Everyone sat around the lounge room watching TV, Alice and jasper were curled up on the two seater lounge, Jake was sprawled out on the floor with his hands behind is head acting like a pillow and I was on the single lounge with Jeremy curled up on my lap. There was a light rumble and a flash of lightening outside making the power flicker and me jump a little. Jeremy looked up at me with sleepy eye's I smiled down at him.
"Sorry bub didn't mean to wake you" I whispered holding him closer I looked up and saw Jake looking up at me with a worried look on his face I smiled slightly at him before I turned back to the TV. I hated it when he was worried about me we had been through a lot but now it was getting crazy he would end up sneaking into my room at night to stop me from waking everyone up. He'd stay all night, I hated feeling like if I didn't have Jake around then I would just crash and never be able to get back up. He was everything to me.
The rumble in the sky stopped until there was a bright flash then an extremely loud bang rang out through the house I screamed and held Jeremy tighter to me pulling my legs up on the lounge and hiding my face in his hair and started to shake. I felt hands on my arms and heard voices but they seemed so far away until I was moved from the lounge and wrapped in someone's arms being rocked back and forth Jeremy was taken from me gently and I curled up more.
"you okay Anna?" came jaspers deep voice he sounded like Jake but an older Jake his voice was soothing even from those three words I had stopped shaking. I nodded a little into his chest "did you want to talk about it?" he asked softly while running his fingers through my hair. I shook my head, only Jake knows why I'm so jumpy all the time it makes me feel pathetic and weak. I relaxed a little.
"I...I'm tired" I whispered loud enough for jasper to hear me
"Okay let me walk you up to bed your still shaking a little" he said pulling me away a little so I could get up. Walking up the stairs jasper had his hand on the small of my back so I wouldn't fall back down them. He walked me into my room and helped me into bed he sat down next me on the bed.
"Do you want me to stay till you fall asleep?" he asked running his fingers through my hair.
"No thank you I should be right to sleep. But thanks anyway jasper" I said softly closing my eyes.
"Okay good night Anna" he said getting up and walking out.
I laid in my bed for I don't know how long but the moon didn't even come out and the rain poured down I rolled on to my side and sighed, I closed my eyes willing myself to go to sleep when I heard my door open and voices.
"Is she okay?" came Alice's voice from the door way
"Yea she went to sleep a couple of hours ago" came jaspers deep voice
"She's been through so much the only one she's ever really open with is Jake" Alice said sadly
"You got to give the girl a bit of space it's only been six months and her 18th is coming up" jasper said pulling Alice into a hug
"jasper I'm so scared I hear her scream at night and I don't know why every time I get up to check on her I see Jake sneaking out of his room and into her room I'm worried about them" she said burying her head into jaspers chest.
"It's good she has him though, I don't think their anything but friend's baby he's like an older brother to her" jasper assured her.
I rolled on to my back keeping my eyes closed to make them think I was still asleep. I heard them walk away from my door and close it softly. I sat up and rubbed my arms I had totally forgotten I was turning 18, Jake had been 18 since April a month later the accident happened and he turned on me. Tears started to form in my eye's I rubbed them away and walked over to my window and closed it to stop the breeze and the rain from coming in I took my jeans and t-shirt off I spun around when I heard the door open and held my shirt up in front of me.
"Anna?" I stayed still watching the door open and some one walk in before they could look over at me I ran for my bathroom and shut the door locking it before I slid down the door to the ground. I heard footsteps then a soft knock on the door.
"Anna it's just me, Jake" I reached up and unlocked my door and moved away so Jake could come in. I sat in the middle of the bathroom floor my legs crossed while holding my white singlet top in front of me I looked up at Jake as he walked through the door.
"Anna you okay?" he asked reaching for the light.
"NO DONT TURN THE LIGHT ON!" I yelled and reached up to stop him but the light flicked on and I covered my eyes with my arm dropping my t-shirt.
"Anna wh-"Jake started to say till he turned to look at me with my shirt on the ground in front of me. I lowered my arms and looked up to see Jake looking anywhere but at me I realized my shirt had fallen I stood up and ran past Jake into my dark room.
"Can you please turn the light off now?" I asked while grabbing my oversized shirt and putting it on. I turned around as I heard the light flick off and the bathroom door close. "Thanks"
"Anna I...ah...I'm sorry I didn't realize you were in the bathroom I was just coming into see if you were awake so we could talk about school cause it's like our last term and stuff" Jake said still looking down at the ground.
"Don't be sorry I just...I thought...never mind I'm up now" I stuttered and sat down on my bed grabbing my pillow and hugging it, Jake walked over and sat on the end of my bed.
"I didn't mean to scare you when I walked in I should have said something I'm sorry." he mumbled running his hands through his light brown hair making it stick up.
"Jake its fine honestly I'm ... um just I was getting changed I didn't want to sleep in my jeans and singlet" I said quickly peaking up at Jake through my eye lashes and saw his eye's moving slowly up my bare legs, I threw my pillow at him. "perv!" I said as it hit him in the face I heard him chuckle.
"Sorry I didn't mean to look" he said and looked up at me smiling.
"If you really want to look there here" I said getting off the bed and taking my shirt off.
"I can't see" Jake said oblivious to where I was in the room.
"Right because you had enough light to let your eyes wonder up my legs. Go turn the light on" I said playing with my finger nails.
"Okay, okay" I heard Jake get up and turn the light on I didn't dare look up at him. I heard footsteps come closer to me.
"Anna you're so fucking beautiful" Jake whispered, I looked up to see him looking down at me.
"Jake don't. I only see you as my big brother" I said frowning at him.
"No... I know that... it's just that you really are." he said putting his hand on my shoulder. I stepped back away from him and put my shirt back on.
"Jake please don't make this awkward between us, you're the only person in my life I can trust with everything" I said turning away and looking out the window at the trees that swayed in the wind and were light up by the flashes of lighting. The back yard was huge and ran off into a wonderful forest that I had spent most of my time since first coming to live with Jake and his family.
"I'm sorry I just I'm stupid your my best friend and I don't want anything to come between us either." Jake said walking up behind me and wrapping his arms around me pulling me again his chest and resting his head on mine. I leaned back against him.
"Please promise me no awkwardness" I asked looking up at Jake. He looked down at me and smiled.
"I promise, now about school tomorrow did you want to get a lift with me or did you want to hitch a ride with mum before she takes Jeremy to preschool?" Jake asked moving to stand next to me.
"Um well I doubt I'll be ready that early you know what my hairs like of a morning it likes to sick up even though it's long. So I guess I'll get a ride with you since it will take you about an hour to get ready and but then we'll probably be late" I said and started to laugh as Jake turned to look at me with a mock shocked look on his face
"It will certainly will not take me an hour to get ready thank you very much miss Anna" he said covering his heart with his hands
"Okay if you're ready in half an hour I'll stop ripping on you for being such a girl" I laughed and ran for my bed before he could grab me and start to tickle me.
"Okay that's it!" Jake said and ran for me tackling me to my bed and started tickling me. I tried to get away from him tickling me I squealed and pushed him away but he held me tighter and continued to tickle me.
"Okay ... Okay stop! I'm sorry you're not a girl ha-ha" I said laughing and grabbing his hands to stop him.
"That's better" he laughed and hugged me "did you want me to stay the night so you could have a decent night sleep before school or did you want me to go?" he asked the smile sliding from his face.
"You can stay I couldn't get to sleep before when your dad brought me up to bed." I said looking down "but you have to turn the light off and not leave" I looked up at him.
"Okay I promise not to leave and to turn the light out" he said giving me a crooked smile and got up and turned the light out. I got under my blankets and curled up then felt Jake crawl into bed behind me.
"Good night Anna" Jake whispered
"Good night Jake" I said closing my eyes and drifting off to sleep.
