-Hey, um this is Cristina Yang. I would like to speak to dr. Nolan.
-Okay. Wait a second, please.
Her hands started sweat and she breathed heavily.
-Dr Yang! I was waiting for your call. Why did it took you so long to call me back? - dr Nolan said to her nicely.
- Uh, you know it-it-it wasn't a very easy decision for me. But I guess I...I've made a chose- Cristina replied and she felt
like the world is going to set on fire just in one second.
-And?
-When do I have to be in Canada?
- Ah, dr Yang! I'm so glad you agreed to my offer - dr Nolan said that like a 9-year old girl who just got a lolipop. - Is Wednesday ok for you?
- Yes, totally.
- Fine. I will book you flight and send you a message. Or I will call you
- Ok thank you, dr Nolan
- No. thank You dr Yang. It will be so nice to have you here
Cristina didn't replied and ended their conversation. She went to her kitchen, took a bottle of cheap wine and sat on couch.'' Have I made a good decision?''
she was wondering. Her hands were still shaking and she couldn't control it.
It was 5:20 am when she got paged. She woke up with a little headache and went to work. There were a lot of patients in the pit and she had to take care of almost
all of them. she was there with Callie and she saw that Cristina is a little bit distracted for a couple days now.
- Cristina, Cristina. W-Wait. I am just.. Is there anything ok with you? - callie raised her eyebrow and asked quietly
- Yeah, why do you ask?
- You've been distracted since last week, you are here almost 24/7, you drink more coffee, you're not so sarcastic anymore, but I don't complain about that
and you haven't brush your hair since like...world war II? I mean, come on, I know that not everything is okay.
Cristina rolled her eyes and breathed heavily.
- Even Karev noticed that
- What? So are you guys like gossip about me now? - Cristina said nervously
- No no no..Listen, this is my last patient. After I take care of him we can talk about all that creepy, dark and twisty stuff you're going through,
all right? - callie said to her and smiled
Cristina looked at her, started laugh a little because she thought Callie is joking but then she realised that Callie is not laughing. Cristina stared at her
and couldn't say a word
- I'll take that as yes - dr torres replied with her huge smile and walked to her patient
Cristina stand there and she started thinking about what just happend. She said "whatever'' to herself and walked away from the pit.
-In Canada? Are you serious? Oh my god this is awesome - Callie was so hppy when she found about Cristina's new job - But you will stay there
like, forever..And you'll never come back?
- Possibly - she replied to Callie and stared at her coffee cup.
- Oh no. That's not awesome. that's..That's horrible. We will lost so baddass cardio goddess. - Callie's face had turned sad
- Yeah...- Cristina replied and ran a hand through her hair
- Does anybody else knows?
- No. I don't talk to Meredith, Karev has his own stuff with his cute little princess intern...
- What about Owen? - callie asked with an emotion in her voice
Cristina looked at the ceiling then at Callie and she smiled slightly.
- He won't even look at me. All he sees in me is...his lost time. His lost opportunities and dreams. He imagined himself as a dad,
he imagined how our baby will look like and I...I killed it. Literally. And he still can't forget about it -she wiped a tear from her cheek
-You know, sometimes I feel like he even can't look at me. I wish I could change my life goals.I would like to change it but I can not. This is who I am.
Besides, he has Emma now. And believe me or not - Im really happy for them. I really want to see him as a dad. He will be really amazing as
a loving husband and passionate dad. He will.
-Cristina...- Callie grabbed her hand and looked at her with sadness.
- Crap. You realise, that I have to kill you know? You know to much- she smiled slightly and walked out leaving Callie alone in the cafeteria.
Suddenly Callie heard someone's footsteps.
- I'm sorry, I was just walking past and heard your converastion...I'm...Was she serious? She is really leaving GSM? And never coming back?
- yes. you know her better than me. Besides, you should really talk to her, Owen. She needs it. I gotta go.
