Logan finds out
I woke up from the smell of pancakes with chocolate sauce. It was delicious. I opened my eyes and noticed that Logan was no longer sleeping in my arms, but was standing next to the bed. He had a tray with a huge pile pancakes on it in his hands.
"Hey" He said uncertain. He stood there hesitantly. Scared for my reaction. "I made you these"
I smiled softly and took the tray from him. "Thank you, sweetie" I put it on the nightstand and pulled Logan to me with his hand. I hugged him and it felt so lovely having him back in my arms that I really didn't want to let him go. I'd missed his little form.
"So do you want to go out with me today?" He asked when I released him to eat the delicious smelling pancakes he made for me.
"Depends on what we're going to do" I said while eating a piece of his amazing cooking.
"I thought we could use a day together" He blushed and looked down, still scared for my answer. "So we could ditch rehearsal and go to my special spot on the beach?" He asked softly.
I thought about it for a minute. Logan was okay with skipping rehearsal. He never skipped any kind of lesson or workday. Which meant he cared more about fixing this than working. That was progress. He really did want to make it up to me so badly. "I'm in"
I laughed softly when he smiled that lop sided grin and beamed. He kissed my cheek and stood up.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"I was going to eat filthy cereal so you could eat your royal breakfast in peace, your highness" He bowed.
I pulled a thinking face. "I like that thought, having you as my servant. So you're willing to do everything I ask you?"
"Yes, Kendall. If that's how I can make it up to you"
I pulled the thinking face again and eyed him with mischief washing all over me. "Then you're staying here" I decided. "Don't leave me" That had a double meaning. I was sure Logan caught them both.
"Of course" He said and sat down on the foot of the bed. I watched him suspiciously while he pulled of the covers to reveal my feet. He did something I really didn't saw coming. He massaged my feet.
It felt really good. He had some amazing fingers, I already knew that, but still. I raised an eyebrow at him.
"What? Don't question it, just enjoy. This isn't something I'm going to do every day or to anybody else. You should feel really honored now"
I chuckled and continued eating while he continued his massage. When I was finished Logan told me to roll on my stomach. He seated himself on my butt and massaged my back and shoulders. He was really good with his fingers. He did this for ten minutes and then was suddenly gone. He sprinted to our bathroom with his hand over his mouth. I quickly ran after him and found him hanging over the toilet, retching his organs out. I rubbed his back comfortably and got him water and toilet paper for his mouth when he was done. He sat down and leaned against the wall heavily.
"This is seriously growing out of hand, Logan. I want you to see a doctor" I said worriedly. There was another reason I wanted him to see a doctor. If we found out what was wrong with him, maybe I could find out why he'd been acting so unpleasant to me.
"I'll be fine, Kendall. It's only in the mornings, if it was something I would have told you guys weeks ago. I'm sure it's just a bug or something"
"Logan, even I know a 'bug or something' doesn't last this long. I really want you to go to a doctor"
"Fine, but not today" He said stubbornly.
"Why not? Logan-"
"I'm not going today, Kendall. We're going out together remember? I want to do this the right way from now on. I want to make you forget the last three months and that's not going to work if I have to go to a doctor"
"I would've kissed you if you didn't just throw up" I said regrettably. "You know what the last time was when we shared a real kiss? I can't even remember" I told him bitterly.
His face dropped and the tears came back to his eyes. He stood up and hugged me, leaving butterfly kisses on my chest. "I'm sorry"
"Come on, go brush your teeth. We're going to shower together, but I'm still not going to kiss you if you taste like vomit" I whispered in his ear.
He blushed and turned to the sink while I got out of my boxer and under the shower. Logan joined me two minutes later, his mouth completely clean. He was staring up at me and pulled me closer with the hands on my hips. He kept looking in my eyes while he trailed his hand over my abs and chest to my neck to end on either side of my face. He cupped it and slowly brought it down until our lips almost touched. He let his lips flutter over mine, not really kissing but something so sweet and so Logan that I almost cried of happiness. He finally stopped the teasing and gave me the kiss I'd been waiting for so long. His lips moved against mine tenderly. Pure and innocent and sweet, everything that represented Logan. My Logan, who I'd missed for three months. The Logan that was so sweet and lovable I was surprised he didn't feel sticky like other sweets. Who actually loved me back now.
I kissed back and ran my tongue over his bottom lip, asking for access to the mouth I'd been away from way too long. I grabbed one of his legs and wrapped it around my waist. He got the hint and did the same with the other.
We made out for at least half an hour. I couldn't believe how much I'd missed this. It felt so wonderful to have him back in my arms. It seemed almost impossible that I could have last this long without him kissing me. His kisses were amazing. We held onto each other almost desperately, gaining as much possible contact. Logan was giving me everything I'd desperately needed for so long, but didn't get in three months. Neither of us felt the need to go any further then this. Me because I still hadn't really forgiven Logan yet and he for some unknown reason that had caused him to act like he did the last quarter year, but I still loved him more than anything and I knew for sure that by the end of the day I won't remember a thing of what happened. He was clinging to my body and needed the contact almost as mush as I did. It felt good that he realized how much he'd missed this too. Our chests were pressed together so tight that the water couldn't reach our stomachs. The little bulge he had there felt rather hard. Strange…
There was only one thing wrong. Since he was slightly heavier than before, I couldn't hold him up for much longer. I was a little afraid to tell him that, since he would start crying so easily. I pulled my tongue back and kissed him a last time.
"I love you" He whispered and rested his head on my shoulder while he wrapped his arms and legs around me tighter.
"I love you too, sweetie" I said while stroking his back. "You know, I can't hold you up much longer. You became a little heavier the last few months" I said uncertain. Please don't start crying again!
I squeezed my eyes shut and waited for it, but it never came. I slowly opened one eye and saw him staring at me with wide eyes. They were full of terror.
"No way" He whispered. He gently climbed off me and leaned against the wall, his eyes still on me. "That's impossible…"
"Logan? What's wrong? You're creeping me out here!" I said anxiously. He was still staring at me, but there changed something in his eyes. He seemed hopeful, maybe even happy. He was thinking deeply and I think I saw his lips moving. Was he counting? He was seriously scaring me right now. I waved my hand in front of him and he snapped out of his staring. He shook his head and looked away from me.
"I might be… I think I know what's wrong with me" He said softly.
"Then tell me!" I begged.
He turned the water off and stepped out of the cabin. "Not until I'm sure. I have to come back on my decision. We've to go to a hospital. Immediately"
You are such lucky bastards. The only thing you had to do was giving me some amazing and sweet reviews and I update AGAIN! Now I'm forced to write more to make up for the time I'm in France… Not that I really mind (:
