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Live Free or Let Me Die
Digidestend Angel
I do not own Skillet's song or the poem I found off of a website online, PersonalFuneralCeromonies . com.
Chapter Three
Angels Fall Down
I saw angels fall down
at the glory of the Lord
and as I raise my hands I see
-Skillet
"Ladies and gentlemen," A man standing in a black suit with tearful eyes. "We have gathered to this beautiful garden of a place to reminisce on the short, but joyful life of Nathaniel Beckett Oliver." Sniffles were heard from the small, but comfortable audience before him. "Here is a slideshow of the life of Nathaniel, with his twin brother, Julian Loto Oliver, and his loving parents, Beckett and Caterina Oliver." The pastor stepped down and gave a nod to Robbie in the back of the room, who started the slideshow on the projector, with tears in his eyes.
I saw angels fall down
at the glory of the Lord
and as I raise my hands I see
The pictures of Beck, Cat, and their twins' faces showed up on the screen in slow motion. Some were even video clips.
"Come on, come to mommy!" Cat's voice was heard from behind the camera, as Nathaniel was crawling with a bright smile towards her. "Yay! That's it! Crawl to momma! Yay! Go, Nathaniel, go!"
Another clip came up. "And choo-choo…choo-choo…" And Beck's exhausted sigh was heard as Nathaniel's dull face just stared at the camera. "Cat, he's not eating!" Cat came up with a smile and kissed Nathaniel's cheek. Nathaniel suddenly laughed, which gave Beck a chance to stick the small spoonful of food in his mouth. "SCORE!"
I saw angels fall down
at the glory of the Lord
and as I hit the ground I see
"Say "mama", Nathaniel…say, Mama." Cat's voice said through the speaker of the camera, and small Nathaniel was laughing at the camera screen. "Okay, stop laughing, and say Mama." Cat sweetly asked. "Nathaniel, make mama's day and say mama!"
Nathaniel gave the camera a grin. "Ma-ma…ma-ma."
"I WIN!" Cat's voice squealed as Nathaniel giggled again at his mother's silliness. "You said "mama" before "dada"! Ha! Beck is going to be so jealous, isn't he, my son?"
And I fall down
afraid and shaking here
And I fall down
perfectly safe in you
"Mama, watch me!" Young Nathaniel's voice screamed out as he was in Beck's arms in their small pool in the backyard of their house. He had small arm floaties on as he padded the water. "I'm swimming!"
Beck was chuckling. "Well, sort of, kid. You will for real one day."
"When I'm big headed like you?" His son suddenly asked innocently.
Beck glared to the camera, which had Cat's giggles on the other end. "CAT!"
I saw angels fall down
at the glory of the Lord
the hurt and the broken find rest here
"Okay, okay, the camera's on!" Cat's voice was heard over the camera as it was zoomed in on the twin boys. "Okay, say it again, Nathaniel, please!"
Nathaniel hugged his brother suddenly with a smile, and Julian giggled. "I LOVE MY BROTHER!"
Julian wrapped an arm around Nathaniel as well. "I LOVE MY BROTHER TOO!"
"Aww, I love my sons." Cat's voice cooed.
Nathaniel and Julian stood up and ran to the camera. "I LOVE MOMMY!" They both screamed as they tramped and hugged Cat, and the camera went down, showing Cat's giggling face as the boys attempted to tickle her.
I saw angels fall down
at the beauty of the Lord
and as I kneeled I cried to know Him
And the video ended with a final picture of the whole Oliver family.
Cat had tears running down her cheeks as Beck kept an arm around her. "Oh God…" She brought her only son closer to her chest, who was crying as well. Julian was staring straight ahead of him, but he saw nothing with his new glassy, gray eyes.
Julian was now fully blind from the glass shards that had entered his eyes during the car accident.
Jade was on the other side of Cat, rubbing her back. "You're going to be okay, Cat." She whispered over and over in Cat's ear. "You're such a good mother, Cat."
The preacher took the stand once again, looking to have been wiping tears from his eyes as well. "Matthew 5: 4 – Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." He said with a heavy heart. "The father, Beckett, is going to recite a poem Nathaniel's mother has written for him."
Beck nodded and stood up, taking a paper out of his suit jacket pocket. He leaned down and gave Cat a kiss on the forehead before walking up to the microphone. The preacher patted Beck's back before stepping down.
Beck cleared his throat. "This is our second child we have lost since we started our marriage 3 years ago, so we know this devastating pain too well, but it doesn't make it any less painful." Beck said, and everyone nodded in understanding. "My wife is the best mother her sons could ever ask for, so she does not deserve this pain. Julian was a good brother to Nathaniel, and he did not deserve this loneliness. I'm a good father, and I was a good friend to Nathaniel as well. We actually had a long, well discussion before the accident." Beck gave himself a soft smile. "We spoke about how his mother was a pretty princess, and how his brother was a good boy. We also told each other how much we loved one another. Those were our last words to one another in a one-on-one conversation. And for that, I'm glad." Beck cleared his throat again. "This paper in my hands is a handwritten poem by my wife, Cat, who wrote this for Nathaniel. I'm going to read it for her."
Cat gave him a nod, saying "Thanks" silently.
Beck sighed. "This is called, Our Baby." He bit his lip, but spoke. "In a baby castle, just beyond our eyes,
Our baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who are we, to wish that you had known this world of strife?
Now, play on, our Baby you have eternal life.
At night, when all is silent and sleep forsakes our eyes
We'll hear your tiny footsteps come running to our side.
Your little hands caress us, so tenderly and sweet
We'll breathe a prayer and close our eyes
And embrace you in our sleep.
Feelings we will treasure,
Sometimes they'll make us sad,
Because, our little Baby
We are still your Mum and Dad." Beck sniffled, and finished. "GOODNIGHT AND BLESS YOU."
Another song softly started and Cat stood up, with a confused, but tearful Julian in her arms, and they walked to Beck. They watched as they lowered their second deceased child into the ground, and they began putting dirt back in.
Once again…Cat was slowly being separated from her child…forever.
I'm glad I've been getting over 10 reviews for each chapter! It's awesome! Let's go again, shall we? Thanks again for liking the story so much!
Please review again! No flames still. Give me till February to talk about that one.
-Digidestend Angel-
PREVIEW FOR CHAPTER 4: Dead Inside
"You think you're the only one who lost a son here? You think you're the only one suffering from the reality my only living son is blind for the rest of his life?" Beck asked, gripping his hair in his hands. "I'm upset too!"
Cat's hands flew into the air in exasperation. "What do you want from me?"
Beck grabbed her arms and looked her in the eyes. "I want my wife to talk to me! I want to vent to my wife!" Tears left Beck's eyes unwillingly. "I want to know how I can help you, or heal you!"
Cat shook her head, in a daze again. "You can't help me. No one can."
