Edited! Just because I'm completely obsessive about editing everything! ^^


"And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain

thrilled me-filled me with fantastic terrors never known before.

So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating:

"'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door-

this it is, and nothing more.""


Yugi didn't know what to do with himself anymore. Ever since Atemu had passed on, he hardly left the game shop. He alienated himself from his friends, claiming that he wanted "alone-time." Everyone knew, however, that "alone" was the last thing he needed.

Even when Yugi's days were damned enough, the true horror of his life began when he fell asleep, if he ever did fall asleep. He was consistently plagued by terrifying nightmares; always reoccurring every night in his mind. He flashed back to happier times with his friends: Duelist's Kingdom, Battle City, and even the struggles with the Seal of Orichalcos; and they all revolved around one central figure- his Yami. He would watch the content days pass by until the end of the dream. This was the point where they would turn into nightmares. He dreamt about Atemu suffering for thousands of years in the Shadow Realm, being controlled and manipulated by his emotions to serve Dartz and the Orichalcos; thus sealing Yugi away, but mostly of the end of the Ceremonial Duel.

The last day Yugi saw Atemu was both the happiest, and the saddest day of his life. He had finally told him his true feelings towards him, and he accepted and returned them; only to leave him immediately after. For months, Yugi could still feel Atemu's warm lips against his. But his love wanted him to abandon his memory after he left? That caused an overbearing of pain on his heart. He couldn't help but hate his Yami for that.

Yugi would wake up screaming and crying after every night terror. Grandpa would rush into his bedroom, no matter how late at night, to try to comfort him out of his dreamlike trance. After hours of consolation, Yugi would slowly fall back asleep, but would continue to whimper throughout the duration of the night.

After a few weeks of these relentless experiences had passed, Grandpa finally took his grandson to a doctor, and then a psychiatrist. Neither of them could find a physiological reason to them, but determined that they were brought on by "unspecified emotional trauma." He was prescribed strong anti-depressants and sedatives for his symptoms.

Unfortunately, neither of the medications proved useful. Yugi still had nightmares of increasing intensity, and had even more difficulty falling asleep than before. He also started becoming incredibly aggressive when he was ever challenged or questioned regarding any matter. He didn't even play Duel Monsters anymore; not because of his aggression, but because it reminded him too much of Yami, and he could never make it past the first few turns without becoming overly emotional.

One night, after a particularly daunting experience, Yugi's brain subconsciously focused on the bottles of medication he kept beside his bed.

He devised a fool-proof plan.

Yugi reached out and grabbed the small orange bottles and dumped their contents out onto his desk. There were currently twenty two anti-depressants and sixteen sleeping pills. He popped two of each, but it wasn't enough. Yugi clambered over the pills until there was naught but one anti-depressant pill remaining on the desk. He gingerly placed the pill back into its bottle, and placed both containers back on the bedside table.

Everything was spinning fuzzily now. Yugi could hardly maintain his balance as he lost feeling in both of his legs. Stumbling around in a daze, he tripped over an old notebook, and crashed ungracefully into the desk, shattering several picture frames and paperweights; and waking Grandpa.


In unconsciousness, the youth was in complete euphoria. His heart knew no pain or sadness anymore, and his soul felt free. There was also a familiar warmth surrounding him...such a familiar feeling... it was-


Yugi awoke suddenly to a massive pain in his stomach. He smelled antiseptic, and all he could hear was an odd beeping sound. Opening his eyes slowly, he looked around, and saw not only Grandpa, but Joey, Kaiba, Mokuba, Tristan, Tea and Ryou looking at him with concern.

"Oh, he's awake!"Mokuba called quietly to the rest of his friends gathered there. Joey uncrossed his arms and sauntered towards the monotone hospital bed Yugi was laying in. His eyes were illegible, but you could tell that there was a lot of emotion behind them. When the blonde was closer to Yugi, he clenched his fists and lowered his face to meet his friend's.

"...Why...? Yug, you're the last person on th' planet I would have expected this from! Why'd ya wanna kill yourself? You haven't talked to us for months, and nobody knows what's goin' on with ya!" There were tears in his eyes as he said this.

Tea piped up in response. "Yugi, we're all here for you. We're your friends, but we don't even know what's going on inside your head anymore. Ever since the Pharaoh left, you've changed so much that I hardly remember who you are anymore."

Upon mentioning Atemu, Yugi's nostrils flared and eyes narrowed. He glared at Tea and yelled, "You don't know anything! You didn't have your life torn apart by a spirit that spurned your feelings and then left you completely alone! I want to find him to tear his fucking eyes out! I'm sick and tired of all the nightmares I've been having about him! I love him, but he just makes me so...angry!"

The group stared at Yugi with "deer-in-the-headlights" looks. Yugi flinched at his own outburst, and lowered his gaze to his hands. He noticed now that he had been clenching his fingers so tight that blood was welling up from his palms. Ryou took in a deep breath and was the first one to speak; or more accurately, yell.

"You think you're the only one that was affected by all this? Dream on Yugi. You didn't think I felt the same about my Yami? I hated him, and loved him; but I never wanted to kill myself when he disappeared." He slapped Yugi across the face, leaving the room with an echo of the sound. "You need to grow up and stop living in the past."

Yugi stared at the whitette as he stomped out of the room in a rage. Everyone's eyes followed him, but nobody dared move a muscle. 'Ryou was never a person that would speak up or get angry with anyone! I guess Bakura's mannerisms rubbed off on him after time.' he thought to himself.

"So, what are you going to do now?" The silence was broken by Kaiba, unexpectedly. He never showed any sort of emotion for anyone other than Joey, so everyone was shocked at his apparent show of concern.

"...Nothing. I'm going to sleep, so go away." Yugi muttered quietly. He pulled the hospital sheets over his head and closed his eyes. His friends whispered,

"I'll see you guys later.": Tea

"See ya later, Yug. C'mon Seto, Mokuba.": Joey

"Feel better soon, ok Yugi?": Tristan

Grandpa was the only one who remained silent throughout the conversation. He remained in the hospital room and sat in the chair in the corner exhausted. He rubbed his temples in frustration. 'This is all my fault. I was the one that gave the Millenium Puzzle to Yugi...How could this have gone so wrong?' he thought to himself. As he sat, his exhaustion caught up with him, and he fell into a hard state of sleep.

When Yugi was sure his Grandpa was asleep and everyone had left, he pulled back the covers of the bed. His stomach still hurt from whatever they had done while he was unconscious, but he didn't stop for a second while he stood up. He paused, however, to give a silent farewell to his grandfather. Night after night he had helped him through his issues, and all he gave in return were more things to worry about.

'Gomen. I just have to see him.' Yugi mouthed soundlessly.

A/N: Well hello there. Have I seen you around often? Why, as a matter of fact, I have, because you're all still reading this ^^

Bakura: You sound like a creep.

Riv: How do you know that I'm not a creep to begin with?

Bakura: Touché.

Riv: And something I forgot to mention in the last chapter but you may have already figured it out, Yami is indeed a total and complete ASSHOLE! ...occasionally.

Bakura: Don't you mean "all of the time"?

Riv: No, thats for Yugi being a total spazzy drama queen. Mostly... And yes, I do have Tendershipping and implied Puppyshipping in there. Now Ryou-kun, would you like to do the honours?

Ryou: *sigh* RiverTear980 does not own "The Raven" or "Yu-Gi-Oh". They are the creations of Edgar Allen Poe and Kazuki Takahashi, respectively. She still does not own a soul, but she is trying to find one on Ebay. It's not really working.

Riv: Why thank you, Ryou-kun. *gives a chocolate cake* you may share that with everyone if you wish.

Bakura: *puppy eyes*

Ryou: ...ok. *gives half the cake to Bakura*

Bakura: Yum! Riv's cakes are the best ^^

Riv: Yes...and all of you very nice and brilliant people that review, fave and alert this (which many have already, thank you very VERY much :D) will get their own cake... and if you bash, I may or may not put just a little poison in the cake... maybe.

Super special awesome thanks out to yugixyamiyaoilover, -Breanna-Higurashi-, Doragon-chan and YamiHeart for reviewing! I made them really yummy cake ^^