Okay this is the First time I have ever done Edward's Pov so try not to make to many Harsh comments about my lack of skills in Edward's ?
Well I should probably do the disclamiers thingy so here I go!
I Own Twilight!:)
. I wish but my wished don't come true. . :( Anyways...
But I do own the band members( Except Bella of course) and the manager. Okay . Cool.
Wow right now I fell like a giddy schoolgirl. Weird. I am giddy and im a schoolgirl , sorta.?
Well to the the story!
E Pov:
Here I was sitting on my leather couch curled up in a ball trying to Rid my thoughts of Bella that have still been lingering in my thoughts since the day I left her.
The day I made the worst mistake in my life.
She's Probably all grown up now at the age of 97 given the chance if she's not--
No. I don't even want to think about that. It will upset me more then I already am.
Ha! I'm thinking about myself like the selfich Monster I am. I can still reamber the
day I took bella into the forest and told her I didn't love her anymore. I told her the Lie that
has been Nawing at my Cold Dead Heart every moment since I left her. it's been agonizing. I
can still see the pain in Bella's Big Brown Doe like eyes when I told her that. She belived me. Out
of all the times I told her I loved her , she believed me.
I shoulden't even be sitting here; I should be dead along with the res of my Family only I'm suck Immortal
to go thourghout my exsitence in Pain , aganoy , self-loathing untill someone is noce enough to come along and put me out of my misery but n-'Edward if you don't get your self-Loathing ass down here I will come up there and burn you apart myself. Understand?' Alice said ending sweetly at the end.
I walked out of my room at a slow pace even compared to humans down the stairs. It's been months since i've been out of my room for any other reason except to hunt. I met the final end of the stairs and brought my head up to see the sad expressions of my family except for Alice. She was bouncing with joy & Excitment which I haven't seen her do since the day we left Bel-- No! I mustun't think of her , it's hurts to much to thik of her her blush that filled her cheeks instatnly or her soft caring smile that could light the whole room or -- I was inturrpued from my thoughts when Alice asked me to join her to watch T.v. I saw no use in arguing so I obliged. I sat next to her while she turned the channel to a Concert that was comming off Live-Feed in San Antonio , Texas.
That's when I heard the most Beautiful voice iv'e ever heard it was magnificent and it sounded just like--No! She suppose to be dead. She was supposed to have a happy life. She was suppose to marry a human-I cringed at the thought of her marrying anthor man- , have kids , grow old , see her grandchildren. She wasn't suppose to be on stage in San Antonio holding a guitar , looking exactly like she did when I left except even more magnifesent and with golden eyes of all of the things! When I left I was suppose to save her from being damned but no she manages to find a way to give her soul away with me no where near her.
I can't believe all my wasted effor-I was cut off yet again by Alice.'Edward pay ?'She asked me with a very good Puppy dog look. I aggredd reluctently as I heard her sing.
"How's it going San Antonio?" Bella yelled into the microphone. I heard shouting and screams of yeas & Goods.
"I didn't hear you!" Bella yelled again. The people screamed louder. She grinned at them
" Okay im going to start off with All around me and then im going to end off with a new song , Kay?"
Everyone nodded.
The music started
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm still alive, I'm still alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you, you
I'm still alive
I'm still alive
We're still alive
And I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
So I cry
Holy
The light is white
Holy
And I see you
Only You
And I'm alive
I'm still alive
We're still alive
And I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
As the song ended , She quickly begain anthor
Sometimes life seems to quiet into paralyzing silence
Like the moonless dark, meant to make me strong.
Familiar breath of my old lies
Changed the color in my eyes
Soon he will perferate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you, and hold for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole... as you flew right through me.
Left alone with only reflections of the memory
To face the ugly girl that's smothering me.
Sitting closer than my pain...
He knew each tear before it came,
And soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
We kiss each other one more time
And sing this lie that's half way mine
The sword is slicing through the questions so I won't be fooled
By his angel light..
Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you and for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole as you flew right though me
and up into the stars
Joy will come
She quickly went into her next song
I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break
I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick
If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears
I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick
Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now
Hear it, I'm screaming it
You tremble at this sound
You sink into my clothes
This invasion makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick
I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so, I'm so sick
I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so (I'm so)
I'm so sick (I'm so sick)
I'm so (I'm so)
I'm so sick (I'm so sick)
The fog went up and went it came down Bella was sitting on a stool with a guitar in her hands and the microphone by her mouth but still close to her guitar and so she started :
The walls between
You and I
Always pushing us apart nothing left but scars fight after fight
The space between
Our calm and rage
started growing shorter , disappearing slowly day after day
I was sitting there waiting in my room for you
You were waiting for me too
And it makes me wonder
The older I get
Will I get over it
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I didn't know then it would hurt like this but I think
The older I get
Maybe I'll get over it
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I can't believe it still hurts like this
The time between
Those cutting words
Built up our defenses never made no sense it just made me hurt
Do you believe
That time heals all wounds
It started getting better but it's easy not to fight when I'm not with you
What was I waiting for
I should've taken less and given you more
I should've weathered the storm
I need to say so bad
What were you waiting for
This could have been the best we ever had
Altro:
I'm just getting older
I'm not getting over you I'm trying to
I wish it didn't hurt like this
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I can't believe it still hurts like this
She stopped and got up and exited the stage with a grin on her face.
All those songs were...so full of emotion so full of..pain.
Then the last song it was about me I could just tell.. I hurt her.. well I knew I hurt her just not this Bad.
W-O-Freaking-Wow:)
Seven Pages I am so proud of myself:)
Well Review! I at least want to get up to 10 or 11 untill I post my next chapter is that really to much to ask.? I hope not:)
Well Im off to eat browines and Shun the non-Believers:)
Love.
The Peace maker(-- Weird.I know)
a.k.a S.N.E
