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Mammon stared at the wall in a dazed. It's been a few days since that incident. The way Boss looked at her when she left his room was clearly different. It was... it almost like he was interested in her. Still in a daze, Mammon facedesk. It was so odd. Boss NEVER look at her or anyone like that before. The only time when he ever looked at anyone like that and took a deep interest was Sera. She was Boss's whole world.

The years Mammon spent with the Varia, she never seen Boss so happy even he never did show it, but everyone can tell. Sera made Boss happy, extremely happy for the first time in his entire life during the very short time those two had together. Nobody can really blame him the way he was acting in the last few months since Sera's death. Sera was after all Boss's first love...

"Myu..." Mammon turns her face, cheek now resting on the surface of a table. "Boss... I wonder what he's thinking these last few days..."

"What don't you ask him, Mammon-chan~" Lussuria came waltzing in.

"M-myu! W-what are you doing here? And I-I can't go ask Boss that!" Mammon jumped a little and became flustered at Lussuria's presence.

"Well... This is the kitchen we're in, right?" Lussuria said, finger on chin and holding on a wooden cooking spoon after putting on his pink frilly apron. "It's quite unusual to see you in here, Mammon-chan."

"Mgayuu... I guess I wasn't paying attention to my surroundings lately," Mammon sighs as she stood up. "I'll take my leave now."

"Mmmm... Okay..." Lussuria said with a worried face. "Mammon-chan is surely acting odd since her fight with Bel-chan."

Mammon's fight with Bel... She can't BELIEVE everyone already knew about that. How annoying! Nobody even came close what the fight was about. Frustrating. All of it. She needs a vacation. A well-deserved one all right. She needs to get away from everyone. From the Mafia life. Even if it's just for a while. Mammon can't stand being in the Headquarters at the moment. It already getting so stuffy and it feels like she couldn't breathe. Damn, how much she hates it so much at the moment.

She wanted to ask Xanxus for a break... a vacation, but she's too scared to ask him, let alone approach him. That little incident made her more self-aware of herself and Boss. I mean, both of them did suffer a huge heartbreak. At least that's what she thinks, probably. Ah! Mammon just don't know anymore. The illusionist can't think straight and it's frustrating her.

"URGH! MYGAAAAA! WHY CAN'T I THINK STRAIGHT AT THE MOMENT?! This never happened to me before!" Mammon yelled at the top of her lungs, settling a few passerbyes.

Mammon decides to take a shower then a long warm bath to clear her head. She gathers all her bath and shower things, a change of fresh clothes, and clean purple towels. Mammon puts her stuff at the usual spot of her bathroom and starts stripping all the way down to her underwear until...

"LEVI! YOU BASTARD! HOW DARE COME IN HERE WITHOUT PERMISSION AND WITHOUT KNOCKING TOO!" Mammon blew up completely and threw Levi out of her room.

"N-n-n-n-n-nani? I-I-I-I can explain!" Levi started, blushing like mad.

"Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Just leave! I don't want to see your face ever again!" Mammon slams the door on Levi's face. She can't believe that out of all the people out there, baka Levi A Than saw her half-naked. HALF-EFFING-NAKED! And today of all days when she happens to be thinking about Xanxus. That stupid jerk! Oh, he's so dead!


"Ushishishi... So Levi actually did it then? Peeked into Mammy when she's in the bathroom." Bel grins widely, enjoying the ever so innocent Levi's embarrassment.

"I-i-i-it's not like I mean to! You told me Bossu wanted me to steal Mammon's toothbrush! I didn't know Mammon was going to be in the room at the moment or the fact M-Mammon i-is a–"

"Girl? Mou! Levi-chan. Did you just noticed Mammon-chan is a woman?" Lussuria pouts with a very disapproving look that Levi exactly went into a girl's room without permission.

Levi nods nervously.

"Ushishishi. Levi sure is slow on the take." Bel laughs at Levi's stupidity and innocence of the female body.

"B-but Mammon never said anything about being a woman! I always assumed that she's man!" Levi said in the best of his defense.

"But I clearly remember Mammon wasn't wearing her cloak and seeing her in casual clothing for the first time on our last day-off a couple months back," Lussuria hmm-ed.

"VOI! That's because Levi happened to be on a week-long solo mission for that damn boss of ours that day," Squalo explains while going through some paperwork.

"Ushishishi. Sucks to be him," Bel said jokingly.

"VOI! Bel! Like you were any better! Telling Levi do to something stupid. Get over yourself! You and Mammon just had that one big fight! That shouldn't completely ruin your relationship with her. It's nothing compared to having to argue with a freaking pregnant woman running high on crazy ass hormones!" Squalo glares at Bel while Lussuria nods in agreement.

Bel pouts and mumbles grumpily something about such things is underneath the Prince.


A couple of hours later, an angry Mammon came storming in the room demanding for blood. Levi knew he's in so much trouble with the angry Varia mist guardian as he cowered in fear at a corner of the room. Squalo, Lussuria, and Bel basically locked the poor man alone in the room several minutes earlier.

"LEVI! YOU BASTARD! COME HERE! YOU ARE SO DEAD!" Black and purple aura pours out of Mammon, causing the room to turn cold and dark.

"I'm really sorry! I didn't mean to see you half-naked or sneak into your room! I didn't know you'll in your room at that exact time! That damn fake prince told me steal your toothbrush because Bossu wanted it! Honesty!" Levi tries to explain, but Mammon wouldn't hear it. Anyone who sees Mammon naked, or half-naked otherwise, uninvited and without permission is unforgivable.

Mammon sends Levi into the cruelest illusion world best suited for that perverted idiot and for hours he stayed in that world. By the time Mammon finally lifts the illusion at the end of the day, Levi was utterly destroyed, mentally, as he lays on the floor, panting, wheezing, and twitching violently.

"Hmph. Serves you right, damn hentai. Myu~"

With that, Mammon retires to her room, leaving the poor man behind. The very next day, Levi was sent to the infirmary and stayed there for several days until he recovers.


Knock knock.

"Come in."

"You called for me, Boss?" Mammon peers through the door before entering Xanxus' study room.

"Hn... Mammon. What happen to that annoying piece of trash? I heard he was sent to the infirmary and have to recover from whatever fuck he was suffering from." Xanxus glance at Mammon for moment before closing his eyes.

Mammon blushes a bit when she saw Xanxus glanced her way.

"That hentai deserves it for being a peeping tom the other day," Mammon said in a small voice, red in the face and shuffling her feet as she stares at the floor.

"... Heh. You're really are interesting as I thought." Mammon was startled by Xanxus' unexpected words. She thought Boss was going to yell at her for incapacitating Levi. Apparently, she was wrong.

"B-boss... Are you feeling alright?" Mammon asked nervously.

"Of course I'm alright, scum. Why ask a stupid question?" Xanxus yawns.

"W-well... I-it's j-just I never thought to hear those words come out from your lips. Sounds kind of uncharacteristic of you," Mammon replied.

"Hn... I guess... I never thought I would feel these complicated feelings again." Xanxus stares at the ceiling with an unreadable look.

"H-huh...?" Mammon tilted her head in confusion.

"It's nothing. You can leave, scum." Xanxus ordered without looking at Mammon again. Mammon nodded and left the room.


It's those damn emotions again. He thought he got rid of them since Sera's death. Ever since Xanxus took Mammon into his room from underneath the willow tree that night a few weeks back, he couldn't stop thinking about her. Little did he know it was the same for Mammon as well.

Varia... The great élite independent assassin squad of the Vongola Familiga. Nine years ago, they never thought they would be capable to love. Yet, they did. Both Levi's and Lussuria's form of love is OBVIOUSLY twisted. And not hard to figure it out. So there's really no need to go there. At all... do we? Squalo's was easy to spot whenever it comes down Gwen, Xanxus, and swords like Mammon with money and candy. Xanxus was hard to tell as per usual and Bel's... both twisted and psychotic at the same time... probably... But enough of that!

Why does it have to happen to him as well? To Xanxus of all people. Losing Sera hurt like hell and he surely do not want to experience that again. It's exactly why he avoided getting close to people. He saw it in Gwen's eyes so many times before in the past before the Crib Incident. Xanxus never did understand why she kept trying or why she never ever gave up on love despite all the broken hearts she had so far.

"Because we may never know if the people we meet is the one. Heh. At least that's somebody else told me once" was Gwen's answer when he asked her why.

He could remember Gwen's smiling face when she answered his question as she stares at the clear blue sky while feeling the warm breeze one summer after she came home for the holidays from a private boarding school she attended in England. Xanxus never did understood what she meant back then and he still doesn't.

"Heh. Don't worry. Someday you'll understand," Gwen told him with a small laugh when she noted his silence of confusion. "I believe you will... someday... I know it..."

Xanxus never forgotten those words. Not even once. Maybe she was right... maybe not... One thing is for sure. Xanxus could give Gwen's example a try and maybe not give up on love. If it fails, there will be hell to pay.


...mon...ammo... chan... mam... on-cha...

"Mammon-chan!"

Mammon snapped out of her daydream. "Huh? Yes!"

"Mou! Mammon-chan! You were daydreaming again," Lussuria pouts. "You've been doing that a lot lately. It's not like you."

"Myu... Sorry... I've just been thinking a lot lately. That's all," Mammon said.

"Oh? What about? You know you can tell me anything, Mammon-chan," Lussuria's face lit up.

Mammon looks at Lussuria and smiles weakly. "Thanks... Lussuria... But you have to pay me first if I'm going to tell you anything and anything I tell you is complete confidential. Got it?"

"Hai!" Lussuria giggles and smile brightly. "Mamma Luss is always here for little Mammon-chan!"

Mammon blush in embarrassment. "D-don't call me little! I'm not a baby anymore! Myu!"

Lussuria giggles even more. "Hai, hai."

Mammon sighs and left Lussuria to do his thing, whatever it was he does during his free time when he's not on a mission, cooking, or going shopping for clothes. Mammon was glad that Lussuria was the first person to accept the fact Mammon is a girl right away. The only girl of the top élite Varia main force. Lussuria... Lussuria really do act like a mother. Mammon smiles and recalls the words Gwen has spoken to her a month before the Crib Incident.

"The Varia is... no... not just the Varia, but the whole Vongola is a second family to me. It did took a while for me to feel that way, but... I'm glad I've met everyone. That Nono took me in where I had no place to go to. To a place where I can finally call home."

Mammon stares at the young brunette. Gwen looks so radiate... always... always... and Mammon was envious of that. She wished she was radiate just like Gwen. Family... that has a nice ring to it. "I... I'm glad I met you too. Ah! I mean... I never known what a real family is like... so..."

"Haha. That's okay. I know. I know you have people to call family. To trust. That's the Varia, right?" Gwen smiles at her.

"! Ngh... Yeah... I guess..." Mammon said in a soft voice. "But you gotta pay me for this!"

"Heh. Hai. I'll see to it that I do." Gwen hugs Mammmon as she said that.

Mammon has no doubt Gwen have given all the Varia members some of her wisdom all those years ago. Even without being told so, Varia became the people Mammon deeply trust the most and felt the most comfortable with, especially... especially with a certain prince. A certain prince, eh... Maybe she was too hard on Bel after that fight.

She starts to wonder if Belphegor really deserved that treatment. He always been on the psychotic side and annoying at times, but he had his moments. Then again. So does the boss. Everything about Xanxus has always been so predictable and unpredictable at the same time. Mammon shakes her head, warm in the face, and heart pounding fast.

"What am I thinking? Why... why my heart always beat so fast every time I think about Boss? And why... does my chest... hurts so much as well?" Mammon clutches her chest and sobs a bit.

"It means you're in love with Xanxus... Mammon," a voice sound out to Mammon, making her jump a bit. The owner of the voice comes out and reveals Gwen.

"Gwen?! You always here at the oddest moments and what do you mean by that?" Mammon glares at Gwen a bit.

"Gomen, gomen! You got me," Gwen holds her hand up and smiling.

"You haven't answer my question. What do you mean I'm in love with Boss?"

"Exactly what I mean. It's the same for everyone. That feeling of your chest hurting, your heart beating fast every time you thought about that person, and daydreaming of him or her," Gwen explains the best she could. "It's a very complicated thing. Love that is."

"Eh?" Mammon narrows her eyes a bit with the what-the-hell face.

Gwen sweatdrops. "Well any case. You're in love with Xanxus."

"Ngh..." Mammon never thought she would give in that explanation, but she did. Was it even possible? Mammon didn't want to believe she would be in love with anyone again after the pain... the hurt... the scar... the deeply imbedded wound in the heart Bel sent her.

Gwen pats Mammon's head. "Believe in yourself. Love is not all lost in you. You can't let one thing that happened between you and Bel get in the way of that, do you?"

Mammon shakes her head and whispers a no through her sniffs. Gwen hugs Mammon and continues to pat her head at the same time. They stayed that way for a few minutes that felt like hours. When they broke apart, Gwen took Mammon back to her room so Mammon could rest for a bit until it was time for lunch.

Before Mammon fell asleep, she mumbled, "You really do appear at the oddest and strangest times. But always when we needed it the most."

Gwen looks at Mammon with a tender, motherly face. "So I do... So I do... And I promise to send some money into your bank account. This is our little female secret after all."

Gwen smiles at the sleeping Mammon one last time before leaving the bedroom and transfer some money from her bank into Mammon's.


Author's note: ah! thx for the reviews so far!

Cool Cupcakes - Yes. Gwen and Squalo are together. They're expecting twins. And thx for liking the story ^^

VongolaXII - Yes, I know Xanxus doesn't let anybody pat him in the series. But Xanxan makes it an exception for Gwen. There is a whole detailed backstory to it too.