It was early in the morning and I was getting ready for school. Ms. Corcoran had told me not to tell Mr. Schue and that she would tell him soon. I guess they hooked up over the summer or something. I had just finished coming out of shower and getting dressed and came down singing a song.

My hands are searching for you, my arms are outstretched toward you
I feel you on my fingertips, my tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being, burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive
I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding onto what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry, the light is white
And I see you

Take my hand I give to you, now you own me all I am
You said you would never leave me, I believe you, I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding onto what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

I walked into the kitchen to see that Burt was there. I guess he hadn't gone into the shop just yet. I was really to have him in my life because I knew that I could talk to him if I ever had a problem. It was the kind of thing that you just want to thank God for. I mean I was a Christian. I would even go to church with Quinn when I wasn't working on Sundays, which wasn't often.

"How's it going, Kid?" Burt asked me.

"I'm pretty happy." I told him before I noticed him holding his chest. I looked at him in concern and asked "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. It's just indigestion." He declared. "Just never eat gas station salami."

I didn't eat salami. It was at that moment that he slumped over and passed over. I was terrified. I knew what I needed to do. I took out the phone and called 911.

"911, what's your emergency?" The operator answered.

"I need an ambulance to 415 Whitman Avenue." I told her frantically, trying to hold back my tears. "I think my stepdad has had a heart attack."

I don't care that he technically wasn't my stepdad yet. I then yelled for Kurt and Mom to come down and they looked over Burt in shock. I needed to breathe. Kurt rode in the ambulance and Mom took me to the hospital in her car. I was having a hard time keeping it together.

They were going to perform surgery on him.

"You two should head to school." Mom suggested tearfully. "I'll make sure to call whenever I get some news."

"I'm going to stay here." Kurt declared.

I called Quinn to come pick me up. My voice was shaking the phone. I couldn't lose another father, especially since I didn't even know my actual one. I headed outside and saw her car.

"It's going to be okay." Quinn assured me. "This is the kind of thing that you need to pray about and God will help you if he can."

"Can you please sing to me?" I requested. "It'll really help me calm down."

Everybody needs inspiration, everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody when the night's so long
Cause there is no guarantee that this is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that
Cover me all I need every breath that I breathe
Don't you know you're beautiful

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you
I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me

"Thank you." I told her. Though, I kind of wished that she hadn't chosen a song about a girl whose dad dies.

When we arrived at school, everything was quiet and the halls were empty, because we were late. We walked into the office and were given passes to go to class. I don't know how many people knew about this. I was doing my best not to cry. I didn't want to cry. Okay, I wanted to cry, but I didn't want to cry here.

It was hour before I got the news. Apparently Burt had had a lack of oxygen in his brain or something and he was in a coma or something. I wanted to do my best to hold it together. I couldn't eat anything during the lunch. I don't think I was holding together very well to be honest. Even if people didn't know what happened, they knew that something was definitely up.

I did end up going to Glee Club at Quinn's insistence. I had to hold her hand as I walked because I was afraid of losing it.

"So I don't know if everyone heard, but Burt Hummel had a heart attack and is in a coma." Mr. Schue told the group. "As a teacher, I can't lead you in prayer, so I was hoping Quinn would do so."

We all bowed our heads.

"Father, please look after Burt Hummel and give him the strength that he needs to wake up and please look after Carole, and Kurt, and Faith. Amen." Quinn prayed. I needed to get to work. I don't know if I could take any songs at the moment. I headed home and got on my bike. They told me that I didn't need to be there because of what happened, but I needed this to stay sane.

During my break, I decided to go outside and have my dinner. I knew that I had to sing something. Avril always had a song for me to sing. I didn't want to sing "Slipped Away" because I didn't want to think like that right now.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away, I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone, the face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay, I miss you

We were made for each other, out here forever
I know we were yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Was everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me yeah

When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone, the face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay, I miss you

It was at that moment that I just broke down. I started to cry. I don't know if I could stop. I guess I just needed to let it all out. I was hoping and praying that things would get better and that Burt would get better. I needed to be anywhere else but home because I couldn't really be home right now. I couldn't step inside of the kitchen and keep replaying what had happened in my mind. I know that there was no way that I could have done anything differently.

"Are you okay?" A man asked me. I looked up at him. He seemed to be genuinely concerned about me, even though he didn't know me. All I really noticed was his sunglasses.

"I'm fine." I lied. "I need to get back to work."

I headed back inside and hoped that I wouldn't need to cry again for the rest of the night. I wanted to be able to make it through work without having another breakdown. I was pretty sure that my mom wasn't going to be home and I didn't want to be there if she was or not. I knew where I had to go. I rang the doorbell.

The first thing that Judy did was hug me. I guess that I needed that from someone. I headed to see Quinn. It looked like Avril was asleep. Quinn was standing by the crib.

"I am so lucky." She declared. "After what happened to today, I realized that. Sure, my dad is essentially dead to me, but I even hope that one day I'll be able to reconcile with him and he'll be able to accept me for what I am. Right now, I have a mom that loves me and a beautiful girlfriend and daughter. I'm going to do my best to be here for you during this. If you need me to drive you to the hospital at 4:00 in the morning, I'll do it."

She wrapped her arms around me and I started to cry once again into her chest.

"I love you so much." I told her through my tears. I really needed her to hold me right now. This was not an easy thing to deal with. "What happened in Glee Club after I left?"

"Mercedes sang a Christian song." Quinn explained. "So have you talked to Kurt at all?"

"No, I don't even know what to say." I admitted. "I don't even know if I have the right to feel this way because he's not even my dad."

"Burt is the closest thing to a father that you have." Quinn argued. "You have every right to feel upset at the potential of losing him just as much as Kurt and your mom do. I think that we should sleep in here tonight. That way, both of us will be here if you need us."

There was still a mattress in the room because it used to be a guest room. I took my uniform off and laid down with her. I knew that I would need to talk to Kurt tomorrow, but right now all I really wanted to do was sleep.

I woke up, feeling pretty sure that I didn't want to go to school. I just wanted to go to the hospital. Maybe I would get some alone with Burt. I need to see him, even if he is unconscious right now. It'll help me a lot, because even if he is unconscious and hooked up to a heart monitor, that monitor will at least tell me that he's not dead.

"Where's Kurt?" I asked my mom.

"He went to the bathroom." Mom explained. "So, Judy told me that you spent the night there. How did that go? Are you feeling better?"

"I don't know if I can say that I'm feeling better, but it did feel really good to spend the night with someone that I loved." I admitted. "So can I see him right now? Can I go into his room?"

All I had to say was that he was he was my mom's fiancé, which was true. I walked down the hallway and saw him lying unconscious there. Kurt came in just a few seconds later.

"You know I don't believe in God." Kurt replied. That surprised me a little. "If God existed, this wouldn't happen."

"Have you tried singing to him?" I questioned. "I mean I don't know if that will get him to wake up, but it will probably make you feel a little bit better."

"I don't know what song I could even sing here." He told me.

"Did you see Bandslam?" I questioned. The look on his face showed me that he had.

I'll never be a knight in armor with a sword in hand or kamikaze fighter
Don't count on me to storm the barricades and take a stand or hold my ground
You'll never see any scars or wounds, I don't walk on coals, I won't walk on water

I am no prince, I am no saint
I am not anyone's wildest dream
But I will stand behind and be
Someone to fall back on

And I'll be that, I'll take your side
If I'm the only one I'm used to that
You've been alone, you'd rather be
The half of us, least of you, the best of me
And I will be

I'll be your prince, I'll be your saint
I will go crashing through fences
In your name, I will, I swear
I'll be someone to fall back on
I'll be the one who waits for as long as you let me
I will be the one you need
I'll be someone to fall back on
Someone to find back on
One to fall back on

I had to say that that was one of the best most beautiful performances that I had ever seen. The best part was that Burt seemed to grab Kurt's hand at the end of it. I smiled widely.

I headed to school at that point to tell everyone the good news. Even though Kurt didn't believe in them, our prayers had been answered. I decided to lead the club in a number.

Has the conscience shown
Has the sweet breeze blown
Has the kindness come
Hope still lingers on

I drink myself a newfound pity
Sitting alone in New York City
And I don't know what

All the words that I've been reading
Have now started the act of bleeding into one
Into one

So I walk upon high and I step to the edge to see my world below
And I laugh at myself as the tears roll down
Cause it's the world I know, it's the world I know

I drink myself a newfound pity
Sitting alone in New York City
And I don't know what

So I walk upon high and I step to the edge to see my world below
And I laugh at myself as the tears roll down
Cause it's the world I know, it's the world I know

So this chapter is less about Faith finding Jesus, and more about her dealing with Burt's heart attack. Also the man with the sunglasses is going to be coming back in a later chapter. The songs in this chapter are "All Around Me" by Flyleaf, "When I Look At You" by Miley, "When You're Gone" by Avril, "Someone to Fall Back On" from Bandslam, and "The World I Know" by Collective Soul. Please don't forget to review.