Going home was as painful as getting out, for both of them.
Bella kept her distance from Antonio, she didn't want to but she had to, she had made up her mind and she wanted to divorce him. Maybe Lars was right, maybe Antonio wasn't the guy for her.
But she wanted some questions answered.
What had happen?
What did she do wrong?
She had done nothing but love him.
What happen with their romance? the good morning kisses, the random acts of love towards each other, the hugs, the I-love-yous, the little things that made them fall for each other every day?
What had happen?
Antonio had receive the news like a cold bucket of water.
Nothing made sense… but he couldn't blame her for the decision. He had been a horrible person.
The coldness began two weeks after they had settle down in their new home.
Bella was as cheerful as ever, while Antonio tried to pretend everything was okay, he was very quiet, even around her.
She knew something was wrong and she tried to make everything the way he liked it, she knew he wasn't feeling well and she tried to make everything easy on him.
Antonio picked up another job at a Café, there he met Clarisa.
A girl who liked to smoke and to drink lots of coffee she seemed very nice and rapidly Antonio and her began talking, she soon presented her two friends Julio and Agustin.
And like that he began staying late, getting home late. Antonio never mentioned his depression, he'd mention Bella and how much he loved her.
Time went by.
He didn't make as much as Bella did, and he thought she'd live him because of it. He didn't know how to act then.
He stayed away from her, she'd try to kiss him, but he'd do it fast. He kept her distance.
Antonio didn't know what he was doing until now that he was in the car with Bella and Erzsebet.
He realized what he had done. He realized that it was stupid; she would have never mention anything about the money, she had done nothing but love him, she stayed at home to make sure he was doing okay.
He had messed up.
When they arrived Roderich had prepared a delicious cake and some coffee
"Hello" Roderich said looking at them sipping form his cup
"Hi Roderich" Bella said trying to sound normal and smiling "How are you today?"
"I'm okay, could be better" he said getting up "Erzsebet, my dear, are you ready?"
Antonio was on the back closing the door
"Yes" she answered
"I prepared you two a delicious cake and some coffee please enjoy it. We will leave now"
Bella looked at Erzsebet but Erzsebet avoided her eyes
"Bye" Roderich said "We will call when we arrived to let you two know we are okay"
Antonio nodded.
When they got out Bella ran up the stairs to their bedroom
Antonio stayed down and sat down in the couch to think.
They needed to talk, maybe it was too late, but they needed to talk.
Bella didn't want to talk.
She didn't want to see him, she only wanted to be alone.
"I'm going to take a shower and I'm going to sleep" she thought to herself
It was close to midday and a lot had happened already.
Bella got the rest of her clothes from the main bedroom and put it in the visitor's bedroom.
Antonio went up to see what she was doing.
"Bella what are you doing?" he asked quietly
"I'm going to be sleeping in the other room" she said getting her stuff out of the bedroom
Antonio followed her
"But you don't like that bed"
"It will have to do" she said trying not to cry
"But sunshine…"
Bella looked at the floor and put her clothes down in the bed, she didn't turn around to see him.
Antonio was standing in the doorway
"Isn't it time for you to get ready for the Soccer League?" she asked
"Yes…" he answered "but… but… can we talk?"
Bella didn't say anything. She couldn't talk, she had started to cry once more.
The only thing she could do was shake her head.
"…okay" Antonio said
He left.
Bella worked on her main project, it was due in two more months and she had more than enough time, but she wanted to keep her mind occupied.
She had several other little projects but nothing big.
Erzsebet called her when she arrived
"Thank you for the cake" Bella said
"You're welcome" Erzsebet said "Well, call me if you need me. Bye"
"Bye" Bella said
Lunch and dinner had gone by, but Bella hadn't eaten.
She knew she had to eat for the baby, but she wasn't hungry. She felt horrible.
She wanted to divorce him as soon as possible. She didn't want to suffer anymore.
She had tried everything, but nothing worked.
Her heart was broken.
She needed to go.
Antonio was going to disappear from her life but the wound in her heart was not.
Antonio was quiet at the café.
Agustin and the others had arrived that night.
"Was your wife okay?" Rosita asked
"No…" Antonio answered
"You got to leave her" Clarisa said laughing smoking her cigarette "She's not worth it"
Antonio shook his head
"You don't understand, she's amazing. You all don't know her the way I know her."
"Well" Rosita said "I'm sure there are more fishes in the sea for you"
The others laughed
"Are you going to come today?" Julio asked
"No. I have to go home"
"To your weird wife?" Clarisa asked with a smirk in her face
"Yes" Antonio said "To my beautiful wife"
Clarisa rolled her eyes
"You can do better" Clarisa said getting up "I'm leaving. I'll see you around"
Antonio looked at her leave and he went back to work.
He couldn't leave her alone. Not anymore.
In the way home from work he called his brother Henrique to talk to him and let everything out
"Look who decided to call!" Henrique answered jokingly
"Hello" Antonio said with his usual cheer stolen out of his voice
"What's wrong?" Henrique asked worried
"Bella wants a divorce. She already contacted her lawyer, whom I've never heard of"
"What did you do?"
Antonio proceed to tell him everything. From time to time his voice would break and he would stop talking to catch his breath and then continue with the story.
"You fucked up" Enrique said
"I did" Antonio said
"Why didn't you listen to our Mother when she said you needed to get mental assistance? You know she even offered to pay for everything. We all knew you needed it."
"I'm sorry. I don't have an excuse."
"Yes you do" Henrique said with a sigh "You don't want to make yourself look fragile."
Antonio didn't say anything
"You have to go talk to her. Do you know how long she is going to stay with you?"
"No… she didn't want to talk"
"You know Lars is going to kill you. You've hurt her in the worse possible way"
Antonio began crying loudly
"Do you want to talk to Mother?"
"No-o" Antonio replied "I'll go now… I will try to fix it and demonstrate how much I love her"
"Please keep me updated"
And like that he hand up.
It was his fault
He open the front door, the house was quiet
"Bella?" He asked getting close to her room
No one answered
"I'm home" he said against the locked door
He walked away to the kitchen.
The food was still warm, she had prepare food for him.
There was hope.
Thank you so much for reading... :3
