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Happy Place Chapter 3
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Leo's POV
Stupid!!! I thought. Stupid, Stupid Stupid!! Why is it always me? WHY?
Here I am, sitting alone on a rooftop, you no, just thinking. Where is it? I kept on asking myself. Where's my happy place, my sanctuary, my relief? Where can I go and just be myself? Minus the responsibilities and jobs and everything else that comes with being the 'Fearless Leader'.
I just want to be free. Free to decide my own actions and thoughts and feelings. Free to be myself………. Wherever it is.
Sad, isn't it? Not knowing there yourself is?
I just have been doing it so long. Day in day out. No break, no relief. Just me being the 'actor' of a play called my life. Being the son my sensei wants. Even if I do change back, they won't accept me. My brothers don't even know who I am. They don't know anything about the real me. If only….
If only they did, you know? Things will be different. Raph won't be fighting with me and making fun of me. Mikey won't think I'm a stick in the mud and will ask me to play with him. Don will let me help him and not just say when I enter his lab "Yer, Yer Leo. I know when dinner is. You don't have to bother me." If only that would be. But it isn't. I'm stuck as being the 'Fearless Leader' and 'Splinter Jr.'.
Man I hate my life. Why do I even bother? My only purpose is to protect my family, but what's the point when they probability think your only there to annoy them and nag them to train. I only do it cause' I can't bear to see any of them hurt. If they are hurt then Splinter will surely blame me for not stopping them being injured.
The truth is they are getting harder and harder to control. And I'm just so tired.
With that I lay down on the cold cement, not even noticing that it had started to rain. I was just so tired. Not even the loud ringing of my shell cell stired me as I slowly went to sleep.
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