"What am I going to do David? I really like him. Like really like him."
Blaine was pacing back forth across David's dorm with his hands buried in his hair. He stopped his pacing and turned to face the other boy with wide pleading eyes.
"Blaine, I know him better than anyone. He likes you too, but he's scared. You understand that right? You read his journal." As well as being one of Blaine's best friends David was also Kurt's at some point which made Blaine feel confident about coming to him for help. "Did you read everything?" David added as an afterthought.
"I got the picture." Blaine replied stiffly.
"Then you can understand why it took him so long to talk to you. You said that he's starting to talk but not using full sentences? Well, he's trying and that's all we can ask of him."
Once David had explained things Blaine could see a small solution forming. It wasn't concrete but it was there.
"You should talk to him about it though." David said interrupting Blaine's musings. "Like a proper conversation. I know it's easy to talk at him but he really needs to tell you his side as well…even if it's written."
He gave David his thanks and then both boys quickly settled into another subject discussing the ways they could successfully steal some of the ice cream tubs from the cafeterias freezers. Unknown to both of the boys, on the other side of the door, Kurt was silently turning away from the door with tears in his eyes.
When Kurt woke up the next morning the first thing he noticed was how well rested he felt. Who knew you could feel so much better by only having an extra thirty minutes to sleep in. As Kurt sat up in bed he noticed Blaine trying to put on a pair of bright red pants with his toothbrush hanging out of his mouth and he let out a small giggle at the sight.
When Blaine finished getting dressed he turned and faced Kurt.
"Now that you're awake you can tell me what you think! So, how do I look?"
Kurt took one look at Blaine and started giggling even more much to Blaine's delight.
"What?!" Blaine asked him looking down at his outfit trying to find the problem. Kurt was still laughing with one hand covering his mouth and the other hand pointing at Blaine's pants. "Do the colours clash?!"
Once Kurt had calmed down he was able to point at Blaine and motion for him to look down. Finally Blaine seemed to realise that he'd managed to put his pants on inside out. Kurt then pointed at the other boy's crooked bow-tie.
"Obviously I was setting a new trend. I think it looks good." Blaine said in a teasing voice. He then started to strut around Kurt's bed. "What? Don't you think I look sexy?" That comment caused Kurt to collapse into a fit of giggles laughing at his friend as the boy started to hum 'Do Ya Think I'm Sexy'. As Kurt was giggling away Blaine once again had the opportunity to notice how beautiful and carefree his new friend looked as he laughed. An idea suddenly struck him.
"Hey, Kurt?" He has a smirk on his face as he looks at the other boy who had finally stopped laughing but was still smiling bashfully. "You ticklish?" As he asks the other boy's eyes widen comically and Blaine quickly moves forward to start tickling. Kurt is once again giggling and smiling.
"So, I came up to your dorm yesterday, cause I knew you were gonna be late, and I heard squealing. Care to explain?" David asked the next day walking down the corridor with Blaine. His smirk making Blaine blush.
"Well Kurt was laughing at me because when I got dressed in a hurry I had…well…made a few mistakes. And then I tickled him, for revenge. His laugh is amazing David and he seemed so much happier."
"Hey, I was only teasing and I know. Kurt told me. I was going to knock on the door but I decided you guys might want sometime on your own but you owe me coffee Blaine Anderson. And I will have my coffee." David reassured him playfully bumping his arm with his. Looking over Blaine's shoulder he could see Kurt slowly making his way over to them. "I think someone wants you and I've got studying to do anyway. So go and enjoy your trip to the mall and let him help you find some better clothes. Maybe get you over the bow-ties." David winked and left to go to the common room dodging Blaine's friendly glare.
Blaine turned round hoping Kurt hadn't heard too much of what he had said and how amazing his laugh was.
"Ready to go?" He asked cheerfully.
"Yeah." Kurt's small voice replied making Blaine's heart clench in a familiar way.
"Let's go buy bow-ties!" Blaine cheered and laughed at Kurt rolling his eyes.
The shopping trip was going rather well in Blaine opinion, even if Kurt had only let him buy one bow-tie but he'd found a really cool notebook. They were having a small debate over which recent Vogue cover was the best when Kurt suddenly stopped. He had gone pale as a sheet and had started trembling. Blaine followed his friend's line of sight and saw a dark haired guy looking at the beanies inside H&M. Looking back at Kurt's face Blaine managed to connect the dots.
"Kurt, is that…him?" Blaine asks as he moves in front of Kurt to get his attention. Kurt just nods stiffly and curls in on himself. He gently takes Kurt's hand and leads him out of the mall towards his car. As Blaine was helping Kurt get in the passenger side they both heard a yell.
"Oi! Kurt! Got a new boy toy?"
Kurt froze again so Blaine reached over him to strap the boy in, closed the door and then made his way over to his side quickly reversing and driving off. As they left the parking lot Blaine glanced at Kurt who was still shaking and looking rather nauseous. Blaine reached out and took Kurt's hand once again trying to calm the boy down hoping that he'd realise he wasn't alone. As they hit the highway Blaine's mind wondered. Their trip was going wonderfully until he had ruined it. Aaron was going to pay.
Back in their dorm Kurt was curled up in Blaine's side still shaken up from earlier.
"I was thinking, since I know some of your past that maybe you'd like to know about mine." Blaine suggested. Kurt looked up at him in concern shaking his head in protest. Blaine held him tighter trying to soothe his friend. "Hey, it's okay. I want to." Kurt stared at him for a minute, his eyes questioning and then nodded slowly. He curled back into Blaine's side holding on a bit tighter than last time making Blaine's heart soar.
"Anyway, I want you to know me like I know you so we can be comfortable with each other." He felt Kurt nod his head against him. "I came out to my parents when I was 14. My Mom was supportive and my Dad took a while to come to terms with it. I mean, he's fine with it now and my older brother was totally cool with it." Kurt took a hold of his hand and squeezed.
"At school though, everyone had a very different opinion. I got bullied but not badly enough to draw attention from any staff since it was just things like name calling and being pushed into lockers. I could handle it but my parents found out and then sent me to Dalton when I was 15. Honestly, it was the best thing to happened to me before I me-" He coughs awkwardly and glances down at Kurt who is still comfortably snuggled into his side.
"Then I met Sebastian." He's tense but then there's a hand holding his and with just that small sign of reassurance Blaine knows that he can trust Kurt. "He was really flirty from the first day we met and we quickly became a couple and it was great for the first couple of weeks. He was so romantic and then he became controlling. I didn't even notice until one day he started yelling at me because I'd gone out and I hadn't told him or as he put it 'Didn't ask him'. That's when I knew that what he'd been doing was wrong and that I didn't have to put up with something like that so I ended it and refused to ever talk to him again. We were together for five months so it took me a while to start trusting people again."
When he had stopped talking Kurt looked up at him with a soft expression. Blaine was once again struck with how beautiful Kurt's eyes were.
"Kurt, I need to tell you something." Blaine said squeezing Kurt's hand.
Kurt noticing the sudden nervousness in Blaine's tone pulled away from his comfortable position and sat up.
Blaine took a deep breath and started to talk. "Kurt, you've quickly become one of my closest friends and I know this is hard for you and I probably shouldn't be saying this but I need to get this off my chest. I really like you. Like, really like you."
Kurt dropped his hand as if he'd been burnt.
"I'm not asking for a relationship! I know that it's too early and you're not ready but I just needed to tell you. I wanted you to know how I felt." He tried to reassure Kurt but the boy was shaking his head with tears in his eyes. Kurt was stunned at the sincerity in Blaine's voice.
"I can't." Kurt managed to choke out and he quickly backs out of the room.
The next day Blaine was in a fog. He'd messed everything up and he saw no way of fixing it. He was aimlessly walking down a corridor when a hand on his shoulder shocked him out of his thoughts.
"Hey man, I talked to Kurt yesterday." David started. "He asked me to give this to you." In his hand was a folded piece of paper with Kurt's beautiful curly writing on it reading 'Blaine'.
Blaine took the paper gingerly giving David his thanks and walking towards his next lesson. When the teacher didn't arrive after fifteen minutes and the lesson was deemed a 'Free Period' Blaine took the paper out of his notebook.
Blaine,
I'm sorry I ran but you said what I've been scared to say for a few weeks now. I'm not worth the feelings you're spending on me, but honestly, I really like you. But right now a relationship is scary. I'm scared. I know you'd never hurt me but I don't know if I'm ready.
I'll be back to school on Wednesday. I've gone home for a few days. I needed space and I just wanted you to know it's not your fault.
Yours,
Kurt.
Folding the note back over and slipping it into his bag Blaine smiled to himself. He knew exactly what he was going to do. He was going to make Kurt see how special he truly was.
Please review! Hope you enjoyed!
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-Mel
Message from the Beta - Updated version uploaded the 2nd of January 2014
