"Right then who wants Monopoly" Mum calls. Uggh Monopoly with my family? you're joking. "yeeeaaah" Ziggy exclaims exitedly and comes and sits next to me "I love monopoly, don't you" he directs his question towards me "sure, I don't mind" I lie, god I wish I was in bed right now. shortly everyone is in the living room and mum is setting Monopoly up "who wants what piece" mum asks "I bagsie the thimble" Ziggy demands "No fair you're always the thimble" Freddie argues "I'll have the car" this time its Joe that makes the claim "Hold on a minute boys, let Jason and Robbie choose first" Mum says and Ziggy, Freddie and Joe make dissapointed faces "I'll have the dog" Robbie says then takes the piece "Jason?" mum looks at me "I'll have the iron" I lean forward and collect the piece "That means I get the thimble" Ziggy leans forward and snags the thimble "Mum Why does Ziggy always get the thimble, he never lets me use the thimble" Freddie argues "first come first serve, sorry love" mum replies "Ughhh fine I'll have the...wheelbarrow" Freddie replies with a huff and collects the wheelbarrow "I'll have the car then" Joe says and collects the car "then I'll have the ship" mum says and collects her piece and finishes setting the game up.

Awhile into the game Ziggy has the dark blues and greens with hotels on all of them, Joe has the reds with hotels on two and four houses on the other, Freddie has the train stations and utility cards claiming they're where the good money is at, but is in fact is almost out of money, Robbie has the orange and white ones with hotels on all as well, mum has the pink ones with hotels and I have the browns and yellows with hotels on, I have the most money. "C'mon Jase, can't you spare me just a few hundred bob?" Freddie asks me for the unteenth time "how many times Fred, that's not how its played" I reply once again "spoil sport" Freddie mutters "excuse me I need the loo" I say and stand up "wont be long" and I leave and head towards the bathroom.

I reach the bathroom and open the door, I walk in and close and lock the door behind me, I take a piss and move towards the sink, I catch a glimpse of myself, the feeling that I was looking better had gone, all I could see was a pathetic fat waste of space staring back at me; I couldn't take it anymore so I punch the mirror again and again and again. I hear people coming up the stairs "Jase what's going on" I hear that it was Joe that spoke, I can't face him; I sink to the floor, I feel myself start to cry "C'mon Jase, don't be a twat" I could hear that that was Robbie, I hear mum say something very quiet, I guess she was probably scolding Robbie. "C'mon Jase, if you don't come out I'll have to break the door down" Joe spoke again, I couldn't do it, I just feel so pathetic right now "that's it, I'm coming in" I hear the door bust in, I'm not looking at them but I can tell they froze still, what must they think of me.

I feel someone come and sit next to me and pull me into an embrace "Jase what's a matter" I now know who it was, it was Joe; I throw myself into his shoulder and begin to sob uncontrollably "Jase" I hear Ziggy say in and exasperated tone. Joe is rubbing my shoulder consoling me, but I couldn't even speak all I can do is cry like a pathetic baby, I then feel someone else come over to me and kiss me on the forehead "It's okay love, you can tell us" I knew then that is was mum, but yet I still couldn't say anything "Freddie go and get a clean towel and some bandages" my calls to Freddie, and then I hear him walk off, why did she need those? Oh shit it must be me, I look down at my hands and they're blood red, barely and inch of my skin colour shone through. I'm now beginning to feel sick, I retch slightly "Jase calm down, it's okay" Joe says as he holds me tighter and begins rubbing my arm more. I feel it, it's coming, I retch once more and dribble sick down Joe's legs, I mustn't of threw breakfast up properly, stupid idiot.

Freddie return with the clean towels and bandages straight after, once he sees he makes a disgusted noise "here you go mum" he hands the stuff to mum "Hold it a minute Fred can't you see he's just been sick" she tuts and comes over to me "are you still feeling poorly" she asks, I look up at her and begin to cry more, she rubs my arm. If she thinks this is because I'm ill then I can just add hormones on top and this will just blow over so I nod at her "I'll call the doctor" she adds "..no..." I add weakly "I'm...fine, just...not on..top form" I wipe my face, and stand up to the sink, I turn the cold tap on and swill my hands, I continue to cup water into my hands and splash my face with water, I shake my head and go to use the towel "use this one" Freddie says and throws me a clean towel, I just about catch it "thanks" I say and dry my face.

Mum stands up and takes a hold of my hands "Freddie, bandages please" she asks Freddie "okay" Freddie replies and delivers mum the bandages, mum begins bandaging me up "Why did you smash the mirror love" she asks sincerely, I try to think of an excuse "I don't know" I sniff my snot back "I guess I'm quite hormonal and stuff, been feeling a bit stressed with my exams and stuff" a few extra tears stream "you could have still spoken to be about it" mum says as she finishes bandaging me up "all done sweetheart, wanna go downstairs and finish the game, I'll make us all a hot chocolate with marshmellows" she smile "alright" I reply dreading the amount of calories that would be in that hot chocolate. We all head back downstairs; Joe a few minutes later after having to change his trousers from be vomiting over them, back to the living room and continue the game with the hot chocolates Mum made for us all.