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(Sam, POV) - Italicized is the letter

I took another sip, hell a slug of beer. Budlight to be exact.
I had to it was the only way I could continue reading the letters. The letters Carly hadn't sent me.

I'm sorry I left Sam I wish I hadn't. Back when you and I were in the elevator, I wanted to tell you something, actually I wanted to do something. I wanted us to do something. I wanted to kiss you.

I almost choked on the beer I was swallowing. "What the..." I whispered.

and no not a goodbye kiss, but a romantic kiss. A first kiss.

Fuck, what the fuck. I took another sip, finishing the beer and pulling out a new one. Carly what were you thinking?
You silly girl, so lost.

I wish you hadn't shared your first kiss with Freddie, I wish you'd shared it with me. Sam we could've so much more.

Carly, no. Why didn't you tell me.

I wish I could've told you Sam, but I never got the courage. I never wanted to lose you, if you had said "no" I wouldn't have been able to move on. So I just never said anything.

"Carly" Sam cried.

I through the letter across the room, the last letter Carly ever wrote. The last thing she told me was a confession.
"Fuck" I screamed.

I never get to see you again, or talk to you, or anything. Cause your dead. "Why Carly?" I weeped.
I slugged some more beer. (The first off many) You could've told me. We could've been more.

"Sam" A familiar voice whispered.

"Go away." I cried.

"I know it hurts sam but you can't disappear like this." Freddie said.

"Oh yeah, well fuck you." I screamed.

Then he pointed at the empty beer bottles. "Have you been drinking?"

"I said go away."

"I'm sorry, Sam." He sighed. "But your not alone, you don't have to be. I know what your going through."

"No I don't think you do." I whispered.

"What are you talking about, we both lost her. Not just you, WE."

"At least you got closure, not just more confusion." I said still crying.

"What are you talking about?" He asked.

"Get the hell away from me." I screamed loud enough to be heard next door.

Carly you're right we could have been so much more. Why didn't you just say something.


A/N - First off before anyone comments about it, Sam said the last line because she wanted Carly back anyway possible even if it meant that way; whether Sam felt the same or not. Second I hope to update soon.

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