Author's Note: Songfic chapter. I'm sorry. I'm a horrible human being, I just couldn't get this out of my head. You can skip the song, just don't skip the chapter. There is alot of development in this one. The song is "Lips Like Morphine" by Kill Hannah. If you wanna follow along: www.youtube.com/watch?v=qW7G4tVwXOw


"It was just a kiss, Simon. The crowd wanted it, I know they did! I felt it!"

"Is it really what the crowd wanted, or is it what you wanted?"

"Well, I. . . I."

The lights went out, he could feel a slow beat vibrate against his body as they walked on stage; its highest peak being his cue to begin strumming the guitar, but to much of his surprise, he missed his part. It took him a while to zone back in, but the bass made it seem like it was all part of the show, adding one instrument at a time. The bass slowly sounded to the same rhythm of his heart, calming him down as he began to strum the first notes, making a beautiful symphony with Simon's voice, vocalizing. And then, it began.

Alvin:
I want a girl with lips like morphine
Knock me out every time they touch me
I wanna feel that kiss just crush me
And break me down

Knock me out!
Knock me out!

Cuz I've waited for all my life
To be here with you tonight

Simon:
I want a girl with lips like morphine
Blow a kiss that leaves me gasping
I want to feel that lightning strike me
And burn me down

Knock me out!
Knock me out!

Cuz I've waited for all my life
To be here with you tonight
Just put me on my back

Knock me out again

-Watching the crowd go crazy at Simon's part left Alvin feeling a little jealous. Simon had never shared that much time in the spotlight, it was always something minor compared to his.

Simon:
Oh, I want a girl with lips like morphine
Knock me out everytime they touch me
I want a girl with lips like morphine

To knock me out

-As Simon sang those words, Alvin let the audience's energy take over him, and as the guitar solo was about to start, he let go of his guitar, letting it hang from the strap. The rhythm guitarist noticed so he took the freedom of filling in for Alvin's part, leaving Alvin with his hands free.

-Feeling the lyrics of the song flow through his veins and Simon's presence behind him, Alvin casually walked up to Simon and placed both of his hands on each side of Simon's head, leaning in for a passionate kiss. Simon had no choice but to let him do it. He tried his best not to make it into a big deal, knowing he was being watched by thousands of people and being recorded by several paparazzi. He simply tried to break the kiss by walking away, but Alvin's persistent arms didn't let go of him. He walked along with Simon. And after giving a few steps, that's when Simon gave in. He wrapped his hands around Alvin's waist. Alvin could feel himself getting excited, so he pulled Simon's hair lightly, releasing some of his built up energy. And as that glimmer of bright light struck his closed eyes, he knew Hollywood had him. He could hear the crowed's roar getting noticeably louder. It all happened so quickly, just a few seconds seemed to be an eternity in euphoria. Alvin would've stayed by his side 'till the song was over, but he stopped when his next verse continued.

Alvin:
See I've waited for all my life

To be here with you tonight
Just put me on my back

Knock me out again

-Nothing could've described his feelings like the words he'd just sung.

"Well?" Simon asked, snapping Alvin out of his flashback.

". . . I don't know, Simon." Alvin admitted. "I don't know."

"You wanna know what I think, Alvin?"

"What?!" Alvin asked defensively.

"I think you're just too scared to admit it!"

"Oh, yeah?!" Alvin looked furious. He looked like he was gonna punch Simon square in the face, but Simon didn't let his fear take over.

"Yeah!" Simon said confidently, but backed away as soon as he saw Alvin approach him. He was scared. He knew Alvin was aggressive at times and he'd never seen Alvin this angry. Trying to calm him down he said,

"I-I I'm sorry, Alvin I didn't mea-"

Their lips met, but Alvin kept walking, pushing Simon up against the wall.

They gasped for air and kissed again.

Not breaking the kiss, Simon took ahold of Alvin and pinned him up against the wall.

"Well?" he heard Simon's voice echo in his head, snapping him out of his daydream.

Before he could answer, Brittany stormed into the room.

"Alvin!" She cried. She turned to face Simon, but she knew it wasn't Simon's fault so she just let him leave. Once he'd left she turned to the one responsable, Alvin.

Even though she never really shared anything with Alvin, she felt like any cheated girl would feel. Her expression changed from an uneasy one to one of sadness. "Did you stop and think about how that would make me feel?"

Alvin remained silent. He couldn't bear to look her in the eyes. He was still trying to process what happened. He still wasn't sure why he did what he did.

"Alvin, you know I like you, right?" Alvin rolled his eyes, irritated at how obvious that statement was, but he felt more sympathetic when he realized that he shouldn't treat her with contempt just because he didn't like her back. "That was supposed to be our song." Hearing those words tremble out of her mouth made him feel like a traitor. They shared a lot of memories with that song. It came out when they still liked each other. "I still dream of a day when we'll be together, when you'll hold me in your arms after having a bad day, being by your side through good and bad..."

Alvin's eyes filled with tears as he heard those words. He had something to say, but telling her would only break her heart, so he remained silent.

"Maybe not like I dreamed, but something nice.. like how it used to be."

As Alvin turned to meet her eyes, she turned away.

"How could you do this to me?"


Once home Alvin tried to focus on their next album, anything to keep himself distracted.

He thought about it and decided he was too self conscious to release any songs he'd written, so he decided to just do covers for their next album.

As he read the lyrics he'd written he couldn't help but think about what had just happened and how he would do anything to take back that moment, what he'd done, so he decided to confront Simon about it. And just as he thought about what he was gonna say, Simon walked by.

"Simon, I-"

"Alvin," Simon interrupted. "let's not make a big deal about this. Lets just pretend it never happened."

Alvin smiled, "Really?" Simon nodded.

Alvin scurried happily to bed, knowing that tomorrow it would be as if nothing had happened, but the more he thought about it, the more he was puzzled by those words. Now that he had the opportunity to leave this in the past, he wasn't sure he wanted to.

That kiss made him feel something that he had never felt with Brittany. But he stepped back for a minute. and thought a non-selfish thought.

..If Simon doesn't like me back, what good is the love that I feel towards him? And if all I'm doing is stopping someone like him from shining in the spotlight, then what good am I?

Dave had a talk with them before they went to sleep. All he said was "Look," he sighed "I know you guys are growing up, and there's nothing wrong with that. I just want you guys to know that you have to keep your fans happy." Not wanting to make things anymore awkward, he simply said goodnight and left.

Alvin took it as "Don't do something that you'll regret doing later."

And Simon took it as "Their careers as musicians might be over soon" all because of that one act.

But both knew that what they'd done was something that was not going to be taken lightheartedly. It was controversial, way too controversial to even be talked about on tv. Although this kind of thing happened in nature all the time, it would be seen as reprehensible by fans and society in general.


Author's Note: If you want a look at what their kiss was like:
www.
youtube.com/watch?v=hVSO6nlN5kM#t=13s