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Chapter 3: All Alone

She didn't like how strict and careful everyone was with her. Kasuka always looked concerned and Shizuo was always stressed now. Any remnants of their happy times from when she wasn't bedridden were gone. She was always so alone when they were gone or trying to let her rest. The only other friend besides them was her doll. She always found herself talking to Hope, wishing her companion could talk back for once. She would always try to explain the outside world to the doll. Just so she could keep her memories fresh.

"Hey...when do you think I will be gone?" Shizuka suddenly asked her doll after hours of silence. She was home alone so she was allowed to talk like that, in a negative way.

Of course there was no answer but Shizuka took it another way. She had created a little voice inside of her head that symbolized her doll comforting her or even just flat out telling her things.

{*scoff* Why do you insist on asking these questions? If you listen to everyone then you should be fine. Just like they said.} Shizuka turned her head to the doll to stare into her eyes.

"But, I am getting awfully tired of being still. If I have to stay like this all my life, I would not be able to see anything interesting!"

{But you will spare your brothers the grief. They would rather take care of you then deal with losing another family member.}

"I'm sure they could get over it."

{Shizuka...}

"Relax, I was just saying that."

The room and her mind went silent after that, no one wanting further conversation. She looked at the window that was far from her bed and sighed. There was no way she could see out of it. Even when the curtains were open, which was rare, she couldn't see from that angle. She would have to ask Shizuo to move her bed over there. This bed didn't seem very hard to move. She wondered if anything interesting could be seen from that window anyways, it didn't seem likely since it was just a bunch of buildings near the house.

For the millionth time that day, her body decided to shut down and make her rest again.

Shizuo was silently sitting in class, anxious to check on Shizuka already. He kept his grades up though, trying not to make anyone concerned for him and his health. He had fought through terrible colds as if it was nothing. He always felt guilty for leaving Shizuka alone, for trapping her in a boring house with just a doll that she seemed to talk to. He had overheard her talking to nothing in her room, and replying as if something was already said to her. When he peeked in she was staring intently at the doll, as if interrogating her.

Finally the school bell rang and he was able to walk home. Kasuka caught up with him just as he left his classroom, he was quiet at first, but when they got onto the streets that hardly any people they started to talk.

"Look... Shizuka's doctor called today..."

"...and?"

"He said that she can start to walk again... but not outside and that it be very limited."

"That's good"

"But... if she has Respiratory distress syndrome, we are supposed to take her to the hospital immediately so that it doesn't cause her heart to fail."

After Kasuka's words were voiced, Shizuo suddenly stopped walking and became very pale.

"WH-what do you mean Kasuka?"

"It means that he found more problems wrong with her."

"Then we won't tell her and keep her in bed."

"He said that walking could possibly help out sometimes though."

"Is he bipolar on his decisions?!"

"Calm down brother. We will just take Shizuka to the hospital if there are any problems."

"But still! I don't think we can risk heart failure for her! Also, we still don't have enough money saved up for this stuff!"

"I know that."

"We're doomed aren't we?" Shizuo's voice was heartbroken but serious. He didn't want any batting around the bush going around. He wanted to hear what everyone was afraid to say, but they knew that was the truth.

Kasuka nodded. "I'm very deeply sad to say it... but there is only a slight chance she will be okay. The doctor gave it four years without medical treatment."

He was trying not to choke up on his words like he would have done had it been eight years ago. He had gone emotionless and secluded the day his mother died. Shizuo had definitely noticed the change, but Shizuka on the other hand, had never met the carefree Kasuka.

Shizuo only nodded, tears slipping down his face already. They walked home in silence, Shizuo staring at the ground and Kasuka straight ahead.

They ignored the footsteps behind them, too tired to care if someone had heard the situation. It wasn't like they knew what they were talking about anyways.

Meanwhile, Izaya was standing behind them, now frozen in shock at Kasuka's last words. He knew that they had to be talking about his Shizuka, so those must be her brothers. They both had brownish hair, shades different though. The taller man's hair was really close to Shizuka's shade from what he remembered.

He didn't know what to do after hearing that. He knew she wasn't in good conditions, and the way she said it did sound like death... but putting an almost exact date on it? That was something he could not stand for; there was no reason for her to be gone. It didn't seem fair at all; something he had actually grown fond of was planning to leave him for good.

He figured he wanted to do something about it. Money was something his family did have unlike them; he just needed to know how to get it.

When Shizuo and Kasuka got home they went straight upstairs to greet their sister. She smiled up at them but the smile was starting to fade away. It seemed as if her effort was gone, the smile never reached her eyes.

"Good news." Kasuka looked at Shizuka, not really implying that it is anything spectacular.

"What is it?"

"You can walk around now-" Shizuo decided to interrupt Kasuka at this point.

"But that does not mean you can go outside! Or-or... walk around a lot! It's only a little! Got it?!"

Shizuka nodded, her earlier happiness that would have actually appeared was gone again. She didn't like the rules and restrictions on her new freedom.

"Alright, I got it. But, Shizu-kun... can you move my bed over near the window?"

"What? Why would you want to do that?"

"I want to look out of it; I've been too bored lately. It seemed like it would be a nice change."

"But when we aren't here... people will see you looking out."

"I will make sure only to move a little part of the curtain~!"

"A-Ah? I-I guess I will..."

"Thanks~! Can you move the bed with me on it? Or do I need to get off?"

"I'll see what I can do with you on it."

"Alright~!"

Shizuo moved over to her bedside to start pushing it towards the window. It was surprisingly easy for what it should have been. He quickly got the bed in the right position to the window and straightened up. Shizuka smiled up at him and climbed onto his back.

"Wha-?"

"I want to eat dinner downstairs for once... and be with brother and you when we watch TV. I haven't gotten to do that in forever. Please can I~!?"

"Yea, yea."

Kasuka looked up at his sister and smiled a big smile, which was rare, and nodded. "Of course you can."

Shizuo carried her downstairs and set her down on the couch.

"I'll go cook dinner, you stay here with Kasuka and watch a movie or something." After saying that Shizuo left the room and Kasuka went to sit on the couch next to Shizuka. It was a loveseat so climbing over to his lap was easy. She sat on his lap and rested her head on her big brothers shoulder. Kasuka was quietly smiling to himself, loving the moment and how innocent Shizuka was.

They had picked a movie and started watching it, Shizuka giggling at some parts and Kasuka just chuckling. It was moments that they had when they were littler, not having much care to the future. It was just another family moment, one Kasuka wouldn't forget for a long time. Near the ending of the movie Shizuka turned to look up at her dearly loved brother.

"What will you do when you grow up?"

"I've never thought the far, Shizuka."

"I know what you can be!"

"And what is that?"

"An actor."

"Excuse me?"

"For movies and things! Everyone would love to see your face, and you're already a hero to me! So you should act as a hero in movies!"

"I don't think that's how it works..."

"Please~?! I want to see you in a movie one day!"

"Shizuka..."

"Promise me that you will become an actor, even if it's one movie...or even if it is just a small part."

"... I will try my best... just for you."

"You're the best!"

Shizuka turned around and hugged him tightly, happily giggling into his chest. Shizuo called from the kitchen saying that it was time to eat so Kasuka picked her up and carried her over, a smile of his own on his face.

Is this story moving too fast? Or too slow? I feel like skipping it ahead 2 more years, but should I have a chapter full of family love?

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