Chapter 2: Go Dark

A/N: The is the second part to the Going Dark segment.
Please enjoy and listen to Cassie Steele's 'Go Dark' *SERIOUS CONTENT* This chapter, I think, is a little bit more stronger than the others. there is some mature content that I think only few can handle. I don't want to change the rating of the story because I don't want the whole story to be overshadowed by it. Nevertheless, read on...

Chapter 2: Go Dark

Piper stared at the lamp blankly, the screwdriver hanging limply in her right hand. What ever she had learned about fixing lamps has completely left her mind. She and Alex had left the chapel together but had parted ways to head to their work stations. She tried to push aside the emotions that had resurfaced after her talk with Alex but it was proving to be difficult. She was beginning to see the irony between the broken lamp and the state her mind.

"Chapman, you alright? Been starin' at that lamp for ten minutes!" Nichols commented, her wild hair hanging in its usual slight curl. She'd been watching the blonde since she walked into the electrical shack. She hadn't been around to see them but she had heard the rumors about Alex and Piper leaving the chapel together, their hands intertwined until slowly, they weren't. She thought maybe they had gotten back together but the empty look in Chapman's eyes says otherwise. "I heard about you and Vause in the chapel, but the look on your face don't look like you came sevens ways to Sunday if you know what I mean." she laughed, nudging Piper in her left arm from her position across the table.

Piper blinked several times before comprehending that Nichols was speaking to her. "If you're worried about me taking your place as her new fuck buddy then you can stop. That's why you're speaking to me right? Because if I recall you were also on the 'lets ignore Chapman' bus too. Don't act like you're my friend, fuck her if you want. I'm no good to her or anyone else anyway." She dropped the screwdriver onto the table and stood preparing to leave. She was turned and poised to run when Luscheck stopped her.

"Sit your ass down Chapman unless you want a shot. Take one step out that door and I'll have you in the SHU so fast you get whiplash." Luscheck ordered, his right forefinger pointed at her while his left hand held the Walkman on his belt ready to call another CO for escort. He stayed in that position until Piper sat back down and began to fiddle with the lamp she'd been given to fix. He gave her the 'eyes on you' hand gesture before going back to his post at the tool cage.

Nichols looked at Chapman with her eyebrows raised wondering where the blonde got the idea that she was playing tonsil hockey with Alex's snatch. Sure she had fingered her but that was once and immediately after Alex had been bitching about Piper as if she hadn't just cum all over her fingers. "I think you got the wrong idea blondie. What's got your panties in a twist?" she questioned, genuinely concerned for Piper's mental health. It was clear as day that the blonde, the glass half full kind of person, was going through something rough.

"I really just want to get through the day without having to talk, or think. Unless you've got some ideas on how I can do that then please stop talking to me." Piper whispered, not trusting herself to keep her voice at a normal volume. She needed peace and quiet to compartmentalize what she had long ago packed away in a storage unit tucked away in the cobwebs of her mind. The idea of be putting away in SHU was beginning to sound like a good idea. Shaking her head of that thought, Piper went back to tinkering with the lamp.

Nichols could see the wheels turning in Piper's head and decided that maybe it was a good idea to leave the blonde to her thoughts. Didn't mean she wasn't going to grill Vause the first chance she gets. Something was going on between those two and she has a feeling it has something to do with that note that Chapman had left on Vause's bed.

Piper sat Indian style in the middle of her bed, her back against the wall. It was dinner time which meant everyone was in the canteen. She should have gone with her, then maybe she wouldn't have been blindsided by the memory of Kubra's breath on her neck and his hands squeezing her breasts to the point of unbearable pain.

*flashback*

Young Piper lay face down in Kubra's bed with her wrist to the bed posts. "Please, stop. I-I can't leave her but I swear I won't keep her from working anymore. Please!" Piper cried, pulling away from the weight of Kubra on her back as much as she could with her wrists and ankles tied. She could feel the hairs of his chest on her bare back. Even worse, she could feel the hairs of his pelvis on her lower back as he pounded into her as if she were boneless and muscle-less. She thought he would have been finished with her after the first time he had forced himself on her, but now was the third time in less than a week and she didn't know how much more she can take. She stayed because she loved Alex more than her sanity, more than her own body and she knew that if she left Alex's life would be in danger.

Kubra grunted as he pumped in and out of forcefully, "Oh you silly rich girl. I know you won't." he slammed into her again as if to reinforce his statement. "I've wanted you since the moment I laid eyes on your sweet ass." he laughed, slapping her butt with his right hand and grinning at the red that began to appear in the wake of his hit. The way her body wriggled underneath him as if she still had a chance gave him a rush similar to the heroin he had imported to countries all over the world. "Don't forget, Piper Chapman, you belong to me and no one else. Not even your precious Alex."

In that moment, Piper gave up. The fight in her body left and the last bit of hope that a piece of her could survive his torture left her eyes. She didn't even know who she was anymore, in this moment she didn't even feel human. She felt like a thing, an inanimate object made to be someone else's plaything. She began to do what she did best, put everything away including the parts of her that were left so that when let her go she could return to Alex at least a fragment of herself.

*end flashback*

When Piper snapped back to the present she found that she had moved from being on top of the bed to under the bed pressed so far into the wall she could feel the imprint of the bricks on her back. Her lungs heaved for air that she couldn't seem to find and she was seeing black spots. She was having a panic attack. She crawled out and grabbed stood to her feet still gasping for air. Looking around, she noticed that the dorm was still relatively empty which meant she still had a few minutes before the other inmates came back from dinner for showers.

She gave herself a minute to get herself together enough so that no one would question her. Once she could see better she made her way out of the dorms and in search of the D-block bathrooms that were still down for repairs. She passed through the hallways with her head down and her hair in her face, an attempt to appear invisible. Piper made it to the empty bathroom without being stopped by CO's or bothered by other inmates. She slipped into the bathroom and noticed that all of the repairs were finished.

Piper went to the stall furthest away from the door and checked to see if the water worked. After seeing that it did she stripped of the prison issued uniform and left it on the sink counter. She stared at herself in the mirror and though the scars of Kubra's abuse weren't visible she could see his name burned across her body like a branding. Piper turned away from the mirror and stepped into the shower. She turned the knob as far to the hot side as it would go and laughed. In prison there were only two temperatures, really cold and lukewarm. The water remained freezing but in the end, she didn't mind. She would stand underneath sprays of the showerhead until her body went numb, until she could barely see or feel Kubra on her body. Until.

She didn't know how much time had past but she could feel her muscles freezing up. She sink to the floor of the shower stall and drew up knees to her chest and rested her chin on her knees. Suddenly, she started sobbing so hard her shoulders shook. She cried for the person she used to be, for the thing she's become. She cries for Alex and her obliviousness to what had happened to her. She cries for the truth she has to keep from Alex. She can't tell Alex it happened more than once or that Kubra had threatened her life if Piper told her about it. She just cried.

Because like Kubra said, he owns her. Piper is no longer a person or even human. She is a thing. She is used and no good for anyone.

Comments and criticism welcome :) Part three coming soon. As I said before, we'll get to see how Alex is dealing with what happened to Piper. Also, Alex is very smart and she might just have an inkling that there is more to the story Piper told her. There's also more to what Piper has revealed to us. Only time will tell. Enjoy!