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We ate in complete silence and after that, I helped her cleaned the table and she washed the dishes. I waited for her until she finishes her work, she's still tranquil, but when her work were all done, she started asking non-stop questions

"Now sakura, tell me! Is it your friends? Is it Ino? Or is it about your crush? Wait, what's his name again? sa...sas....sasuke?...yah!...its sasuke!...I remembered...so tell me… is it about him?" asked aunt kurenai lastly to me. I can't help but laugh and giggle at how eager she is.

"Aunt Kurenai...the story goes like this..." I started off "I like sasuke who is starting to go out with my best friend Ino...and they want me to go with them in their date..." I elucidated

"Then what's the problem? Going out with them...listening to all he has to say to her is awesome...that way...you will know what he wants right?"

Awesome?

No!

It's not awesome!

"That's where the problem starts...just having them hold each others hands makes my heart painful, what more if they kiss? It will only make my heart splinter into pieces in the darkness...ALONE!" I answered and I gave her a painful look.

She sat beside me, since she was standing in front of me with both hands in her waist.

"Oh I see....then decline the invitation... as easy as that!"

'Easy? For her that was easy? For me its not! it didn't helped at all...I think I should die in sorrow, pain and regret...die alone since I was always abandoned!'

"But, aunt kurenai I already gave Ino an answer and it was a....yes...." i said

"Just be brave little blossom dear, you can survive that piece of cake, you survived when your father died right? Then you can also survive this kind of situation...it has no difference..."

My father died when I was still young. I don't have any relative left since all of them were deceased, except my aunt kurenai. That's when I started living on my own. i became alone in the dark, trying to fight what kind of challenge life may give me, and searching for answers why I'm alone.

'Alone...' my mind sucked the word alone as i bit my lower lip. I told my aunt I'm going to bed and faced my back at her.

In one of my emotional encounter I didn't know that tears were forming around my eyes.

I headed for my room only to be stopped by my aunt kurenai's voice. "Sakura, dear, wake up early tomorrow ok?" she told and I just nodded in response.

One tear dropped and for sure if I stay there it would never stopped, so I rushed to my room and released my tears.

I cried, wept and sobbed.

That's the only thing I could do.

Because…I'm useless

I was really full of heart aches, the room was full of cries, and I'm such a pathetic geek! I lay my tummy on my bed and I continued crying.

'Why am I always abandoned?' I asked my stupid self but no answer come my mind. I slept in tiredness of crying.

For me life is unfair…for me there's no tomorrow…for me no things are steady…and for me the only precious thing is the………NOW!!!


I woke up eyes puffy, lips frowning and hair messy. I step inside my average size bathroom and looked at my self in the mirror.

'My hair is straight, my pimples are gone, so it wasn't a dream after all.' I told myself and smiled but I sulked after opening the shower. I remembered Ino and sasuke are going out now, so my hope of becoming sasuke's princess would always stay as a dream

Just a dream…

A dream that wouldn't come true…

A dream…

Or…

A nightmare?

I placed powder on my skin and just a lip shiner.

'Wait…'I'm getting a little carried away by this whole make over thing…but I loved it' I said as I used a green t-shirt that was just about my size

I don't generally use jackets but this day is an exemption. I used a sleeveless jacket with a hood on top of my shirt. I used a skirt that matches my shirt and I hurriedly went downstairs.

"Aunt I'm going now" I informed her as I closed the door behind me.

I walked soundlessly and gradually.

It was still early to walk down the road of konoha, as I turn right I caught a glimpse of sasuke and Ino. They were walking hand in hand, enjoying each other's company.

'It's a shocking revelation…sasuke can give up his morning… walking just for……………Ino?'my inner just blurted, my heart twinge in pain,

Thanks inner that's all because of you. You made me feel that I really should just give up.

It really aches

It wont stop

Its just simply wont stop

Stop! I told you stop throbbing…I've had enough…enough already! ...can't you see I'm already alone…………in the dark…with no one to hold on to…

No one…

No one...

Alone…

I continued walking as if I didn't saw anything. My head was low and I was looking down. 'If only there was another way to konoha high' I told myself desperately.

I was startled when a pair of hands pulled me and let her face me.

She examined my face as if she doesn't know me.

"Sakura?" she asked, astonished. I saw in the corner of my eyes that he was watching as his facial expression changed from happy to being flabbergasted.

"Sakura, you're wonderful!" she commented as she takes my hood off of my head.

Sasuke neared us and wrapped his arms around her waist. I looked at him, then to his luscious lips. I blushed because just yesterday, that lips captured mine.

I'm a bit of guilty too.

but my heart ached..more painful than a while ago

his arms...

wrapped around her....

how i wish he also do that to me....

but it will always stay as a dream.........

what should i do?

my heart ached more..........

more....

and more....

till it....

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crack!

it was broken just yesterday and it got me all my strength to glue it together but it wont stay in place....

now its broken the second time...

"what should i do?' i asked my idiot self.

'simple....just walked away and leave them...ALONE...in...peace...' my inner bolted into my senses

'its rude to just walk away with out saying bye....right?'

"i'll be going now..."i informed them and turned around. I started to walk...first slow, then a little faster.....then later.....i was like running...

why am i running?

running from the world?


I reached the school not too early and not too late either. just in time to go and get my books from my locker room. as i entered the gate...

"sakura?" someone asked, i dont know from where.

"is that you?"

"please go out with me"

"wow"

"awesome"

"go out with me please?

"hey i asked her first"

"i asked her first!"

wow...too much complimenting leads to....fight? I tried my best to get the hell out of there because as far as i know im already 3 minutes late for my class.

'omg! im late what should i do?' i asked myself as my feet tried to walked faster or lets just simple say ran faster.

When i reached my class, our professor just simply told me to sit down in my seat. i sat down with a heavy heart. Sai looked at me and patted me in my shoulder.

"hey, nice dress and hello to your new form.............i.....liked it..." he told me.

I blushed....

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