Dinner was Bellamy's famous spaghetti and a freshly made salad. The spaghetti wasn't the world's best, but it was the only thing Bellamy could really make without catching the house on fire. It was almost impossible to screw up while making pasta. Though there was that one time Bell burned the water, completely ruined the pot. Octavia loved to give him shit for it, but tonight she was quiet.
There was so much tension in the air everyone could sense it, except Bell. Bellamy was completely clueless. "So, how did the two of you meet?" He asked Clarke and Lexa with a smile on his face.
"Oh, well, we have an art class together over at the college. I spaced out one day and ended up drawing her. She noticed, and we got coffee after class." Clarke told him.
"Actually, I got a tea, I'm not really a coffee drinker." Lexa said waiving her hand dismissively. "And she forgot to mention she was drawing me naked."
Clarke's face turned red. "I was going to add clothes…"
"No you weren't, and you know it."
"But I did a good job at guessing what you looked like naked, you have to admit that."
"You drew my breasts three times their actual size, Clarke."
"You were wearing a pushup bra! It was false advertising!"
"Well, how was I supposed to know someone was going to be drawing me naked that day?" Lexa asked her exasperated.
"Wow, that's such an amazing story…" Raven said, barely hiding the sarcasm in her voice.
"Well, it tops how we met, that's for sure." Clarke said rolling her eyes.
"Do tell." Lexa said looking interested.
"Raven didn't like school, she hid under a desk on the first day of first grade."
"I almost got away with hiding under that desk. If SOMEONE wouldn't have given my location away."
"You were under MY desk! I was afraid of monsters, I thought you were a monster. How the hell was I supposed to know that it was a kid under my desk? I mean, who the hell hides under desks in the first grade?" Clarke asked, throwing her hands in the air.
"I got sent to the principal's office for that."
"And I got beat up on the playground. I think we're even."
"Wait, you got beat up?" Lexa asked surprised.
"Yeah, well, Octavia was a little rambunctious. She was mad that Raven was sent out of the classroom and that was all my fault." Clarke explained.
"Then how did you all end up friends?"
"Our parents were all called in. Both Octavia and I had to apologize to Clarke. Clarke's dad asked us if we wanted to go get ice cream. Clarke threw a tantrum, but we got ice cream anyway. By the end of the day we were best friends." Raven explained.
"I threw a tantrum because Octavia gave me a bloody nose, and you kept making the cut throat sign at me from across the principal's office. You two were crazy."
"Wait, so Octavia gave Clarke a bloody nose for getting Raven kicked out of the class room?" Lexa asked, looking at each girl as she said their names. "You think how we met was more entertaining than that?"
"Yeah, well, how we met involved you naked." Clarke explained with a half-smile.
"I wasn't actually naked. It doesn't count."
Their banter continued, but Raven had stopped paying attention. The little looks they kept giving each other were making her feel sick. Raven hated when people acted like that, the least they could do was wait until they were alone to be so cute together. Her eyes fell on Octavia. She hadn't made a sound the entire dinner, and currently had her head down, paying way too much attention to a carrot in her salad. Raven gently kicked her shin from across the table, but she refused to look up. She tried to get O's attention again, this time with a small cough, but to no avail. Raven knew she was upset with what had happened earlier, but she had never ignored the girl like this before. Octavia was Raven's monkey, she had been her monkey since they were 5 when she bumped her head while jumping off the bed.
"Jump higher!" Octavia giggled, grabbing Raven's little hand and jumping higher on her bed.
"This is so much fun! It's just like a trampoline!" Raven shrieked, jumping as high as she could. "We're just like those monkeys in that song Bellamy sings!"
"Two little monkeys jumping on the bed!" Octavia giggled.
"One fell off, and bumped her head!" Raven continued jumping off the bed and onto the floor, fake falling and bumping her head with a laugh.
"Mama called the doctor and the doctor said." Octavia said jumping higher on the bed.
"NO MORE MONKEYS JUMPING ON THE BED!" They both screamed in unison.
Octavia jumped higher again, but her foot hit the edge of the bed, twisting and sending her flying. Her head hit the play table not far from her bed. The corner of the table came into contact with her temple.
"Octavia!" Raven yelled running over to her. She didn't answer her friend. Raven saw blood, and freaked out. "BELLAMY!"
The girl knelt down next to Octavia, cradling her head in her lap. "Monkey, please open your eyes. You weren't supposed to really hit your head." She cried.
Raven shook her head to rid it of the memory. Someone had just asked something. "What?" She asked, looking around the table.
"I asked if any of you were dating anyone." Lexa said raising her eyebrow.
"Nope, I've been single since high school." Raven said with a shrug.
"I've been talking to a boy named Atom." Octavia said quietly.
The world felt like it had disappeared from under Raven's feet. Octavia hadn't told her a thing about a boy. She normally told her everything. Raven's heart broke a little, but she pushed her feelings for Octavia aside. Now wasn't the time to get crazy jealous over some boy. Octavia and she weren't dating, hell, chances were good that Octavia didn't even like girls like that. They joked around sometimes, but neither of them had ever admitted to liking girls. Raven dropped hints all the time, but had never actually come out to anyone.
"Well that's news." Bellamy said suddenly interested.
"It only just got kinda serious today. He asked me out on a date." Octavia said, cheeks turning pink. "He's cute."
"I'll have to meet him." Bellamy said puffing his chest out a little.
Raven shook her head a little. Nobody noticed. She decided then, that it was best for everyone if she just kept her mouth shut. Octavia never needed to know that she was madly in love with her. Maybe Raven had always known that keeping her mouth shut was the better option. If O knew, it would just ruin everything they had. Raven didn't want to think about her life without Octavia. Losing Clarke earlier that year had been enough to break her heart, if she lost Octavia too… She couldn't think about that.
The rest of dinner went by in a buzz. Raven was too wrapped up in her own head to notice anyone else. She stopped paying attention to the conversations. When everyone started clearing their dishes, she got up and rinsed her's off in the kitchen sink. When done she moved into the living room and sat down on the couch. Her heart and head hurt. Hell, everything hurt. She just wanted to go back to the dorm and crawl into bed. She wanted Octavia to talk to her about nothing, like she always did at night. She wanted O to absentmindedly run her fingers up and down Raven's shins like she did when she was watching the History Channel. Raven wanted to forget that today had happened, she especially wanted to forget the look on her best friend's face when she had called her out on not looking at her. Raven wanted to forget that she was talking to a boy. Wanted to forget everything but how she felt when she was with her. Things were changing now though, and that was the one thing the girl needed to forget. If she was going to keep her heart safe, if she was going to keep their friendship safe, she needed to forget about how Octavia made her feel inside.
