A/N Hi there! So I'm back from my vacation and I'm back with a new chapter. Again thank you to everyone for the nice reviews and story alerts! I don't have much to say... so here you go :) This chapter starts off with Quinn's letter to Rachel btw
Rachel Berry,
I've come to write your letter last, only because I know it's going to be the hardest. I have no idea how to even start this letter. It pains me a lot, knowing that I've left you behind. Not just you I suppose but the whole glee club. You probably hate me for this. For leaving you. I can imagine you standing in the back of the choir as everyone hears the news of my death. In my heart I hope that you would cry and grieve for weeks upon weeks about me. But in my heart I know that all in all you were probably just very confused. I don't blame you if you hate me, Rachel. I even expected it. But you have to promise me that you won't always hate me. I want you to remember all the good times we had together, even the bad ones maybe. All I want is for you to remember me. Please, just please don't forget me Rachel.
You're probably wondering why your letter was the hardest of all of them for me to write. But I can only give you one, simple, irrational reason. Love. Yes, love. It seems to be the only thing that would hold me together most days. I, Quinn Fabray, am in love with you, Rachel Barbra Berry. Wow. Seeing the words on paper just makes it seem so unreal. Leaving you behind in this miserable world without telling you in person may be one of the worst, hardest things I have ever done. I'm so sorry Rachel. Please forgive me for not telling you. I just didn't know how. I guess it's too late now though. As I finish this letter I'm awaiting death. The more I write the longer I wait for the moment I die. So I guess this is good bye. I love you. Please remember me.
Love, Quinn Fabray
Rachel's mouth suddenly felt dry. She almost forgot about Kurt on the other line until he started yelling in her ear.
"Rachel! What did your letter say? Rachel!" Kurt sounded far away. Rachel could barely comprehend what he was saying.
"Kurt I have to go. I'll call you back later…" She hung up the phone with Kurt and for a while Rachel just stood there trying to make sense of everything she had just read.
Quinn fucking Fabray had been in love with her. Rachel couldn't help but think that it was some sick joke and that only brought her more discomfort along with an uneasy feeling in her stomach. She thought back to all the times Quinn had betrayed her, insulted her, and even threw a few ice cold slushies in her face. Was it all just because she could never truly express her feelings? Rachel felt that she was a held a little responsible, which made her chest hurt with guilt. All the things Quinn had planned in life were gone, disappeared, vanished.
A new round of tears spilled over Rachel's eyes and slowly became desperate sobs. She wanted Quinn back; she wanted Quinn to be with her right now. To assure her that she wasn't gone and that she had never died. But that would never happen. She would never see Quinn again. All she had left was some lousy, confusing letter.
As the tears slowly stopped coming, Rachel began to wonder what would have happened if Quinn had ever professed her love to Rachel in person. She played the scene out in a few different ways in her mind until she realized something was missing. Rachel's awnser. In all the different scenarios Rachel couldn't seem to picture her own reaction. Would she have told Quinn she loved her back. No, that wouldn't happen. Rachel belonged with Finn. Her fiancé. But suddenly she felt like that was all wrong. It just had to be right though, she thought, there was no way she could be in love with Quinn Fabray.
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