Chapter 3: The Last Time

Note: Adam's POV // Italics - Present ; Normal - Past

I think I really need to move on now coz it's so one year ago. Yeah, right, as if it's that easy to do… It's never easy. It it's that easy, then I'm not here right now!

Oh, someone's knocking… No, I'm not expecting Kris but there's just another part of me that wants it to be him… But it's impossible… it's impossible for one year now…

"Adam"

My heart beat suddenly beats faster. If I'm not mistaken, I don't have any sight problem, nor hearing problem. But I'm quite sure that he's standing in front of me, now…

"Kris?"

Yeah, it's Kris, and then he suddenly kissed me very hardly, harder than ever. And the sensation just fills my mind, that I already forgot what happened a year ago. But does it matter? I want to see him again so badly. And this is it. This is that time I've been waiting for one year…

"Are you really Kris?" I suddenly asked in the middle of our kiss

"Yeah… do you think I'm not?"

The kiss is so hard that we fall down to the bed. "But… you're--" I wanted to say that, but he puts his index finger on my lips and kisses me again. This sensation is really too good to be true, though I'm not sure if this is really true. The only thing that makes everything just my imagination is the coldness I'm feeling with his lips and his touches…

"I love you" I suddenly blurted out, he stopped kissing me. And he smiles.

"I love you, too" Hearing him say that, again, is very memorable. It sounds heartwarming, very lovely, and alive… Before I could ever do something on him--say, undo his pants--someone knocks. Actually, not only knocks, someone already opened the door…

"Adam?"

As I open my eyes, there's no Kris on my sight. Instead, I saw Drake, standing on the doorway. Drake? What is he doing here? Where is Kris? Is what happened earlier isn't true at all? Is it just my imagination that Kris went here and kissed me and told me he loves me?

"I called Allison and found out you're still here. It's already one year, Adam. Why can't you just let it go?" Because Drake, it is easy to say, but hard to do, very hard to do.

Of course I didn't say that. It is still Drake, my ex. And it would sound harsh if I said so. Instead, I just sit up and cry my heart out in front of him; because I finally realized that what happened between me and Kris earlier isn't really exist. He then move closer to me and put me in a hug. I really feel heavy… Hearing your ex say to let it go… Yet he's right, I must…

Drake then released me and said, "Look, I will take you to your apartment now. It will only hurt you more if you stay here."

"Am I crazy? Crazy for still waiting for him though it's already impossible for him to come back?" I suddenly asked, with my voice trembling. Drake throws a sympathetic face to me. He then answers, "No, you're not. It's normal if you really love and miss the person…"

Though I want to smile with that, I just hug him back and sob. Since Kris left, it's the first time someone comforted me this way. But the heartache, still, will always remain in the bottom of my heart…

Drake then bring me outside of this mansion, "Don't worry Adam. You can, and you will, find someone like him someday. Though it's not easy. You will" and he smiles before entering the car…

Speaking of that car…


Now everyone already knows about me and Kris, both of us decided to go away from this city. It's still dawn, but we have no choice but to go this early to avoid hose paparazzi. "Let's go, Adam. Get into the car" Kris said before entering the car.

"But how about our family, our friends…"

"Kris suddenly went out of the car and hold my hands firmly. "Don't worry. We will keep in contact with them. But to now, we need to escape this place. We need some time and privacy. Or else this relationship will not work out."

I just smile at him and he hugs me. Then we went into the car.

The clear driveway seems to be very cool to Kris that he decided to go faster…

"Kris, slow down. What if some car hits us?"

"Don't worry, Adam. There's a very low possibility that some car will hit us. Besides, look at the road, it's so clear and--" Before he could ever finish what was he saying, yes, a car hit us ad the next thing I knew is this car is going around and round and…

Kris suddenly kisses me very passionately and said, "I love you very much" before pushing me out of that car…


"Adam, are you alright?" Drake asked me as he starts the engine of his car.

"Huh?" was all I can said. What's not alright with me, anyway?

"You're crying" Drake said, sounds very concerned, "Don't tell me you remember Kris after you enter this car?"

For the millionth time today, I cry again. "Y-yes Drake, I do, and it's painful, very painful; to reminisce the last time we see each other, the last time we kissed each other… the last time… he said he loved me to me…It is very painful. And that accident is still fresh in my mind… And it's already one year ago yet I still can't move on! I can't still face the truth, Drake! The truth that… The truth that Kris is already gone…"

It's not just my though, I really said that to Drake, who seems to understand me. He then hugs me again. Then suddenly, there are some flashing lights outside; yes, paparazzi. One reporter asked so loudly, that I heard what was he saying despite of the window glass between us, if this is a reconciliation between me and Drake. I just smiled at them and we went away.

"It's already hard to be with someone popular!" Drake blurted out jokingly then look at me; he has this questionable face and asked while looking back in front, "Are you alright?"

This time I'm quite sure I'm not crying, so I don't know what's not right with me this time, "Why you're asked?" I asked him.

"Coz you looked happy, which is really weird after those crying you do…" Though I found out it weird, too, that he thought my sudden happiness is weird, he got a point.

"Maybe because I'm quite sure we're not going to be hit by someone else's car" I said in a very drunk-like way.

"How can you assure that?" He asked, sounds like he's not believing me.

"Because we were caught by paparazzi and there are lots of cars now on the way" I said, in a very drunk-like way again. Drake doesn't seems to be amused. He looks so concerned, maybe because he though I finally lost the last bit of my sanity. But it's just so ironic. After all, as the stoplight turned red, we stopped at the place where I last saw Kris…