Sorry for the wait but my school is getting really hard especially with finals coming up. I decided that I wanted to have songs for my chapters but my music is limited so I'm only going to put a song for those chapters that a song is fit.
Today's song is: Cancer by My Chemical Romance.
Bpov
"Am I?" Please say yes.
"I'm sorry Mrs. Cullen I'm afraid you are not" I couldn't stand it, I started crying like there was no tomorrow. I didn't even remember getting in the car and now we were in the house. And I only noticed because I heard the door shut. When I looked up I saw Edward's face it was so sad. It only made me cry harder. What did we do wrong? We would have cared and protected her or him. Much better than some people we would have never hit him or her. We wanted this baby but we didn't have one.
"Bella"
"What" it came out harsher than I wanted it to be I was just so mad.
"The doctor said we need to go there tomorrow so he can talk to us."
"Why hasn't he crushed enough of my dreams yet?'
"Dam it Bella I wanted this baby to. Now you are going to sit down and eat with me, and come with me to the doctors tomorrow."
(Next day)
I was in the doctor's office again but this time I didn't want them to call my name. When we came in the doctor has his poker face on.
"Sara I know this is hard for you but there has to be a reason you are late. Have you had a headache?"
"Yes but I thought it was just stress"
"I'm sorry to say this but maybe you can have cancer." (I have no idea if these are side effects of cancer but this is fan fiction.) The doctor took a pause to let it sink in and then said "We have to do some studies."
(In the house)
What am I going to do? I went from happy because I thought I was going to have a baby to maybe having cancer. And I thought it was devastating to find out I wasn't pregnant right now I'm not sure what to do or what to expect. I didn't even cry about it I just went up to my bedroom and gat in my bed. I can't sleep I don't even know where Edward is. It was almost midnight when I heard footsteps and then the door opened.
"Bella we need to talk about it"
"What are we going to talk about the fact that I'm not pregnant? Or are we going to talk about the fact that I might have cancer? "
"Bella first of all I always thought about adoption. Don't get me wrong I want someone form my own flesh and blood but there so many children with out parents living in dirt I always thought we could have both. Maybe the oldest one can be the adopted I don't have a problem with that. And also think about your carrier how are you going to have a baby with out the paparazzi knowing and then being like parasites in every minute of his live. I don't want that for him or her and I don't think you want that either. Cancer is like what the one dollar bill says" In that moment he took out he's wallet from his jeans and gave me a dollar "Reed it."
"Every body is innocent until proven guilty" "How those this apply for me?"
"Well the meaning basically says that you are not one thing until people prove the other. In this case you don't have cancer until that test says you do."
(The day of the test)
I haven't eaten anything today its 9:00 in the morning and I'm already in the hospital. Today is my test to see if I have cancer. I really hope that I don't have cancer; I still had that talk in my mind the one Edward had with my almost a moth ago. Today is November 29, 2009(I'm not sure if I have already put a date but this is the real one)
But I still remember that talk like it was yesterday after the talk I really though he was wrong and I was mad at him. How can you say you don't think that a child from your flesh and blood is not better than an adopted one! Then I understood that I was being a hypocrite. Because every time I see those commercials that talk about a kid that has no parents I think that I have to much and that those kids deserve someone to love them as there own. That in reality was all Edward wanted to say that and if that I really want a good future for at least one of those kids that I should adopted one and make sure myself that the have one happy childhood . And the cancer part really why get sick with worry if I don't even know for sure. So today can be hell or heaven for me it can determine if I have to quit my job and have painful treatment or if it was just a misunderstanding.
It has been one week already and I still don't know my results they are supposed to call us today but it's already 5:00pm.
(Ring)
I picked up the phone
"Hello"
"Mrs. Cullen I'm glad to informed you that you do not have cancer"
"Thanks for the great news" after I hang up I called Edward
"I don't have cancer"
"That's great I will love to take you out and celebrate but I have to finish grading so I can finish my reports of these trimester."
"It's okay I understand tomorrow we can do something better because you start vacation right?"
"Yes I do"
"At least I start work in April 17, remember that last year I had to work 10 months so I get extra vacation time now."
"Good because those were some lonely 10 month"
"It better have been some lonely 10 month" I was only kidding of curse I mean I know that Edward would never cheat on me. And he knew that I knew that.
"Of curse they were dear I'm offended"
E pov
When Bella called I was so happy that she was okay she is my life and I would die if some thing bad happened to her. I couldn't talk much with her cause I had to grade papers and stuff like that. In the middle of grading I remembered a name I haven't heard in a while Doris Dewyer she was my best student and the in March she disappeared. There were a lot of rumors but my dad was a doctor and I recognize the signs she was having. She was pregnant. Like 2 months when she left. She looked a lot like Bella when she was a teenager she had a similar eye color but it wasn't exactly like Bella's and the same hair the biggest difference was that she was like 5'1 and Bella is 5'9 and that she was a little paler than Bella. I never saw her boyfriend but I knew that she liked this boy the biggest player of the school whose name I never cared to remember. I thank the heavens he never had to take my class. But at first people kept asking me if he was my little brother apparently we look alike. He has this weird color of hair like mine and the same emerald green eyes.
Review and tell me what you think. But most important why do you think I told you about Doris? If you are close to the true reason I will tell you. Sorry for the inconvenient I really posted this chapter with out internet so I had to borrow my cousin's internet and finish the chapter quickly so I didn't pay that much attention to grammar. I know it's sad because this chapter was supposed to be done a long time ago but school kept me busy. So know that I get the chance to proofread I find may mistakes that need fixing I fixed the mistakes I found but I'm sure there a lot more if you will like to tell me the mistakes you find fell free to help me and I will change it. Also the last chapter has change information you guy should read.
