get going, want to keep up appearance.
Edward, everyone's waiting in the car for you.
I turned to Carlisle and smiled lightly. I felt respect and loyalty towards him. His thoughts about me were always hopeful and trusting, things I knew I did not deserve from him. I did not understand how he could think so much of me after all that I have done to earn his distrust.
Every day, before I left I would promise myself to prove him right about me. I aimed to be as controlled and caring as he was.
I nodded to Carlisle and walked to the garage where my siblings were leaning against my Volvo, waiting to be taken to school.
I groaned internally at the thought. School, in my opinion, was a waste of my time; I only went to please my parents and keep up the public story. It did not seem right that the five of us were being taught everything we already know while Carlisle went to save lives every day.
Pushing those thoughts aside I climbed into the driver's seat. I waited until everyone was sitting to race down the winding road, away from our house.
The drive to the high school was uneventful as I sped through the familiar streets. As we pulled into the parking lot there was a much bigger crowed than usual, students laughing and hanging out with whom they called friends. I tuned out the voices, spoken and thought, and focused on each rain drop that hit the wind shield. After I parked the car in are usual spot no one moved at first, preparing themselves for the day ahead. I kept my focus on the rain until my siblings started getting out.
Emmett came around the car to help Rosalie out of the car. Alice and Jasper got out holding hands; I envied the two couples, the closeness and familiarity they had with one another. I took an unneeded breath and stepped out of the car. I was hit with different scents all at once, but pushed my thirst down to where I could barely feel it. I also pushed back the loud voices swarming in my head.
Everyone was paying attention and obsessing over the new kids and the new English teacher. Five unfamiliar faces filled my mind. Two faces blended together and if it wasn't for the different hair, I would have thought it was one person; both with pale skin, heart shaped faces and deep brown eyes, one had straight long brown hair and the other had chin length dirty blonde hair. There was another girl with piercing green eyes and tinted red hair; she had a darker skin color, almost like the Quileute's. The boy had cropped black hair and light brown eyes, his skin was darker then the girls and he was built like a Quileute. I was worried because of the Quileute heritage I saw in the boy, so worried that I didn't examine the new teacher closely.
"We need to keep an eye on the boy and the girl," I said without looking at my family, knowing they were listening.
Emmett's mind went confused. There are three girls, which one do we need to look out for?
I wanted to roll my eyes at him, but I kept any emotion from escaping my mind. "The one with the green eyes, she is shorter than the other two, you'll know when you see her." I replied in a low voice, only to be caught be the ears of my family.
I search the crowd discreetly, trying to find the family that had caught everyone's undivided attention.
There, a soft voice said, my sister, Alice.
I looked to where she saw them. Four bodies huddled together talking in whispers that I could not detect. After getting frustrated that I could not hear them, I searched their minds for something that could give me a hint of what they were saying.
All I got was muffled unclear thoughts, each one's thoughts was hurting with difficulty to try and un-puzzle, except to the long haired twin, her mind was completely blank. I was concentrating on the four so hard I did not realize my family was furiously thinking at me to understand what was going on until Alice grasped my shoulder.
Calm down or you might do something. Alice warned.
Stop Staring, you are attracting attention! Rosalie yelled to my mind.
Why is anger rolling off you so much? Jasper asked.
Dude, we could totally take the little wolf, Emmett said, oblivious to my tense figure.
My anger was decreasing as the familiar voices came over me. "I can't understand them. Whoever they are, they are different." As I spoke, I turned back to the four kids, meeting soulful brown eyes.
The picture in people's mind was insulting compared to the real thing. Her brown eyes were deep with wisdom and pain. Pain? Why does she feel pain? I had a strange feeling to walk to her and comfort her in any way I could, the thought of her in pain sent an uncomfortable aching to settle over my whole body. I tried to shake it off, but I could not drop my gaze away from her eyes. I wanted to know everything about her, to let her know everything about me—Wait! No! I could go nowhere near her, she could never know about me. What if I lost control—?
I sniffed the air, trying to catch her sent, a fragrant rose and a hint of strawberries. I did not find a trace of blood lust towards her sent. I was overly confused; however, all I could think was to go to her and before I knew it I had taken several steps in her direction.
When I reached her, I closed my eyes to take in her wonderful aroma. When I opened them again, I realized her siblings were no longer surrounding her and I was grateful, I only wanted to give this beautiful girl my attention.
Her face was one of panic. She fidgeted with her hands and bit her bottom lip. I looked to her mouth and a way of lust hit me strongly.
I looked away, bringing my eyes back to her face, hoping she did not see the remaining lust in my eyes. Still sensing her fear, I smiled at her as friendly as I could and extended my hand.
"Hello." I felt a twinge of accomplishment when she did not cringe away like the other students, and quickly continued to keep her with me, "My name is Edward Cullen; I would like to formally welcome you to Forks High."
She seemed a little awestruck, which was to be expected, but shook my hand without flinching at my cold skin.
"My name is Isabella Mason, but I prefer to be called Bella."
When I heard her voice, everything changed, I knew I had found my happiness; I could not keep a smile off my face.
That was Chapter 3, I really hope I got Edwards character right in the beginning, let me know if I did. Review, review, review, review! Or favorite! Or follow!
The next chapter will be in Bella POV.
