Hi guys! So my power is out, and I'm supposed to be saving my laptop battery for something important(in my mother's eyes, this is not important :P) so there won't be an annoyingly long authors note today. I know that breaks your heart. (sarcasm) Hahaha oh well.

Warnings: Increased violence, increased swearing, false accuasations (did I spell that right?), this story ends with a bang, and alchohol (I spelled that wrong.) usage. Maybe... Oh and sadness too.

Songs used: Tonight I wanna cry

This chapter is dedicated to: briorca18, BTRlover98, BTRlover22, Crazygurl5and11

Disclaimer: I own my plot and that's about it.

Enjoy!


Chapter 3: Tonight I Wanna Cry

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show and I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control but I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain to hell with my pride, let it fall like rain from my eyes tonight I wanna cry

(Katie POV)

It was eleven thirty, everyone had gone to bed and I had a mere thirty minutes left in my home. I grabbed the old lamb that my dad had given me when I was little and stuffed it into my backpack. Then the newer lamb from Kendall sat perched on my pillows. I grabbed one of my tape recorders and recorded a message for the guys.

I pressed play and started to talk. "Um, hi guys. It's me, Katie. But I guess you would have known that. So if you're hearing this I'm already gone. If you're mad at me for leaving I'm sorry. But I had a reason. I was at the pool and Daddy came up to me and told me to meet him outside of the Palm Woods. I know it's stupid to do but he said if I didn't he would hurt one of you guys instead of me. So I left. If you're mad I understand. But I think he's bringing me back to our old house. The address is 21441 Ceadar Gate Drive, Chico California. I love you guys so much. See you soon, I hope. I love you. Bye I guess. Katie."

When I finished my message I tied a string around it and attached it to my lamb. I pushed away my tears and grabbed my backpack. First I crept into my mom's room, and gave her a kiss goodbye. Then I did the same to Kendall. I would have stayed longer but I didn't want to be late.

I quietly left the apartment and walked down to the lobby. Outside the sky was pitch black, no moon tonight. Not too many stars either. My dad's red minivan was the only car parked on the curb. He was standing right outside of his car, dressed in all black.

"Hello Katie." His voice sent a chill up my spine.

"Hello." I whispered.

"Pajama's, cute." He smiled, his teeth were straight and white as could be.

"I was supposed to be sleeping." I reminded him.

"Shut up girl!" My dad yelled creeping towards me. He lifted his hand and hit my cheek twice as hard as Logan did when he was trying to wake me up from my night terror. But this didn't have good intentions. "Get in the van!"

"Yes sir." I whispered, touching my cheek, I climbed in the trunk that he had open, and stretched out.

"You can sleep on our eight hour drive!" He roared. I expected him to hit me over the head and knock me out but he only slammed the trunk and went up and started the car.

My suspicions were confirmed. We were going back to my old house. And I would soon be living in hell.

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(Kendall POV)

I knocked on Katie's door after I got back from Rocque Records the next day. When she didn't respond I opened the door. Katie was nowhere to be found in her room. I searched the entire apartment, then the pool and lobby. She was gone.

"Logan!" I called to my roommate who was sitting on the couch. "Have you seen Katie?"

"No, I thought your mom said she was in her room."

"She's not!" I cried.

Logan stood up immediately. "Kendall hey it's okay! I'm sure she's fine! She's probably just taking a walk or something. Me and the guys will go look for her. You stay here unless she comes back."

"Okay," I whispered.

Logan grabbed his jacket and a key card. "I'll go get them from the pool and we'll be on our way."

I nodded and sat down on the couch. I held back my tears. She was going to be in so much trouble when she got back! I didn't know if I should yell at her or hug her to death.

Song lyrics were floating around my head so I grabbed a root beer, my guitar, some paper, a pencil, and pretzels and got to work. By the time the guys got back I had finished my song.

"Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry"

"Hey Kendall." James whispered as he opened the door.

"Did you find her?" I asked hopefully.

"No," Carlos said. "I'm sorry."

I covered my eyes, and put my head back on the couch, letting out a sob.

"Kendall it's okay. It's gonna be okay. I'm sure Katie's fine." James reassured me.

I shook my head and let out another sob.

"You writing a song?" Carlos asked me and grabbed the paper. James and Logan walked over to Carlos and read over his shoulder.

After they had finished, James came over behind the couch and put his hands on my shoulders. "Kendall."

Carlos set down the paper and sat next to me. "That was really good Kendall. Katie will be fine. She's a strong girl."

I nodded.

"I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain?" Logan asked, reciting the lyrics.

I looked up at him and nodded. Next to me Carlos stiffened and James' hands tightened on my shoulders.

"Kendall…" Logan said, his voice trailing off.

"They're just lyrics Logan!" I protested.

"Then what's that?" Logan asked pointing to the brown bottle on the table.

"Root beer!" I snapped.

"How do we know you aren't lying?" James asked me.

I pushed his hands off my shoulders. "Taste it!"

Logan carefully picked up the root beer bottle and swirled it around. Finally, he lifted it to his lips and took a sip. "Root beer."

I felt Carlos relax next to me, and James put his hands back on my shoulders.

"What are we going to do about Katie?" I asked quietly.

"Have you checked her room?" Carlos asked me.

I shook my head.

"Well," James said. "What are we waiting for?"

I followed them to Katie's room and sat on her bed as they looked around.

"Her phone and charger are gone." Carlos said.

"So is her wallet," whispered James.

"And so are a bunch of her clothes." Logan grimaced.

"And the lamb that I gave her when she was first born." I observed.

"Kendall?" Carlos whimpered. "Did Katie run away?"

"I don't know Carlos. I really don't know." I told the smallest boy, and touched the lamb that I had just given her in November. Something small and black clattered to the floor.

Logan reached down and picked it up. "It looks like a tape recorder."

"Press play." I told him.

Logan hit play and Katie's voice came out and took over the room. I listened intently to the message and once it was over an awkward silence took over the room.

"Do you guys know what this means?" I asked quietly.

"Your dad has Katie?" Logan asked.

"They're some place eight hours away from here?" James asked me.

"Road trip?" Carlos widened his eyes.

I nodded. "All of the above."


Thank you guys for reading! Talk to you on Wednesday when I post No Love. Bye! XOXO~Tay

But I shipped it three days ago...it's slippers that massage your feet when you walk.