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Two words

Chapter 3

Tori's POV

This was horribly annoying. I get the courage up to do a small thing to late Jade know that a woman, me, likes her and I can't even find out what she thought of it. My plan was ruined because she went to the dentist this afternoon and wouldn't be back.

The rest of the day was hell. I felt bummed that my little plan went off the rails. I figured, two words that's simple. I give it to her and see he reaction and I find out where I stand. But NO, Jade has to get cavities and fuck it all up for me.

So once again I'm lying in bed starring at the ceiling thinking of Jade. This is semi common pastime for me these days. I had thought of talking to Trina about it, that is if she could stop stuffing her face with pickles for 5 minutes.

I do know my sister well enough that any answer she gave me would be of little help. She would mock me or simply tell everyone in school. Possibly she would simply say I was nuts or just laugh at me.

So I am going to do it again and hope for success.

I laid there for a while trying to think of something I could say in two words that I truly feel about her.

Then it came to me.

"You're Special"

It seemed ok, but it could be interpreted as an insult. So I thought some more.

"You're Amazing"

That sounded right. So as before I cut out a strip of the pink paper and wrote the message on it in neat letters I decided to go with the same perfume. I didn't want any doubt that it wasn't from the same person.

I decided to do something else, and send Jade a text, asking how the dentist went. I know I was only asking for trouble but I'm not going to give up.

To Jade: I heard you were at the dentist, I hope it went well and you feel better.

A minute later her response came

To Tori: Were not friends, why do you care?

That was not very insulting or mean, but actually very direct and to the point which I felt almost hurt even more.

I was feeling a bit frustrated and down so I gave her a direct answer back.

To Jade: I consider you a friend and I care about my friends, I guess I'm just wasting my time I'm sorry I bothered you. Good night.

I think I put a little too much of my anger and frustration into that text. I looked down at the little note I had prepared.

"Maybe this is pointless She should know I care about people and she should know I care about her. If she hasn't learned that about me yet than I am really wasting my time."

I was just about to crumple up my note and toss it out when my phone began to ring. The caller Id said it was Jade.

"What do you want, to make me feel even more miserable? Why won't you like me?" I yelled at the phone as it continued to ring. I then put the note on the desk next to the ringing phone and walked out of the room.

I refuse to let her ruin the rest of my evening so I just decided to put it all aside tonight. I had been trying to write a song and decided to work on that for a bit. I had the music mostly written and some Junk lyrics to go along until I get the melody right. Sometimes songwriters will have an initial set of lyrics for a song which is just temporary. The Beatles song "Yesterday", the first set of lyrics was about scrambled eggs.

I sat down at the piano with the sheet music and paper. Trina was sitting on the couch watching the latest Real housewives of random city reality show. I swear that's all she watches.

After about an hour I had the music down, it was a slow ballad. The lyrics were always harder than the music itself for me to write.

A set of words came to me

"I'm just a shadow in your life,

But I want to be so much more,

I want to be the bright shining sun

That lights up your world

That sounded pretty good, but I couldn't think of anything else at the moment, so I put it aside and went back to my room.

I looked at the phone, Jade had called twice but didn't leave a voice mail. There were a few from jade and one from cat.

To Tori: Answer your phone Vega.

A few minutes later came Jade's 2nd txt.

To Tori: You're ignoring me now aren't you

Shortly after that I received a random text from cat which was all too typical.

To Tori: I wish puppies were made of rainbows.

Finally a final text from Jade.

To Tori: My jaw feel's like someone punched it, I'll be fine, thanks for asking.

I couldn't help but wonder why she changed her mind. My note perhaps, I wondered.

I then carefully put the note for Jade into my purse for tomorrow and started to get ready for bed.

I drifted off to sleep and once again began to dream about a certain Raven Haired, Goth girl.

I was less nervous the next day as I walked into school. Hopefully I won't throw up afterward. I ate a light breakfast just in case.

I went to my locker and opened it up.

"VEGA" A loud voice suddenly yelled out from directly behind me startling me completely.

I turned around to see Jade standing behind me, her typical smirk on her face and a cup of coffee in her hand.

"Jeeze Jade, You scared the crap out of me" I complained.

Jade took a sip of her coffee and said "That was the whole point of it Vega, that's what you get for not answering my calls."

"Uh Jade, I kind of got the impression you didn't want to talk with me"

Jade frowned, "If I didn't want to talk with you I wouldn't have called you"

"Then why did you call me?" I replied.

"I wanted to know what got into you, getting all snippy with me. That was very Un Vega like behavior of you"

I wasn't sure where Jade was going with this "I got the impression you didn't want to hear from me after your text so I was being straight."

Her face took a look of ever so slight remorse. "Look Vega, I was feeling like crap last night, You were just trying to be nice. Forget what I said"

I think I could have almost fallen over in shock, was Jade actually apologizing to me?

I didn't expect that at all.

I just smiled, "No worries, Jade, I hope you are feeling better"

She rubbed her jaw on the left side of her face. "I feel better, thanks, though were still not friends" She said as she walked away.

I just stood there thinking, Wow for a whole second she was actually being decent to me?" I'd be lying if I didn't enjoy just that little bid of Jade Niceness. I found myself wanting more, lots and lots more.

I saw Jade disappear around a corner and decided to strike then and quickly slipped the note in her locker. I just wanted to get it in there. Again no one seemed to notice and as a bonus though I was nervous, I didn't throw up this time.

Between classes in the morning I tried to catch a glimpse of Jade at her locker, hoping to see the reaction on her face she found it. I saw her at her locker between 2nd and 3rd period once but it didn't appear that she had seen it or already had

I had her in 2 classes in the morning and she didn't act any differently. Either she hadn't found it or didn't want to show her emotions.

Lunch would be the true test.

I came to lunch and she was sitting there impassively eating her salad along with the rest of the group. I greeted them as I usually do. Beck, Cat, Robbie and Andre all greeted me warmly. Jade just looked at me with a board look on her face and said "Vega"

During lunch I tried to study her and see if there was any sign. Of course there was nothing, she seemed to show little emotion at all during lunch.

I couldn't help but think "What is she part Vulcan or something, can't show any emotions?" Two fucking days in a row there is a nice note for her and she acts like nothing happened.

Oh she can show anger of course, I've seen that lots of times, I want to see the other emotions.

Though as lunch went on I did notice one thing, she seemed less emotional than usual. It was like she was trying to deliberately trying to mask something. "Was that a good sign or a bad one?" I wondered to myself.

I had been stalemated once again in my efforts to get some reaction to Jade. I found myself wanting to just shake her and say "Notice me, like me, let me make you happy."

I felt so much for her, it all comes flowing up through me every time I see her walk into a room. Every time she says my name, I feel special. On those rare occasions where she called me Tori, I just wanted to melt with happiness.

She spent the rest of the day playing the part of Mrs. Spock to a T. I couldn't get reading out of her at all. I was feeling even more frustrated. She's playing her cards very close to her chest.

At the end of the day I saw her walking across the parking lot towards her car. I studied her for a few seconds. She was now wearing sunglasses so it would be impossible to even guess what she was thinking. She finally noticed me and I just smiled and waved.

She paused to look at me for a moment, I could almost see the hint of a smile on her lips for a moment but then it seemed to go away. She then just got in her car and drove off.

She couldn't hide her feelings forever; eventually she will crack, so I decided to indulge myself with two more words.

The reference to Mr. Blunden in the last chapter was a reference to Victorious creator Dan Schneider. He played high school student Dennis Blunden on the 80's Sitcom, Head of the class. A pretty good show in my humble opinion.