01/01/2015
Dear Baby,
It's 2 AM right now, but I had to write to you about how your dad found out about you. Your uncles Javi and Kevin and aunts Lanie and Jenny all came over to the loft around 9 PM. Your sister Alexis, your grandma Martha and your grandpa Jim were already here, considering two of them live with us.
My dad normally doesn't do much for the holidays, but I convinced him to come because this year is extra special … because of you. I was getting really anxious about telling your dad, but I really wanted to wait until midnight. When your aunts and uncles arrived, we all sat around in the living room while your dad served hors d'oeuvres to everyone. The food was a hit, of course, because your dad is an excellent cook. It's why I married him, among other things. We all chatted effortlessly for an hour or so, talking about work and family life. My dad talked about me growing up and then your grandma chimed in about your dad, some of the stories, I hadn't even heard yet.
Around 10:30 PM, your dad decided to pull out his Xbox and ask Javi, Kevin and even my dad if they wanted to play a couple of rounds of Halo, leaving all the women to wander to the kitchen to get away. Aunt Lanie asked if I wanted any wine, which I obviously declined. I think that made her suspicious because I almost never turn down wine. When we started talking about Kevin and Jenny's baby Sarah Grace, Lanie not so subtly asked when I was going to have a baby. I think I looked a little scared because I was afraid that she knew. I simply said, "We'll see where life takes us" and hoped that would satisfy her for a bit.
At 11 PM, we women asked the men to shut off the video games so we could watch the coverage of Times Square and they begrudgingly did so. I cuddled with your dad, feeling absolutely content in his arms, knowing some of the biggest news of our lives was about to happen in little under an hour.
As the clock counted down until midnight, I started to get nervous because I wasn't sure how your dad was going to react. Deep down I knew he'd be ecstatic, so I didn't know where the fear was coming from. When the clock struck midnight, everyone shouted "Happy New Year" and kissed the people we loved. Your dad leaned over and drew me into a tender but passionate kiss before telling me he loved me. We both stood up so he could kiss Alexis and I could kiss my dad.
As everyone's joy died down, I pulled your dad to the side and told him I had to talk to him. He seemed concerned, but I simply said to him, "Guess what?" then leaned forward and whispered in his ear, "I'm pregnant." I don't think it sunk in right away because it took him a couple of seconds to react, but he held me at arm's length while looking at me and asked, "Really?" He had a huge smile plastered on his face and I nodded in confirmation. That was when he drew me into an even more passionate kiss than before and hugged me tight. I started to cry, damn hormones, and everyone became suspicious. When your dad and I pulled apart he looked to me and wordlessly asked with a look if it was okay to tell everyone else. I nodded and that is how everyone else found about you, too.
We are both so very excited and I'm glad I kept the surprise quiet until tonight. Your dad just walked in and told me that I should be sleeping to conserve energy now that I am pregnant, so I unfortunately have to end this entry to you.
Remember Baby, I will love you for always.
Love, Mom
