For as long as Allen can remember, Cross Marian took Allen under his wing since Mana died.

The reason why Mana died was unknown. The reason how Mana died was unknown. No one ever seemed to tell Allen anything. He knew Mana was just a clown, trying to earn money by travelling around and entertaining people; yet once, he heard him speak about a ''Cross Marian''.

Cross Marian, that took him under his wing, treats him as if he is a mere pawn and always demanded for Allen to pay for his bills.
Ever since Mana died, he had been used to being on his own, earning money through sharpened 'Poker Skills', and paying off Cross' bills.

Allen knew that Cross Marian was familiar with Mana, but why did he keep his mouth closed? Allen was the one most close to Mana. Allen loved Mana, and promised Mana to always keep on walking forward; no matter where life would take him. Even after everything they've been through, he hadn't heard a single word about Mana anymore.

Mana, the man he had always seen as a father, gone, as if he never even existed.


( Flashback )

"OI, IDIOT APPRENTICE!", Cross threw a wine bottle near Allen. "I'm gonna go with these ladies here, make sure to pay the bills!"

Allen dove into a corner and nodded in fear to his master, Cross Marian.

"Get it? I'll find you later and don't make yourself dirty, I hate dirty things!"
"Y-Y..Yes..", whispered Allen.

While Cross left, Allen sighed and started to walk around the markets which were set up in the town, thinking about how he would pay the bills.
He noticed a small boy, a bit taller than himself, sitting all alone near a fountain; and got curious enough to talk to him. Allen slowly walked to the boy.
The boy had long, dark purple hair and arrogant eyes. The boy looked way more mature than Allen even though he could be around the same age.
Something seemed off, his eyes seemed so distant and lonely.
"You..", Allen poked the boy.
"Are you okay?"

The boy turned his face and stared with an arrogant deadly glare at the pure face of Allen, took a peek at his weird white hair, which he had never seen before on someone so young, and scar on his face, but gave in to his innocent smile. The boy himself was surprised that he gave in and blushed slightly. No one ever dared to talk to him like that, because of his deadly stares. Despite Allen's appearance,
He answered;

"White".

"White?", asked Allen out of surprise.

"You're like a white flower, a pure color and no other color can affect or interfere with your color. So fragile, yet sturdy".

Allen didn't understand the boy's words, and tempted to ask what he meant by that; but it was too late.
The boy already turned around and walked away. Allen stared at his back and a million questions bumped into his head.
'Who's that?' 'Where did he come from?'
Allen placed his hands on eachother and moved them on his chest.
He gently whispered out heart warming words with his eyes closed; "I promise, I'll meet you again, to ask what it means, one day",

"One day, I'm sure..".


"Hua, ...nnghh...hh...hu.., HAAA!", Allen sat straight, wide awake on the couch, wiping the drool off of his cheek. "Damn! I've been off dreaming again.. but for some reason, it feels like I just remembered something important, wait.., what was it again?".

Allen took his shirt off and grabbed the remote control, to turn the TV on. "Oh, that reminds me..", started Allen while he yawned, "..I thought Cross was going to send me something, called 'Timcanpy', but.. it's already been over a month and its still not here".

He browsed through the uninteresting channels that were on the television at this time, which made him look out of his window and saw it was already evening. "HUH?!", Allen blinked twice. "It's evening?!".
Allen dropped the remote control as soon as his stomach growled and ran to the kitchen. He looked inside the fridge and started to gather ingredients to make his dinner.
"FIRST! The miso.. miso.. ingredients..hmm..", whispered Allen to himself.


In the meanwhile, Kanda walked around in circles in his own room. Shall I visit the bean sprout? No..I shouldn't. Maybe he's busy? Why am I eagerly waiting to see him again?! For some reason, his face seemed familiar, as if I had seen him before. But where.. where could that be..? Che. This is pissing me off.

Kanda sat down on the ground into a meditate-position and closed his eyes. I shall meditate, maybe it'll help clear my mind. This whole bean sprout thing is stuck in my head- why won't it leave?! Che.

...

...

...

"Che. This isn't helping!", nagged Kanda while his eyebrows twitched.
Kanda got up annoyed like hell and got hold of his katana. "This is seriously pissing me off now!". The Japanese boy decided he should take his anger out by training. He walked to the blue fluffy couch, where somehow his long black jacket rested on, and equipped it.
That damn bean sprout...- NO! I need to stop thinking about him or I'm gonna lose my temper.

Kanda didn't notice the fact that this made him blush.

Kanda equipped black leather shoes that almost reached his knees, then opened the front door. "Che. I need to pass the bean sprouts door..".
He stepped in the modern hallway of the building and closed the door behind him. Kanda sighed and stared into direction he had to walk. I don't wanna do this.. The bean sprout has been giving me weird thoughts already..
"Shut up already, idiot brain of mine, Its not like I'm scared! Hell I'd be scared. Who do I think I am!?", whispered Kanda annoyed.
He slowly started to head in the direction. "Che. I'll just get it over and done with".

Kanda tempted to run past Allen's door, but for some reason his feet didn't allow him to. He quit walking infront of Allen's door. What am I doing? I'm not myself!

Allen placed the dishes he cooked on the dining table, and looked around if he didn't forget anything.
"Miso soup.., lets see.., tempura, donburi, sukiyaki, beef stew, uhm.. omu..omuraisu..", Allen smelled the delicious scent that came from his food. Kanda bought soba, does that mean he likes soba? Eehh.. I've never tried soba before. I wouldn't mind learning how to cook it for him but-... ...FOR HIM!? Allen slapped his head against the wall. Why am I thinking of him at a time like this?! HIM, Kanda Yuu, out of all people!? Allen felt a slight blush covering his pale cheeks. For now, I should just eat this tasty food..
He started to drool and was about to sit down to eat-, until he heard a noise coming from his front door. Huh? Aaah! I was about to eat all this delicious food! PFF. But I guess I should check out the noise. Allen sighed dramatically.

CRAP! I bumped against his door. I hope he isn't home or didnt hear my noise. It was kind of a loud noise, so if he was home he would have noticed it..
Kanda sighed relieved but still became desperate and looked around for a solution. This is so unlike me, what should I do?!
He moved a bit backwards and leaned against the wall, pretending he didn't do anything. Che. Why don't I just leave?

Allen inspected his front door, and then opened it. He stared right in the eyes of the surprised Kanda Yuu that didn't saw that one coming.
Shit, Allen- I mean the bean sprout heard..
All Kanda could do was giving Allen a small threatening glare.
Allen blinked when he saw the look on Kanda's face that seemed different from before. I don't feel like fighting with Kanda again, I should probably just try to get along.
He smiled innocently to Kanda, which caused Kanda's hand to fold in a fist.
How can this annoying bean sprout smile like that? Doesn't he find himself annoying?

"Che". Kanda looked away to make sure the bangs of his hair would hide the faint blush on his cheeks. Kanda actually felt that Allen was looking at him.
"Kanda, did you hear anything? I heard a really strange sound", asked Allen. Maybe it was Kanda that accidentally made the sound?

"Shut up, you're too loud", answered Kanda as he crossed his arms.
"Huh? Could it maybe be.. that you did that?", Allen smirked and tried to look at Kanda's face that was halfway hidden because of his bangs. Kanda is kind of cute. He might have this really old annoyed hag attitude but still.. right now, something feels different. I wonder if he just doesn't quite know how to show his feelings. Allen placed his hand on his mouth, noticing he shouldn't think any further since that would make him feel embarrassed.

"Why would I do that!?", yelled Kanda as he turned his face to Allen , tempting to draw Mugen and slice his head off. S-Shit.. I turned my head.. I hope he didn't notice. And I seriously don't want the idiot rabbit to see me like this. Never. He would make fun of me for the rest of my life. Che. My pride is falling.

Allen suddenly remembered he still had to eat his dinner, but didn't intend on leaving Kanda there. I.. I g-guess atleast inviting him inside wouldn't hurt?
"Kanda, I just made dinner and was about to eat, but..", -
He's seriously about to ask me to come inside? I want to say yes..
Kanda interrupted arrogantly, "Oi, idiot, do you seriously think that any one would want to come inside a house of a person that looks so cursed?", I'm wrong, why am I saying things I don't mean?!, "You have white hair at such a young age, what are you? Bean sprout. It's ugly. You're seriously smiling towards me? Don't make me laugh. Your innocent face pisses me off..,". No, that's not it.. that's not what I meant.., "together with that scar!". Kanda smirked. "Che, serves you right!". No.. I should stop! Why won't my body listen to me!

Allen opened his eyes as wide as he could, surprised and hurt by what he said. Allen's innocent expression vanished, while the loneliness in his eyes became visible.

Mana..

Kanda looked at Allen, and realized he said too much.
"Oi, you..", Kanda became unsure what to do since he never ever experienced something like this. Shit..

Allen quickly turned his expression into a fake smile when he noticed Kanda was actually about to try to cheer him up. No.. I don't want this..
"Oh, I see, Kanda. I got more stuff to do so if you'll excuse me-..". ..I want to be alone..
"What are you saying idiot? Why are you smiling?" Che. I'm not good at this.

Allen quickly got inside, closed the door and burst out into silent tears. He kneeled down on the ground as he felt the pain sting in every inch of his body.

"Oi! Open up!", yelled Kanda. He's so persistent! Can't he open up already?!

Instead, Allen ignored his surroundings and got sucked back into his bad memories.

I don't want this.. leave me alone!


This chapter was kinda weird o.O sorry for the mistakes. EY. Who should become the seme and who the uke!?
Tell meh! Ofcourse not for now, but waaay latter. -winks-. \o/ ENJOY!

This is making me feel like an idiot xD oh and, if you don't understand something feel free to ask.