Instinctive Part 3

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"What the hell Chloe?" Clark said with his face filled with anger.

Davis stiffened and then stepped away from Chloe. Chloe backed away embarrassed and angry.

"It's none of your business Clark." Chloe said.

"Oh, yes it is! You're my best friend. I just left from the hospital from seeing your fiancé. He was devastated afraid he hurt you and here you are making out with a guy you barely know." Clark said.

"He cheated Clark!" Chloe yelled.

"And so you cheated for revenge." Clark said.

Chloe couldn't look Clark or Davis in the eye. She looked at Davis though seeing how hurt he looked.

"No." she said looking at Davis hoping she believed her.

She didn't want to explain herself to Clark. She wanted to hide from embarrassment and guilt. Jimmy did feel awful for hurting her. At least he felt bad. But she couldn't hold onto that. Not with what just happened with Davis. She didn't want to hurt him. She couldn't quite wrap her mind around it. Was it revenge? Or did Jimmy just give her an excuse to act on what she's wanted since she met Davis?

Davis backed away looking a bit lost and confused. Then he stepped on a pink piece of paper and picked it up. Chloe looked at it in horror. She didn't want Davis to read it or put attention to Clark. It was embarrassing and the cause of all of this. And she was utterly confused about all of this.

Davis picked it up and glanced at it and immediately handed it to Chloe.

"Oh, this must be yours." Davis said as he handed it to Chloe respectfully.

Then he looked at Clark sheepishly and said, "I see you two have a lot to talk about. I better get going."

"Davis wait." Chloe said not sure of what she wanted to say to him.

"It's OK Chloe we'll talk later." Davis as he looked in her eyes full of warmth.

"OK." Chloe said tenderly.

Then Davis left as Chloe and Clark watched him leave.

"Chloe I came here all guilty thinking I caused your relationship with Jimmy to be on the rocks yet again. But it's not me it's Davis. Was the letter that got Jimmy all crazy was that to Davis?"

"No."

"Was it from him?" Clark asked.

"No."

"Well?"

"It was to you Clark. You're right. I wrote it to you sophomore year when you were sick. I declared my love for you and that I'd wait. And all you did in your delirium is call Lana's name." Chloe spat out not to happy about finally revealing it to him.

Clark's disposition changed and he sympathetically said, "I'm sorry."

"It's OK it was along time ago." Chloe said putting a stray strand of hair behind her ear.

"I know it was Chloe but …. What does this have to do with you kissing Davis?"

Chloe huffed and said, "Jimmy found that letter and got all angry and stormed out. I just wanted someone to talk to about it so I called Davis and invited him over."

Clark looked at her with a bit of a judgment and then she continued, "I wasn't planning on doing anything with him. I just…wanted to see him. Talking to him was so easy and helped me feel better. He had this insight that really helped so I invited him over and then I found out about Maxima and I think I flipped a little."

"Yeah, OK." Clark said.

Then he asked, "So, about the letter. Can I see it?"

Chloe clasped the letter to him. Could she let it go? Could she show it to him? She had held onto this letter in her mind for so long always waiting. She had to do a few reaffirming in her mind promising her self she was done waiting. Could she really let him know how far gone she was back then? Would he connect just how long she held onto him?

Chloe then handed the letter to him and let it go. She sort of waited there for minute as he read it furrowing his eye brows and getting all awkward.

Then he said, "And you held onto this all of this time."

"Actually I thought I threw it away but then I found it among some of Lana's old things she left here, back when she used to live here when I first moved in."

"Why would she have it?" Clark asked.

"I don't know Clark. Maybe she picked it up from the trash and held onto it hoping whatever I hoped in the letter never came true. It didn't so it really doesn't matter." Chloe said.

Clark at her with an ache in his eye and said, "Chloe it's not…I'm mean maybe if I've known given the right circumstances."

"What would you do Clark? Step up? Ask me out? Why? You never really saw me that way. I accepted that a long time ago." Chloe said.

"Then why did you hold onto it for so long? You found it when you moved in. Why didn't you just throw it away?"

Chloe looked at him for a bit wondering herself then something dawned on her and she said, "Because it was a part of me. It was part of who I was. Who you were in your past effects who you become in your future. And you can't hide it and deny and pretend it never happened. Clark I was in love with you for a long time. Much longer then I ever let on. Truthfully there was a part of me who was always waiting for you even when I was with Jimmy. I didn't want it to be true. I didn't want every time Jimmy accused me of just biding my time and using him until you came around. I really wasn't. I wanted to be through with you. I didn't want to pine. I wanted to move on. But it always came up. You were always my number one priority. That mostly has to do with your secretly partly because I never truly let you go. I tried to put the nail in that coffin a bunch of times. This last time I thought it would be it. I really thought that it would stick. I mean what says moved on more than promising to marry someone else?"

Clark tensed up and said, "That's why you agreed to marry Jimmy to get over me?"

"I thought that would be it. I thought I could finally have my happily ever after with someone who sees me and desires me and loves me. I cared about Jimmy I still do even though I'm pissed at him. I never wanted to hurt him. OK well, not until just now. I was really pissed."

Clark laughed a little awkwardly and said, "Well, he did hurt you."

"I know it was wrong to kiss Davis…"

"But?"

"But I don't regret it. I should I know I should but I don't." Chloe said shoving her hands in her pockets.

Clark nodded his head and said, "Chloe I'm bit confused. Weren't you just telling me you're not over me and now you're all Davis bla bla bla."

Chloe laughed and asked, "What's the matter Clark are you jealous?"

"I'm just confused that's all."

"You and me both. With Davis everything is all muddled and confused. There are times when I look at him and I feel like it's just me and him. I feel comfortable and easy and scared out of my mind."

"Why didn't you say anything? Why didn't you tell me you were having feelings for Davis?"

"The same reason why I didn't ever tell you how I feel all of those years. I couldn't even admit to myself it was true. I started to live with the lie so long. I started to believe it. I wanted to believe it. I was so close to my happily ever after and for my piece of mind. I couldn't let anything ruin that. So I brushed it off."

Clark sighed deeply, "It's what you do. I should have known I should've seen it but I guess I didn't want to see it. I wanted so much for you to finally be happy. I wanted you to be loved and taken care of. Maybe I wanted to see that so bad so I didn't allow myself to see the warning signs."

Chloe smiled and nodded and said, "Yeah me too."

"So what now?" Clark asked.

"I probably should have a little talk with Jimmy."

"Yeah."

"Maybe I should wait until he gets out of the hospital." Chloe said.

"He's recovering quickly Chloe. Besides you shouldn't stall and hold off. If you do you'll keep on making excuses and you'll be back in your same old habits and denial."

Chloe smiled weakly and said, "You do know me Clark don't you?"

Clark nodded, "I do, I'm sorry I didn't see it before."

"You can't control how you feel Clark." Chloe said.

"But that's the thing I always thought about it. I always wondered what it would be like. I just…my timing was always off." Clark said as he leaned closer to Chloe making her uncomfortable.

Sirens were starting to run in her head was Clark making the moves on her?

She then caressed her cheek as he looked deep in her eyes.

Then he said, "Chloe we make sense. We care about each other. We know each others secrets. We depend on each other. I couldn't imagine my life with out you. We could be great Chloe."

He then leaned in to kiss her and then Chloe panicked and tilted her face so his lips hit her cheek clumsily.

Clark backed away confusion was written in the lines of his face.

"I thought this is what you wanted?" Clark asked a bit put off by his rejection.

"I thought I did too." Chloe admitted honestly.

Then she continued and said, "I'm really confused right now Clark."

"Yeah, you and me both." Clark said.

Chloe smiled weakly and said, "Clark this is great I know we've been honest with each other about our secrets but I never been this honest with you about how I feel. It feels really good. I would never have done it, if it weren't for Davis' advice. I wouldn't even let myself take an honest look at myself until I talked to him. Now that I have. I'm pretty confused."

Clark at her sincerely and said, "I don't think you are. I think you know who and what you want. You're just too scared you'll get hurt and to admit it."

Chloe smiled up at Clark and said, "I think you're right."

Clark looked a little sad but she could tell he wasn't completely heart broken. Looking at Clark she knew he wasn't in love her. He may have liked the idea of her and wanted to try it out and see if they could make it. On the surface it does make sense they know each other, trust each other, and there are no secrets. There is something missing. There's a desire missing. Clark never truly looked at her with desire burning in his eyes. He never truly saw her. He never really looked at her the way Davis did. That right there told her what she really wanted. She wanted Davis and there was no more denying it.

A/N: Thanks for reading and reviewing. Man I really didn't think the Chlark convo would be so long. Oh well, I hope you guys liked it. The next part will be the last part of Instinctive and then I'll move on to the next ep. I'll be skipping Committed because well there's no need for lie detectors when honesty was already happening. YAY honesty! I like honesty it avoids disasters. No worries though there still will be disasters it just won't be caused by denial and that way even more ridiculous disasters wouldn't occur. Cough *failsday* Cough!