Killua realises not long after he checks into his room that maybe he got here a little earlier than he needed to. He's already spent the last two hours watching shitty day time TV and he figures he's got at least another 5 hours before Gon gets back, and it hits him, he's going to see Gon today, there's no turning back, suddenly his palms are sweaty and he's trying to think of an excuse he can tell himself to get out of this.

The sound his stomach was making reminds him that he forgot to eat breakfast, Killua makes his way back down to the lobby and over to the hotels restaurant, he finds himself a seat and orders a stack of chocolate covered pancakes with a dollop of double chocolate chip ice cream on the top, he wolfs it down quicker than he ordered it because Killua always had very little self control when it came to chocolate, in his satisfied state he leans back on his chair and stares at the restaurants ceiling, taking in the painted mural for a moments and lets his mind drift,would Gon even recognise me? Would I even recognise Gon? I wonder if he's as tall as me,Killua see's how much he's changed in the last 5 years but it only now occurs to him that chances are Gon's probably changed a lot too, he spends a minute or two trying to invision what Gon would look like now after all these yearsbefore he pulls himself to his feet and decides he should retire back to his room, he pauses when he sees a woman running through the lobby towards the exit, Killua noticed her wallet slip out of her back pocket in her haste and he rushed to pick it up before chasing her all the way to the exit and calling out to her

"Excuse me Miss! Wait up! You dropped this!"

"WHATDID YOU JUST CALL ME?!"

Woops, Killua realises his mistake as soon as the man in question flips around to face him (his hair almost whipping Killua across the face in the process) and shoots him a vicious glare. The man snatches the wallet out of Killua's hand, still holding his stare, he's clearly insulted

"Sorry" Killua started "it's just your erm, your hair, I thought you were.."

"You thought I was a woman?!" the man bit back

"Well you can't blame me Jeez! Why are you getting so worked up? If anything it's a compliment"

"Acompliment? Please enlighten me as to how on Earth that was a compliment"

"Well you know!" Killua stammered "it's just that you're, you know...pretty"

The man in question was clearly taken aback by that last part, murderous gleam fading into a smug grin. He had long blonde hair that reached a little lower than his shoulder blades, his body was slender and his features were delicate and soft, his eyes were dark and piercing, his lips were plump and dusted pink. He was clearly beautiful, a model example of the perfect Omega, (if Killua couldn't tell by the way this guy looked then the overbearing scent was enough to confirm it)

"Listen" The man began "I'm very flattered but I'm not interested"

"WHAT?! I wasn't hitting on you!"

"Yeah right, you're practically drooling" the man giggled

Had it not been for the amount of people in the lobby Killua would have punched the smug look right off this guys face, sure he called him pretty but he didn't mean anything by it, this guy was nowhere near Killua's type, way to small and feminine for his taste, Killua had a very specific type and this guy definitely didn't fit the bill

"Listenprincess" Killua spat through gritted teeth "I was only trying to be nice, not to burst your bubble but you're the exact opposite of the kind of person i'd want to hit on"

The man sniggered and rolled his eyes "Oh please" he responded in a mocking tone before flicking his hair back, spinning around and strutting his way out through the exit

Killua wanted to chase him out the door and bitch slap him across the sidewalk but he opted to stomp back up to his room instead, he had more pressing matters on his mind, he reminds himself why he's here in the first place and a new wave of panic washes over him.

In his agitated state Killua decides he needs to do something to calm his nerves, he considers finding the nearest bar and drinking his anxiety away but the omega in him decides it'll be much nicer to draw a hot bath, light some scented candles and soak all his worries away.

Once he's done pampering himself Killua slips into a clean outfit, sinks into the bed and starts flicking through the channels until he finds something decent enough to pass the time. His mind drifts back to the day he and Gon met, the first time he looked into those big bright golden eyes, the first time Gons smile pierced through his icy walls, he remembers the first time he saw Gon sleeping, how the sun beaming through the cracks in the blinds bounced off his face and illuminated every freckle and Killua would wonder if he could count them all before Gon woke up, he remembers how he'd sometimes feel Gons arm snake around his waist while they were sleeping, how Gons hand would always come to rest on top of his while they were watching TV and how...

A door slamming snapped him out of his Daze.Gons back, holy shit. The reality that all that's separating Killua and his estranged best friend is a single wall quickly sinks in and Killua's sweating bullets. He closes his eyes, and breathes slowly, he needs to stay calm, he can't let his emotions take over, he jumps to his feet because he knows if he doesn't get the hell up and do this now then he never will, he can just stay holed up in this room until Gon leaves and he'll never have to think about him again, but that's not true, because even if he doesn't see him today Gon will always be on his mind, he's thought about Gon everyday since they last saw each other and that wasn't going to change any time soon. Killua gathers himself, opens the door and steps out of his room, he stands outside Gons door and knocks three times

"It's open!"

Jesus Christ, was that Gon? When did his voice get so deep

Killua takes another inhale and raps on the door more violently this time

"Dude! I said it's open just come in!"

Should I just go in? He obviously doesn't know it's me, wouldn't it be kinda weird? To just waltz on in to and confront him in his hotel room after all these years

Before Killua notices his hands are already moving on their own and he's turning the handle, he keeps his eyes trained firmly on his feet as he slips into the room, he gently kicks the door closed behind him with the back of his heel. When he looks up he's greeted by the sight of Gons bare back as he's leaning over the bed stuffing his clothes into the duffle bag that's sitting on top of the covers. And thank god Gon has his back to him cus' Killua's jaw is practically on the floor and his eyes are blown so wide they're millimetres away from bursting through their sockets

Say something Killua, say something! Anything! For gods sake focus!

He mentally scolded himself for staring but he can't snap out of it becausewhen the hell did Gon get so big?Killua damn near drooled because the way Gons back muscles were flexing while he shuffled around was way too distracting

"Gon?"

Gon spun around so quickly Killua took a step back feeling mildly threatened by the sudden movement but before Gon could protest to someone he wasn't expecting being in his room he found himself frozen, rendered motionless, he wanted to say something but his mouth and brain seemed to have fallen out of sync because all he could seem to muster was a surprised gasp and then nothing...just silence

Am I dreaming?, this can't be real, there's no way he's here, in my room, no way, I'm imagining things...is that really him?

Gon, in his state of shock could do nothing except take in everything that was Killua, he wanted to move, he wanted to leap forward, wrap his arms around him and pull him close, he wanted to tell him how much he's missed him and how sorry he is for being soweakbut all he could do was stare in awe, he noted how tall Killua had gotten, not quite as tall as him but still, Killua was long and lean, he'd grown his hair, not too long, it sat just above his shoulders, still as white and wild as it used to be, he watched as Killua shuffled nervously and brushed a strand of it behind his ears, he locked eyes with him, both parties too entranced to look away, Killua's eyes were as azure and piercing as ever and Gon felt like he'd been hypnotized, he grimaced at how after all these years he wasstillspellbound by those eyes and he swallowed audibly becauseKillua was gorgeousand Gon was buckling under the pressure

Killua was just as tongue tied, he shoved his hands into his pockets because he didn't want Gon to notice that they were shaking but Gons eyes wereeverywhereand this was doing nothing to calm Killua's nerves. All he could think was,are you kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me?! How is this fair? is the universe out to punish me?

He didn't know what he was expecting when he finally saw Gon again but he definitely wasn't expecting to find him shirtless sporting a body fit for the gods, Gon had grown...a lot, he was muscular and chiselled, like his body had been sculpted from marble, his eyes still glowed and his skin still glistened, the fact that he was coated in a light sheen of sweat wasn't helping Killua's predicament. When they locked eyes Killua could have sworn the world around him lit up, Gon has always had that effect, he was still the human embodiment of the Sun.

"Killua?"

Killua was snapped out of his trance like state when Gon finally broke the awkward silence

"It's been a while Gon"

"You look nice"

"I look nice?"

"Uhm, yeah, I mean you-"

"I looknice?!" Killua yelled this time

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend y-"

"Are you trying to piss me off?!" Killua cut him off again "After all these years, after what you did, and all you can come up with is 'you look nice'" Killua couldn't supress the anger that was bubbling up, he wasn't expecting himself to react this way when he confronted Gon but something inside of him was onfireand he couldn't bite back the malice he was feeling in this moment, everything he had felt that day when Gon stood him up was resurfacing and all the words he didn't want to say were coming out on their own accord "You're an asshole! You fucking suck! I wasn't expecting you to fall to your knees and beg for my forgiveness but for fuck sake Gon at least try to look the least bit sorry, you really don't care do you?!"

"Killua, i'm s-"

"NO!" he screamed "NO, shut up! I don't want to hear it now, you just keep your god damn mouth shut" Killua breathed deeply and clenched his fists so tight his nails drew blood from his palms "Do you have any idea what you did to me?! What I went through because of you?! You fucking destroyed me Gon, you have no idea how that felt! You were my best friend! We went through so much together, we survived a fuckingwartogether!" Killua couldn't stop himself now, he hadn't planned on letting it all out like this, but he just couldn't stop the way the words were jumping from his tongue and darting straight for Gon, his internal screaming had started projecting outward, his voice kept getting louder and louder, his ears started ringing, his nen was flaring and the ceiling lights were flickering violently "How could you? I trusted you! You bastard! I might be a piece ofshitbut I didn't deserve to be thrown away like that! Didn't I even deserve an explanation? Am I not even worthy of that? Did I really mean so little to you that you thought it would be okay to drop me out of your life like that, like I was the shit on your shoe?! How was it so easy for you to just delete my existence from your mind! You meanteverythingto me and you tricked me into thinking you gave a damn about me too!"

Killua tried and failed to fight back the tears stinging his eyes and waited for Gon to say something, but he didn't. Killua dropped his head in defeat, he wanted to scream at him again but when he opened his mouth the words came out low and chocked "Well, aren't you going to say something? Aren't you going to defend yourself or try and calm me down? Do you even care?"

"Idocare"

When Gon finally spoke his voice was bearly a whisper "you have every right to be mad at me and I deserve it" Gon stepped closer forcing Killua to avert his gaze from the floor back up to Gon "I'm sorry Killua, I'msosorry, I haven't earned your forgiveness yet so if you want to yell at me some more then go ahead...I don't deserve to ask you for anything, but Killua...please,pleaselet me at least try to make this right"