Whatcha doing?
Emily had known everything going on in Bella s life Bella had to quit when she couldn t stay out of the hospital for longer than two weeks. When Bella had finally gotten the treatments under control, it was Emily who convinced the owner of the shop to rehire Bella. There was no use lying to her. She would see right through her fa ade.
I can t stop thinking of him. I try and try and I just damn it I just want him. I wish it had never happened. Why did this all have to happen to me?
You got it bad girl! I don t know why you didn t trust him to make his own decision about you.
What do you mean?
Bells listen, you re a smart girl but you made a stupid decision.
She put the pen down and let out a sigh why should she feel such anguish I need to clear my mind. she started to stare out the window of the boutique leaning over the counter legs crossed one behind the other while she stared she got lost in thought daydreaming about her knight in shining armor it seemed like only yesterday he was in her life opening car doors for her never showing up without a beautiful arrangement of flowers she was so miserable that he was not in her life she knew it was her fault. She didn t want him to be with her in the hospital didn t want him to watch her die. He had to remember her the way she was so she told him that she had to let him go never giving him a reason. He told all his friends she couldn t handle something good in her life. That she would rather be miserable and alone, she knew this shouldn t bother her that he was only trying to make himself feel better. Now that there was a good chance that she would grow to be an old woman maybe now she could finally tell him why she left him all alone that night
On the drive back to her house, she turned the radio up and tried to concentrate on the road. She had all the windows down, enjoying the wind blowing through her long locks (that had finally grown back in). She did the right thing, she knew she did, he was happy now she didn t want to destroy that. She had just been through so much lately. She missed his companionship, the way he always made her feel better. She remembered watching her own mother die, what a terrible experience to watch the one you love deteriorate in front of your eyes. Such helplessness knowing there was nothing you could do for them. She hadn t wanted him to go through that she loved him enough to let him go.
Bella remembered when they first met, She had been in Bookworms looking for a good read and he was sitting at the table drinking a cappuccino and reading a Stephen King Novel but she could feel his eyes staring at her over the book, yet every time she glanced in that direction he was reading the book again. At the checkout line she saw him again he was two people ahead of her in line. Right away she felt an instant attraction to him it was something about his smile. It was just so genuine.
Next
Startled she proceeded to pay for her purchase and knocked the image of this sexy male out of her head.
Allow Me
He had her bag before she even had the chance to say no.
I m Edward and he held out his hand With the exception of interviews she never remembered shaking someone s hand.
Bella she half told half asked
Well Bella I hope you didn t have any prior plans.
Why s that?
Well, because I am taking you out to dinner tonight.
Is that so?
Sure enough she agreed. He allowed her to drive to the restaurant that night so that she felt safer not just getting in the car with some stranger but how did he know if she would really show up or not she could easily have just gone home. But that smile that smile made her want to know everything about him.
When she reached The Creek , a nice restaurant on the outskirts of town, Edward was standing outside waiting for her with a single rose in his hand. She felt safe from the start not even questioning it.
Did you really have plans to break?
Just reading the books I bought today.
Good I don t ever do this sort of thing, but since the moment I saw you I just had to know you.
Laughing Bella said I am glad to hear that I never do this either, I thought I was insane today.
They talked and laughed through dinner having a very nice time staying well past the arrival of the bill. Throughout dinner they talked openly about their lives. He told her about his parents, Mom was a decorator Dad was a doctor. They never had any other children and they were currently divorced. He never got over the divorce it traumatized him. He also hated having such a small family. He told her when he was ready he wanted a large family with lots of kids. She told him pieces of her life but never went into detail about her mother. That was a relationship no one could understand unless they saw it with their own eyes.
Edward walked her to her car.
May I see you again?
I would really like that.
Well than can I have your number.
She wrote her number down on a napkin and waited to see if he would kiss her goodbye.
But he just shook her hand again and said goodnight.
After locking her front door that night the phone started ringing she was hoping it was him already. She had to keep telling herself. Get a Grip Bella you just left him you hardly know him. Of course it was Angela on the phone wondering where the hell she had been all night.
She told Angela every detail of her interesting night.
After much scolding, Angela finally realized that her best friend was ok. She tried to tell Bella to slow down and get to know him find out more about him.
Christ Bella He could be a serial killer!
Bella laughed so hard she almost cried. Angela believe me he is no serial killer.
She couldn t stop picturing him. He was taller than her but only by a few inches. He was thin but built very nicely. No viewable tattoos unlike her ex Jacob. He had emerald green eyes and bronze sex hair. He had a smile that lit up his whole face. No way was this hand shaking guy a serial killer. Bella shook the memories away from her mind. She had to force herself back to reality. She turned the car around and finally figured out what it is that she should do.
