Bella's POV
It has been two days since Seth was bitten by the vampire during the Victoria confrontation. His wounds were healing though slowly. Normally werewolves heal extremely quickly but there were so many and they were so severe that his body was taking a longer time trying to heal each wound.
Seth has been unconscious ever since we brought him back to Carlisle's place; he doesn't move and shows no signs of waking up. The only signs of life we get are him grunting and wincing ever so often. Carlisle says that the transformation from human to vampire is the most painful experience a person will ever feel, their blood will burn inside of their veins and it won't stop for days. Since Seth was a werewolf I wondered if the burning would feel as bad as it would to a human though I could only imagine the kind of trauma his body is enduring.
Leah was taking it hard, she feared that Seth would become a vampire and that would be the worst thing in the world for her. That's what I think everyone feared most, that if Seth became a vampire that his family, the pack would reject him. There have been so much conflict between the werewolves and the vampires that maybe having someone have the blood of both would some how resolve it or it could just provoke it even more.
Carlisle insisted that his body was reacting fairly well to the transformation given the circumstances.
"I have seen many transformations take place and by looking his body seems to be handling it quite normally. It is both a good thing and bad that he is unconscious. Since he is not conscious he does not feel the full extent of the transformation, his mind is free to wonder off and be side tracked from what is happening. Though it would be nice to get an actual update from the host" Carlisle said, he was intrigued by the situation. He clearly has never seen anything like this and was anxious to figure out what was going to happen to Seth.
"Do you think he will become a vampire?" I asked.
"It is tough to say, his skin is still russet with no signs of paleness but his body temperature is decreasing, at this rate it won't reach mine or Edward's temperature but it will not be as warm as a regular werewolf." Carlisle explained, intrigued by his own data.
"What do you think will happen to him, with his family" I asked, concerned.
"That I cannot answer, I have never met an entire pack of werewolves nor their family member, and I don't know how they would react. If they are a real family, and really love Seth then they will accept him no matter what happens" Carlisle said hopefully.
"With all the hostility they hold with all the vampires that is hard to imagine" I said with a hopeless face, I hope I was wrong.
"You would be surprised, I have seen families persevere through tough times and come together when they call for it." He said, I hoped he was right.
Seth's POV
I could not take it anymore; my blood felt like it was going to burst through my veins and pour out of me. It was swishing back and fourth, incredibly fast. My heart beat insanely fast and it never stopped, every beat felt like someone hitting my chest with a hammer.
My blood changes temperature every few minutes, it could be burning hot one minute and then it could feel like it is a step away from freezing. My blood was already naturally hot but it seemed to be going hotter and hotter, more than ever before trying to make sure my blood never gets cold again but when it gets so hot it feels like my skin is going to melt off.
The cold was worse though, it had been a while since I had been cold but this was far beyond anything I had ever felt before. Even when I would go into the snow before I phased for the first time I never felt this cold. When the cold blood set in I could sense my body trembling, the coldness reached my head and my brain felt like it was going to explode, my body felt like it was going to explode. With all of the violent temperature changes I did not know how much longer I would be able to hang on.
I tried to wake up so I could tell the others what is happening but it was as if I was watching myself and trying to coach it from a distance but no matter how much I tried I could not get my body to regain consciousness. I tried hard to think about other things to ignore the pain and get through it but as soon as I would drift off a little bit into something else a surge of pain would dart through my entire body like electricity to remind me what was happening.
Becoming a vampire was not something I wanted to happen, I did liked vampires and I was always intrigued by them but at this rate it is the last thing I want to do. I was not sure how I would look, how I would act. I did not want to become a vampire and lose control. I have read stories about vampires not being able to control their thirst and killing anything that has blood, even people they cared about and it was terrifying, I was afraid that it would happen to me. If I ever caught myself attacking someone I cared about it would wreck my mind, I don't know what I would do. Forgiving myself would not be possible.
What scared me the most was my family, I knew how they felt about vampires and even though I tried not to admit it some of them may never accept me as a vampire. I often heard people from the pack talking about their feelings towards vampires and at the time I only thought of it as a bit immature and ignorant but now it worries me because how they feel could affect what happens to me.
Jacob often talked to me about how he despised all of the vampires, especially Edward. He never listened to reason, when I tried to convince him that not all vampires were killers he would just shake his head, blocking me out and reverting to his claims about how all vampires, especially the Cullens were no good. Even though he said those things I think he would look past it if I became one of them, the main reason he despised vampires was because Bella was in love with one. If that were not the case then I think he might even listen to me.
My dad would have accepted me, I never really knew how he felt towards vampires but I can tell just by how he acted that he would love me no matter what. I wish I could say the same for my Leah and my mother. They loved me a lot any would do anything for me but they both hated vampires so much, instead of just ignoring me like Jacob does when I try to convince him that not all vampires are bad they get so aggressive and claim that all vampires need to be destroyed. They say that the treaty is wrong and a mistake by our elders, they think that the Cullens should be taken out as soon as possible. If I were turned into a vampire I really have no idea how they will react, it is hard to be optimistic in this situation. When I am not thinking about my veins exploding I am thinking about my entire life exploding.
