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What happened last chapter:
Because at that moment, Jasper's soft lips suddenly came crashing down onto mine. My lips responded to his in a way that they never had to Edward. My lips moved in sync with his, and I felt my body respond to the kiss. A wave of lust hit me, and I didn't want to stop kissing him. He wrapped his arms around my neck and his tongue slipped into my mouth. I wrapped my arms around his waist, and felt so-
Then my mind caught up with my body. You only just broke up with Edward My mind screamed at me Jasper is your best friend's boyfriend.
I broke away from the kiss, disgusted at myself. Jasper looked up at me for a second, then tried to kiss me again, using his right arm to pull my waist towards his body. I put all my strength in to my hand, and slapped Jasper as hard as I could. He looked shocked, but I didn't wait around to see if he would say anything. I turned away from Jasper and ran. Ran to my meadow.
Bella's POV
I sat down on the soft green grass, that was glistening with early-morning dew. Every single strand of grass stood out to me, twinkling happily under the brightly shining sun. I shook my head, trying to clear it of the stupid, irrelevant thoughts about the stupid, irrelevant vegetation and tried to focus on the problem.
Jasper Whitlock Cullen had just kissed me. And I, or at least my lips, had responded, even if only for a minute.
And I hated myself for it.
Why did I hate myself for it? Because Jasper was Alice's boyfriend. And Alice was my best friend. How could I have let myself be kissed by him? How could I have enjoyed that kiss? How could I have been such a bitch? How could I have-
Oh My God. That must have been what Alice had seen! This must have been what she meant when she said that someone had made a decision. She must have seen Jasper kissing me... How awful must that have been for her. I felt such an anger at Jasper. He had kissed me, knowing that Alice could and probably would have seen. And Edward would have seen in his mind too. How could he be so horrible, such a stupid, betraying vampire?
My anger suddenly disappeared, and because of that, I knew Jasper had arrived. "I'm sorry, Bella." I heard Jasper say from behind me, confirming my suspicion. I didn't turn to look at him, scared of him slightly, yet I had no idea why.
"I just... I-I really... I-I like you, Bella. I really like you, as more than just a friend. I love you Bella, and I have, ever since I saw you. I love you, and Alice knows I love you. I told her that, and she understands. My relationship with her only came about because we were both lonely, and wanted someone as a friend, not a lover. We made an agreement, that if we ever fell in love with someone else, then we could leave the other to be with them. And I've made that choice, and Alice understands. In fact, she saw me and you together before either of us told her. She saw the vision about you and Edward while you were arguing. Straight after that, she spoke to you, then she spoke to me, and now we're here...." Jasper explained, confusing me further. Alice and Jasper weren't in love? They were just friends? This couldn't be true; Alice and Jasper were just so... in love! Or so it seemed anyway. They couldn't not be.
"And now we're here." I muttered, unsure of what to say. I mean, what do you say when your husband's brother (who is also your best friend's husband) confesses his love for you? You see my problem.
We stood in silence for about ten minutes. I was looking at him, and he was looking back at me, no words were said. None existed that could fit the situation. And that was when Jasper leaned forward and kissed me, for the second time in an hour.
I wasn't sure how to respond. Part of me wanted to kiss him back, wrap my arms around him and hold him tight against me. But another part of me wanted to push him away, call him every bad name under the sun and slap him again.
My body chose for me. I went limp in response the amazing kiss, my knees going weak and Jasper's arms snaking round my back. One arm of his pulled me closer to him, and the other lifted each of my arms, one at a time, around his neck.
I didn't pull them away.
Our kiss continued for ages. Was it minutes? Hours? Or even days? It had felt like time had stopped and we just owned the world. I felt such bliss, but I was not sure how much of that feeling was Jasper and how much was my own feelings, screaming out at me?
To be honest, I had no idea what I was doing. Yesterday, had I imagined what I'd be doing this time today?I'd have probably guessed that I'd be hunting, being with Edward or playing with Nessie, not making out with my best friend's boyfriend, and my husband's brother.
Since when had my life been so confusing?
Slowly, Jasper pulled away. He was staring in to my eyes intensely, making me feel like i was the only one. I just looked back, as clueless on what to say to Jasper, as he evidently was for me. I was still locked in his tight embrace, I felt so weak from the kiss that I knew that if he let go and dropped me then I would just fall to the ground without resisting. Why had Jasper's kiss affected me like this? So much stronger than Edward's kisses had affected me. And why, for some reason, did I think that the answer could be what Jasper had told me. That he loved me, and I, or at least, my body, loved him.
Could that really be true? Do I love Jasper? As he pulled me even closer for another kiss, someone who I had previously been unaware of spoke.
"Isabella Swan, how could you..." A smooth, melodic, angry voice asked.
I know you think you who that voice belongs too - but just remember that I'm known for my surprises!!!!!!
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