'thoughts'

[other language]

flashback

"talking"

(Kai's/ Nicholai's p.o.v)

I had left the hotel about three days ago and I was so miserable. But I had serenity and Braidon by my side. I was so naturally in tune with the spirit realm that I could speak to the deceased. I was never lonely in the Abbey with them. Course the bad ones always hurt me and no one would notice. Serenity was our older sister who was murdered for trying to save us just as my older twin Braidon died for me asking Mr. Dickenson to set us free. Well they have been my eyes telling me where to move so I do not bump into things. I was currently in hiding since no doubt Voltaire was looking for me.

"Kai?" I was so lost in my thoughts and listening to directions I failed to notice my surroundings. 'Sis. Bro. Who are they?' 'They are all the teams. Kisa is not with them.' I turned around and began to walk at a quicker pace because I could hear them following. I began running as they sped up and then I heard the screeching of tires. 'Move to the left Kai!' my siblings shouted and I ended up summer salting to do so. I wanted so bad not too but then I would break my silent promise.

"Kai?" I turned to follow the voice and found that I almost bumped into someone. I felt my hands being grasped by someone with wet hands. They reeked of blood and I knew why. I reached my hands to touch the face of the boy in front of me. The felt, sad and pained.

"Nii… I am so sorry." He hugged me unintentionally hurting me with the blade embedded in his chest.

"Kai I promise you that you will get… out of here some day."

"I promise you that I will never stop fighting for my life and neither will I lose my spirit." I whispered as I sank to the floor with him as he breathed his last breath.

"I promise."

I snapped out of my trance and dodged the hand that went to help me up. I lost my voice after my silent thank you to everyone. I was on all alert and my whole body was tense just trying to not let disappointment come to mind. I forced my self to walk away and the moment I turned the corner I picked up my speed and ran with all the strength I had. No one could keep up with me when I ran full speed. I wasn't dubbed the speeding bullet for nothing. I was back at my old hide out with the blade sharks.

"I sometimes wish that I could fly. Hold me tightly in your arms tonight." Nii and Nee sang to me as I laid down on the cold floor and went to sleep. I stirred in my sleep when I heard a noise and got up. I rubbed my eyes and listened to the noises of voices. 'No! Not now!' I thought as the voices were getting closer so I quietly made my way to the beydish. I was always able to make it in and monitor the progress of my teammates because I had Serenity and Braidon to tell me what to do. I cursed as I sneezed a quiet sneeze but loud enough for any Abbey child to hear.

"Kai come out. We know your there." I was trapped and there was nothing that I could do. I raised my hand and tensed as I heard the movement of a swinging fist. Someone's fist slammed into my left cheek and sent me to the floor. 'No. Boris and Voltaire can't have found me now.' 'No Kai. It is not them.' I bit my lip to keep from crying as the one who hit me pulled me into a hug and cried on my shoulder.

"Why are you always doing this? Why do you have to cause such pain? Why won't you answer me?" Tala exclaimed hysterically and left me feeling guilty. 'How can I possibly tell them that I could no longer speak? How could I tell them anything by using my powers or abilities since they won't understand?' I felt the body go limp and felt panic grip my heart as Nii had done the same thing. I shook the body and felt tears rundown my face and tried so hard to make them stop. 'I was used to this. I have to force myself, I have to.' I couldn't keep up my thinking because a pulse stopped as the boy was only sleeping probably from exhaustion. Everyone of the Blade breakers and Blitzkrieg boys were sleeping.

"Kai." Tala whispered as he wrapped his arm around me subconsciously. I lifted the other bladers and laid them down gently next to us. I created an illusion for them so it felt real to them but to me it was all fake. To make them happy I would go to the ends of the earth.