i'm so so so sorry for not updating in forever but i've been extremely busy. anyway this is just a explanatory chapter and everything. hope you like it.

I OWN NOTHING


Bella POV

I awoke to Jasper caressing my face and whisper I love you's in my ear. I smiled and rolled over and curled into his side. We stayed like this for a couple minutes before either of us decided to move.

"Bella my love how did you get like you were when we found you" he questioned lightly. I froze and tensed. I really didn't want to tell him this he would hate me and throw me out. I defiantly could not handle Jasper leaving me. He noticed my tensed postured and sighed and sat up. I couldn't even look at him he was really ganna leave me. I was starting to freak out but my training kicked in and I became an emotionless stone. I sat up as well and faced him. I saw him flinch at my expressionless face and it killed me to see him do that but I never showed it.

"Bella I'm not ganna judge you no matter what you did or still do because believe me my past with Maria is not something I'm proud of" he said matter of factly. I was not expecting him to say that and my mask faltered and he didn't miss that. He crawled over to me and hugged me almost as hard as he could willing me to feel the love he felt for me. He layed his head in my lap and my fingers automatically found his hair and started to comb through his thick golden locks. We sat like that for a while until I finally decided to say something.

"I was on my own for almost two years until one day I was hunting in Africa and I carelessly angered a water buffalo. Before I could move out of the way the buffalo stabbed me through my stomach and almost trampled me to death. I was still a young shifter and I hadn't quite mastered the art of dodging angry animals. I crawled back to the cave I was staying at at the time and I passed out from blood loss. I woke up similar to the way I woke up to you guys. Everyone was around me whispering and saying something in a language I didn't understand. I found out later it was the assassin language so if we were ever caught we could talk and the captors wouldn't know what we were saying." I grimaced at the memory of that recovery before continuing.

"Anyway I woke up in my human form in leather and deer hide clothes. Once I was fully aware they explained to me who they were and they offered me to join them. I had no one for two years and I gladly accepted. They trained me and turned me into an assassin. I remember my first mission was to take out some rich guy that disrespected the African Tribe. He apparently thought that stealing some of their most prized possessions was ok." I stopped and looked at Jasper because the look he was given me was the most funny expression i've ever seen in his face.

"What is it my love" I questioned.

"Nothin darlin, I was just wonderin what their most prized possessions were" he said. I looked at him with that your kiddin me look. He just laughed and shrugged.

"Their women and children" I said obviously. He laughed again and nodded.

"Yeah if someone ever took you away from me I would kill them to. But how did the men not keep him from getting them in the first place" he said.

"The man I was huntin down drugged the men's food with some kind of special drug that only worked and certain people and apparently he decided to target the men. So when the men woke up extremely pissed I might add they came and found us and said they wanted their women and children back. So the shifter's thought this would be a good first mission for me and my partner. We set off to find him and it didn't take long to find him and some of the women and children but he sold the others into the slave trade. So my partner killed him and took the women and children back to the men. I stayed behind to try and locate the others. My partner said he would be back as soon as he returned the women and children and I was not to do anything stupid." I was completely lost in the memories of my partner and I's missions. Jasper started shaking me before I finally came back.

"Baby are you ok" he asked worriedly. I sighed and nodded.

"That's a whole other story Jasper" I said sadly. He kept the worried look on his face but just nodded and put his head back in my lap.

"After my partner left I kept digging and waiting and watching until one day I caught a lead and had to leave a note for my partner at the cottage we were staying at and then I followed the slave wagon out south of town. I jumped from tree to tree and always stayed hidden waiting for then to stop for the night. When they finally stopped I saw how bad of a condition the women were in and knew I had to act fast. So I waited until the men fell asleep and when they did I got the women and children out and got them to a safe place and told then not to leave and stay hidden till I can get back to them. I woke the sorry basturds up by lighting their campsite on fire and then once they were all up I decided to be dramatic and walk through most of the flames and take them to their death." I laughed and shook my.

"I was a bit dramatic back then anyway" Jasper laughed at me and continued to listen.

"I killed them all fairly quickly and went back for the women and children. They all stayed exactly where I told them to and we packed up and left to go back to Africa. I returned the women and children back and the African Tribe stills considers me a hero" I finished up quickly before telling him I was going to go eat lunch. We walked down the stairs hand in hand quit content to stay like that forever but needed to go hunt.

"So Jasper do you want to see your mate hunt" I teased and watched as his eyes considerably darkened. I laughed and grabbed his hand and raced out the back door and jumped the river and took off to find a suitable meal for the both of us. I shifted into a black panther to stay hidden easier than most other big felines would. Jasper gave me the go ahead to go first saying he wasn't that hungry but I knew he only wanted to watch me. By the time I was finished with my deer and looked up at Jasper his eyes where black with lust and hunger. I shifted back to my half way form so I could talk.

"Jasper go hunt" was all I said before he disappeared and was back with shining golden eyes within minutes of me saying that. He sauntered up to me obviously trying to seduce me and kissed me full on the lips. I gave in almost immediately and jumped up and wrapped my legs around him. He was going to take my shirt off when the leaves rustled and we both broke apart and crouched ready for the fight. Jasper stepped in front of me and crouched down even lower and started to growl. I stepped out from behind him and shifted into a lioness so I would be able to have more power behind me. We waited for about three seconds before two vampires I had never seen stepped out from behind the trees with their hands raised in a submissive gesture.

"Jasper it's just Alice and I. It's ok we mean you and your mate no harm" The unidentified male announced. Jasper seemed to know who they were and that they really did mean us no harm because he rose out of his crouching state and walked up to them both.

"Right sorry Edward I'm still a little protective around her" he said laughingly.

"No problem I know exactly what you mean" the man apparently known as Edward said while looking back at his mate.

"Well Jasper would you mind introducing us or not" the female asked. Jasper looked back at me but I remained in my lioness form still thinking they were going to attack.

"Bella my love their not here to hurt us you can change back" Jasper spoke quietly to me. I contemplated the idea for a minute longer scrutinizing the onlookers critically before decided to shift to my half way form in case I needed to change quickly but still I could kill them both in my half way form if the need arose.

"Bella this is my brother Edward and my sister Alice. Edward, Alice this is my amazing mate Bella" Jasper said pointing at us accordingly. I just nodded my head at them and waited.

"Bella it is so nice to meet you. Finally Jasper's not the odd man out anymore" Alice said dancing up to me and hugging me. I saw Jasper out of the corner of my eyes laugh and roll his eyes at his sister.

"Well thanks Alice. I love you to" Jasper teased while ruffling her spiked hair. She jumped out of his grasp and punched him in the arm playfully. I watched the exchange carefully if she hurt Jasper she was ganna regret ever meeting me. But Jasper just shrugged it off and walked back over to me. Vampires are so much different from shape shifters it ridiculous. If one of us ever hit another ones mate they would have been in line for the death penalty by the offended shifter's mate.

"Excuse my mate's silliness Bella. It's very nice to meet you" Edward walked up and shook my hand. I forced a smile and nodded not wanting to upset Jasper. I was still in my half way form all the way back to the house. I was still hesitant to be in my human form with so many vampires around even though I knew they weren't here to fight. My training however did not permit me to be so relaxed and calm as everyone else seemed to be. My tail swished back and forth nervously waiting for some little disagreement and then the shit would hit the fan. I sat on the edge of the end couch closest to the door already planning my escape. Jasper seemed so happy and relaxed that his whole family was here he didn't notice how uncomfortable was.

"Jasper I need to hunt" I said before I bolted for the door and was over the river all within seconds of leaving the couch. I was already in my panther form and running for Canada with all my speed to take out my frustration on some angry male moose. I was on my fifth moose when I heard Jasper approaching fast. I finished of the moose before turning and waiting for him to come find me. He broke through the trees with a very scary look on his face I would have been scared if I wasn't already so strung out with my tense emotions. He looked around the clearing until he spotted me and was standing I front of me in a second.

"Bella where the hell have you been it started raining in Washington and I lost your scent until I hit Canada. You scared me half to death don't ever do that again. What the hell where you thinking" Jasper spat out clearly pissed off.

"Well if you have paid any attention to your MATE then you would have noticed how uncomfortable I was. I figured that you love your family and you wouldn't have wanted me to massacre them all" I yelled in his face before turning on my heel and started to walk off before I did something I would regret. Jasper grabbed my elbow and twirled me around grabbing my by the shoulders so I couldn't move.

"I was paying attention to you. I heard you say you needed to hunt so I let you go I figured you needed to do whatever shifter's do. But after seven hours and still no sign of you I decided I would see what you were doing and when I lost your scent I thought you left me and I freaked out. I'm sorry Bella" he said about to crumple at the thought of me leavin him.

"Jasper I'm sorry I snapped at you but I was really stressed out with that many vampires in such a small room. My training kept me from relaxing and every time one of you would laugh to loud I just about came undone. I can't sit happily with that many vampires and not be on edge Jasper I just physically can't" I explained softly. His hands slipped from my shoulder and wrapped me in a hug saying that he understood.

"Do you want to go back the whole family is worried about you and it's almost dawn so school is ganna be startin pretty soon" Jasper said releasing his hold on me only to grab my hand and intertwine our fingers. I just sighed and nodded.

"Jasper you do realize that I still have a career that I can't just leave without another word" He stiffened when I said this so apparently he hadn't thought about it.

"Bella you can't be serious you can't go back to them now that you have us. I don't want you to be away from me Bella and I sure as hell don't want you to get hurt again" he said stopping with a tug on my hand.

"Jasper I know this is hard for you but this is my life I can't just up and leave it. It's not something you do for a day and then decide ok I'm done with this lets move on to something else now. This is a lifetime commitment and I intend to hold up my end of the deal" I said trying to make him understand.

"How about you come to school with us and live with us and whenever the shifters need you you can go and do what you need to do. How does that sound" he replied confidently.

"That sounds really great actually but I want your word that whenever I leave on a mission you will let me leave and not try to keep tabs or follow me" I countered back. He pursed his lips but finally sighed in defeat and nodded.

"I'm serious Jasper I can't have you trying to check up on me. The people I track are the worst kind of people and I don't want you getting mixed up in it and getting us both killed ok" I finished with a steady look at Jasper. He only nodded again and we went back to walking. When we were almost to Seattle my phone buzzed. I took it out and looked at it before answering.

"Swan here. What's the orders Base" I waited for the orders to be said told them I'd look into it and hung up.

"Jeez Bella you sounded so scary professional it made me sweat just watching you. I'd sure hate to be on the other end of your wrath" Jasper teased while poking me in the ribs. I laughed and took his hand again.

We made it back to the house just as the sun finished rising and were about to the river when we heard something break in the house and somebody yelling. Jasper and I jumped the river at the same time and entered the house and came into the living room to see Emmett sitting on the couch with a pouty face with the TV crushed and on the other side of the room and then Edward with a very smug look on his face almost busting out laughing.

"What the hell happened" Jasper asked quickly. He looked at Emmett first and when he continued to sit in silence he turned to look at Edward.

"I beat Emmett at COD and he decided to break the TV while continuing to blame the TV for his failure" Edward said before busting out completing and fell on the floor laughing so hard. Jasper started to snicker quietly before looking at me to see my reaction. I was amused to say the least I never thought someone could get so into a video game and then break a perfectly innocent TV for one's own failure.

"So because Emmett lost a video game he broke the TV" I questioned lightly. I saw Emmett huff before getting up and storming up to his room most likely to find Rosalie to comfort his hurt pride. Jasper laughed again and nodded his head. Edward followed him up laughing all the way.

When Jasper and I sat down the family came down stairs dressed and ready for school including Alice and Edward.

"I won't be coming today" Jasper said while stroking my fur softly. I was still not ganna change back even though it wasn't as hard as it was before.

"That's what we figured so we already came up with a plan. Jasper's girlfriend came into town yesterday from Texas so since it's almost the end of the school year and since Jasper's a senior they excused you" Alice said happily before grabbing Edward's hand and walking out the door. Carlisle had already left for work so it was only Esme, Jasper, and I left at the house.

"So how does Alice and Edward go to school if they don't even live here" I asked in a whisper so relaxed since there were only two vampires in the house one being my mate and the other being his mother so I was absolutely content.

"They do live here they were just on an extended honeymoon when we found you. They had just got their vows renewed so they thought it would be a good idea to get away from school and us and have time by their selves. They told the school that her aunt died and she didn't want to go to the funeral alone so she took Edward with her" He finished laughing at what he just said. I cocked my eyebrow at him so he explained further.

"I laugh every time we come up with some random excuse to ditch school. The humans are just so damn gullible that they actually believe us" he laughed again.

"Well you are very good at convincing people do think that it is actually real. Jasper do you have a computer" I said changing the subject. He got up and disappeared up the stairs and then came back down with a laptop in his hands. Once he handed it to me I opened it up and went to my email to retrieve the new information on the man I was huntin.

I looked at the new information and just about jumped for joy at the sight. It had a picture of him layin in a hospital bed in his mansions infirmary with bandages wrapped around his midsection and looking like he was about to die. Now all I had to do was sneak in and pump him full of all kinds of different drugs and then my mission would be complete and then put in for secondary missions that would allow me to spend a lot of my time with Jasper and the rest of the family. I would have to finish it tonight because he would most likely not be in the infirmary tomorrow. Shifters are so fast healing that you can be on the verge of death one day and then the next your perfectly fine.

"Jasper babe I'm ganna have to go on a mission tonight but I'll be back by tomorrow morning or late afternoon ok" I said while logging out of my account shutting the computer and turning to look at him. He nodded but the look in his eyes told me he didn't like it on bit.

"Jasper I know you don't like it but I'll only be gone tonight then I won't have a mission for a while so that will give us time together" I said.

"Ok but I still don't like it" Esme walked in just as he finished saying she would go to the grocery store and buy some food for me. I nodded not having the heart to tell her that I probably wouldn't even eat any of it because I preferred fresh meat if you understand what I mean. I heard the front door close her car start up then the sound of the engine faded as she got further away.

"Jasper you can't tell anyone where I'm goin at night. It's absolutely crucial that they all stay in the dark about my mission's its bad enough they saw the wounds I had. If someone comes looking for me and they have any knowledge of me those people will not hesitate to torture ya'll to get the information they need. I hate the fact that even you know what I am and what I do. Jasper if anything happened to you because of me I would never forgive myself" I said holding back the tears at the thought of me losing Jasper again.

"Bella nothing is goin to happen to me. I'm just glad you trust me enough to tell me that you are an assassin" Jasper said happily. It's always like him to think of me and not himself. I smiled and hugged him. We layed around the house the rest of the day just talking and enjoying each other until everyone got home. I was preparing for my date with death but nobody but Jasper knew about it.

Once everyone was home I mainly stayed in our room and finished reading up on my client. I was dressed in my black stealth outfit when I walked down the stairs and into the living room to tell Jasper goodbye. I hugged and kissed him before telling the whole family that I was goin to take care of some shifter business and that I would be back sometime the next day. They nodded and said their goodbyes to me before Jasper and I walked to the back door.

"You come back to me you here missy" Jasper said using a old nickname when we were kids.

"I will my love I will" I said before kissing him one more time before disappearing into the night to finish a long overdue killing.


so that's it i hope ya'll enjoyed it. plz review so i know if u like it or not! i'll update as soon as i can! thanks for readin. :D